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Dissociation
DHs grandma and aunt came over the other day. DH was noticeably dissociated/distracted while they were here. I pointed it out to him, today, and asked if he’d noticed. He said he did. And told me...
Happiness again, FIL again
I told DH the other day that I’m so happy that I almost feel guilty about it. We had an interesting discussion about how most people hate and attack happiness. The most obvious and hyperbolic exa...
Died Suddenly
Was disturbing. I can’t get the images out of my mind. I’ve seen the pictures before floating around from different articles and they all look pretty similar even from widely disparate places an...
Happiness
Apparently stay at home moms and housewives are the happiest people around. I’m really starting to understand why. And I’m beginning to resent the prejudices that my mother, govt schooling, femi...
FIL
Yesterday, I found out DH saw and talked to his dad last week at the grocery store. This little bit of innocuous information isn’t particularly important in itself, it’s that I found out not fro...
1 week
I’ve been mom to my girlie Lexi Bird for 1 blessed, glorious week! She’s a peach. In and out. Our son was so laid back once we met the initial challenges, and this girlie is so good natured righ...
11/11
She’s here, on 11/11/22, which is another cool number! Water broke last night at 10:30, and 5 hours later she was here. It went so fast, yet every moment seemed to take an hour at the time. It w...
Help
Getting help has been biggest concern for this newborn stage. I’m selling into the newborn routine quite nicely. I thought I’d be more tired. But really with a few 2-hour solid sleeps in a day, I...
Ó3 Days
Until my EDD! Mercifully, the contractions that had been almost non-stop around the clock stopped last night. They weren’t ‘real’ contractions, but annoying and uncomfortable enough to keep me aw...
Tired
Contractions slowed down mercifully at about 5am and I slept till about 830. I don’t remember having them this strong this early, last time. I’m 39+2 today. Still 5 more days until EDD, but I’m n...
I feel close
Everything feels very close… My cat who almost never sits on me came around and sat on me today. My son has been extra super cuddly. I feel like I’m in the time in between. You know, the time whe...
I Saw A
dead man on the way to grandma’s house today. We were just coming over a bridge and saw a few cars being waved back, so stopped to turn down the nearest road (DH was driving). As we turned, I gl...
Are you Dangerous?
Soft eyes is how we describe the relaxed awareness of a good rider. Hard eyes is a focused, lazer-like attention at is particularly alarming to prey animals like horses- for obvious reasons I wou...
Looking Forward
to meeting an older woman who has a son the same age as ours and is also planning to homeschool with the rough curriculum I have in mind. Talking to her the past couple of weeks has been… Inspir...
Family the Original Socialist Government
DH said this yesterday and it’s pure gold. Yes I have heard it before - I am quite familiar with the idea that our authoritarian socialist communist power structure is fist imprinted through the ...
When it Rains
Well, you know. DHs gma and aunt specifically invited us to their big family dinner. They said that they miss us. Which is a little funny/ ironic bc these things have so many people at them ther...
Playing the Game
J(my mother) sent me an email yesterday morning. I’m a far cry from the reactionary emotional guilt/shame/do something response that I was so prone to for all of my life. I realize that I was tha...
Gratitude
DH is the handyman of handymen. He replaced ALL the shoddy old plumbing in our house with 3/4” copper for under $200. Even with today’s hyperinflated costs. He’s getting ready to install a new ta...
Standards, Insanity, Budget, Baby
DH and I talked about standards and how to know when they’re irrational, or rational. It was a pretty good talk. I related how my dad destroyed my brother’s social life, claiming that no one was ...
Disappointed
“The medical profession has accomplished much. It will accomplish more in the future. It will become a more rounded profession. The members of our profession who have the clearest vision are alre...
Dollar Cost Averaging, The Evil of Public Schools
The mathematics of dollar cost averaging (DCC) continues to amaze me. So, the price is down- which means people are selling their assets. I wish it were so, but it is. Mostly because I really wan...
Boundaries, FOO, Superstition is Cowardice
Boundaries, I have without exception experienced, are useful only as an internal asshole radar system. It’s fine (I guess) to “have” boundaries- but no one who you would actually need to have the...
Library, Growth
Walked to the library today with W, and it was a fun trip. It is not air conditioned, which was disappointing, but we spent a good 2 hours there anyways. Signed up for a card and checked out a bu...
Bully
I don’t get this type of behavior. I really don’t. It’s just that, if you bully someone into doing what you want, you know in your bones always and forever that nothing between you is real. It’s...
Time Flies
When you’re having fun. I can’t believe I’ve already entered the third trimester. This pregnancy is moving by so quickly, it seems. It’s odd that I barely notice that I’m pregnant, but I think ab...
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