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I Drive Myself Crazy
You know how I talk about Grindr like I am better than the people who use it? Then how I always come off as a slut-shaming queen? Well, I am going to try really really hard not to do that today. ...
Regrets
It actually takes a lot of work for me to be cool, calm and collected because my default setting for so long was cross, crass and chaotic. I experienced everything so intensely and I was very rea...
4 months unemployed
Today is my four-month anniversary of when I was let go from my previous place of employment. I had that job for thirteen years. That job was almost my whole life for thirteen years. I spent a lo...
I've Seen It All
I woke up to a text from my mother. It was a screenshot of a post my brother wrote about me on Facebook. I deactivated my account 11 months ago so I suppose that this is the only way that I will ...
Sister Update
The US Department of Agriculture is reviewing their US Dietary Guidelines for 2020 and they just had an open forum in which 72 people were selected to speak to the USDA committee. Last night I st...
Poppycock
K you guys, this is the third night now that I need to sleep with a light on because I was a fool and I watched a little video about a little twitter story called Dear David. Why did I do that? I...
Vandal
Something peculiar happened this morning. My sister Melissa texted our sister Miranda, her twin, about if she would be coming over for a visit this upcoming weekend. Melissa’s phone began to ring...
Scarlet
I am thinking about finding me a nice new shade of lipstick. Scarlet? I want to at least look pretty when my anxiety and depression gang bang me. I haven’t had anything to say the last few days....
My Ancient Herstory
“Nostalgia is a time when you knew your place.” I’ve been wanting to walk around the neighbourhood that I grew up in all summer. The one that we moved to when I was eight. Everywhere that I lived...
Angels on the Moon
It became obvious what my problem is, it hit me yesterday while I was getting ready to head out. Anxiety. My mind is not experiencing anxiety, my body is. I like to take the edge off of life with...
Hunger Games
It’s almost 1am and I can’t sleep. This happened last night too. I don’t understand what is going on with my body. My appetite is insatiable and not in the oh it’s so cute that I’m always hungry ...
Eye Candy
I feel like a dirty old pervert because I’ve enjoyed this performance a little too much. It’s at 2:55 when I got flustred lol It’s NSFW
Tongue pop
After my little meltdown in my previous entry, I started to wonder about the levels of bacteria in my body. Do I have candida? A lot of people live with it without even knowing so I was aiming to...
Power Down
Lately, I have been getting so frustrated with my body. My knee started to hurt when I went for a run earlier… joint pain? Like, really?! I really am 49 in gay years. I don’t think I can keep up ...
iDumb
My grandmother is battling a bad lung infection. I was woken up by my sister yesterday, my grandmother has her listed as an emergency contact, she was informed that my grandmother was rushed to t...
Neurotic Mess
I started to have a panic attack this morning, the timing was so awful because I was alone with my nephew. He was asleep and I was just praying that he would stay asleep until my sister returned ...
Onward
I did not want to write another entry until I was able to report that I had finally replied to some job postings… so yes, I at least applied for one position that I had found online. It’s at an a...
Media
So I did not cancel on Toni, I had her over last night and we had a quaint evening. It was like play pretend for her to see what living together is going to look like. She is very excited about m...
Energize
The roommates are gone for the weekend. I don’t have to be around anybody’s energy but my own. I deleted an entry that I wrote yesterday because I spent an hour writing it and it was just me comp...
RIP Norman
My heart is a little heavy today. This morning while I was sitting outside preparing myself mentally to go for a run in this heat my sister shouted out to me that Jess made a Facebook post about ...
The Secret
I was so flustered after I wrote my last entry. I carried that anxiety with me all day. I don’t know why that made me feel so vulnerable. I suppose that I have to admit to myself that right now I...
Trigger Warning
[The following entry may contain opinions that may not be suitable for all audiences. Reader discretion is advised] I did some window shopping online on Friday and I accidentally placed an order....
Pep Talk
I think that I have to restructure everything that I do throughout a day because I need to stop being comfortable with my life right now. I’m going to spend time with my day planner later and get...
Trigger
I’ve been feeling a little speechless lately. I exposed myself to a bit of what is going on in the world these days and I’ve just been shook all week. It’s hard to feel like I am allowed to go on...
Wake Up Call
I am a little flustered right now. My credit card declined at the grocery store, I kept making the cashier try it over and over until I gave up and used my debit card. Like, I told the cashier wh...
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