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My husband had an online affair about 3 years ago. We're in a much better place than we were back then, but every once in a while, the weight of the baggage gets to be too heavy. I feel like we've tried too hard to just accept things and move forward rather than also healing from the past. I'm trying to he's.

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March 26, 2017

Trust. in The Present

4 months ago, I asked you to stop talking to her. 4 months ago you said you couldn’t just stop, but you were we’re working on it. 2 weeks ago, I saw you had a recent snap from her. I see you like...


December 02, 2016

2 years, 39 weeks. in The past

2 years ago, I was 39 weeks, 0 days pregnant. Given that this would be a repeat c-section, 39 weeks weeks 0 days was first day they’d allow for me to schedule the surgery. I was over being pregn...


November 23, 2016

Stay. in The Present

Why do so many songs have to do with cheating? Every time I think I’m doing better, a stupid song comes in the radio asking a lover to leave someone else and it takes my breath away.


November 20, 2016

A letter to her in The Present

Dear you, I have tried very hard for the last 2.5 years to be the bigger person, to show grace and maturity, to be understanding. During this time, I have tried to embrace you, your friendship, ...


November 20, 2016

Silver words in The future.

We talked. We talked a long time about what I want him to do. He understands what I want and why I want it. He wants it for me. He doesn’t know how to do it, though. He’s never cut someone off b...


November 19, 2016

Unanswered. in The future.

When it all went down, I told him to cut it off with her. I can’t recall why he said he couldn’t/didn’t want to, and I said ok. Against my gut, I continued to allow it. A few weeks after the fact...


November 16, 2016

Interruption. in The Present

It’s been a long stressful week-and tomorrow will be the longest day of them all. I passed out on the couch about 2 hours ago. I just came to bed, and of course now my mind is a twitter withall ...


November 15, 2016

Selfish vs. Self care in The Present

I want him to stop talking to her. He can’t abandon anyone (or thing-he’s such a pack rat). She’s having a shitty time at life. So much is going bad for her, and much of it is medically related...


November 13, 2016

Why? in The past

First of all, I want to make sure it is understood that I do not want to vilify my husband. I also do not want to excuse his actions. They were wrong and hurtful, but we were both hurting in many...


November 13, 2016

Visions. in The Present

Yesterday we had argument #5763790 over this whole thing. I say argument because it wasn’t a happy conversation, but it’s not like we disagreed. I just get frustrated because I can’t say anything...


November 12, 2016

The beginning. in The past

In March 2014, I found out that husband had been having an online affair with someone. The started by commenting on their blogs with each other. Then Facebook messenger. Then texting. And finally...


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