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Anyone who has experienced Depression knows there is physical pain that comes with that. Anyone who experiences chronic pain knows there is depression in that. They are two little buddies that ...

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So… originally, I thought this entry was going to be a Twitter Sized entry. You know… maybe a paragraph long… tops? Well… as I signed in… it dawned on me that I can’t limit myself to that expec...

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In 2005, I decided to have a theme song. did the trick nicely. These last 24 hours the song has been playing a lot in my head. I am assuming it is my subconcious mind trying to give me a pick...

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I’m… not doing that great today. Or yesterday. So, I’m not doing that great these last few days. Aside from yesterday being a Juvenile Court day (so filled with kids who are abusing physically...

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I’ve been working on something in my head recently. I don’t want to follow the path of everyone else and keep talking about the Virus and the Virus’ effect on things. Largely because (in my sta...

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I should be upstairs cleaning my kitchen. It is a mess. Three parts cooking a helluva lot more and Two parts working a lot more equals giant kitchen mess. But… I’m ever so slightly enraged. F...

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It is acceptable to mourn what is lost; even if what is lost is in pursuit of something greater, better, or smarter. If someone had to cancel a trip they were looking forward to and instead stay...

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I honestly have nothing new to write really. More “the world is crazy and I’m enraged” I suppose. Despite 1,000 new confirmed COVID cases over the weekend? Despite over 300 new confirmed COVID c...

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Again… OTHER THAN adamantly encouraging people to STAY HOME if possible (and telling those Conspiracy Theorists to SHUT YOUR FUCKING GOB)… I am not one to demand/mandate that a State should or sh...

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Obviously, this is nothing new. But still part of where I am. I’m not suicidal, I’m not sad, I’m not even really depressed per se. I’m fatigued. I’m existentially fatigued. I’m of a mood whe...

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So far my least favorite thing about working from home and everything going on is the emotional labor. You see, at the end of the day my job is about fixing what other people or circumstances ha...

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I think it is funny how people read my entries and think they know me. You read the words I share. And while I hold those words dear, sacred even, because they are my attempt to process and ven...

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At approximately 3:30 a.m. I woke up gasping for air. Got super scared that I got the COVID. Nope. Nala friggin shredded my CPAP power chord!! Then… ran to her dog bed! That’s the first time I...

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The following was written on Friday, April 17, 2020 between the hours of 8:00 a.m. and 11:00 p.m. I have to admit, every morning I wake up with a CPAP on my face. Helping me breathe. And I sit ...

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First, I’d just like to say that I am reading my favorites and friends on Prosebox but find that I am not noting almost at all. Not for a lack of care, not for a lack of interest, but simply… a ...

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Do you know what is keeping me up tonight? Social things. Social has gone online. Martha facetimed me, my parents call me, I play a FnD game online, but the majority of social is via things like...

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I will say this… prior to the onset of COVID19 protections, I was thinking that going into the office was stupid. There was no point to it, it was lame, I didn’t want to do it. I could just wor...

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What follows are not my words; but after another rousing day of “Joe Biden is a rapist, white racist and voting for Liberal Trump is bullshit. I don’t care if Sanders supports him!!” I felt… this...

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Iowa is still seeing an increasing number of C19 cases. New cases admitted to the hospital every day. In her daily briefing, the Governor said that we don’t expect to see the peak of this until...

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Perhaps this entry will be among those that readers would say should never have been shared. I accept that. But my heart, my mind, my soul desires to share what is locked within. So do judge m...

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It is Friday, April 10th. Our Governor, who still has not issued a Shelter In Place Decree, is holding fast that the State will be open and free of restrictions on April 30th. Obviously, as I w...

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I hope everyone is faring okay. I know many of us are not; but hopefully there are pockets of comfort, of happiness, of support. Last night via Laptop, I communicated with a friend in the Bronx...

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Hello, all. A brief update. Though I’ll admit my brain ain’t all exactly there right now. (1) I… like many studies show throughout the United States… am sleeping like shit. HOWEVER what the st...

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Blah. Just how I’m feeling right now. Well, that and… (1) I want to take a nap. I’m feeling… just over all kind of crummy. So I want to take a nap. But I can’t because one of the rookie atto...

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I’ll admit… I’m starting to get punchy. Not so much just from the “stay at home” stuff, actually. If it was “stay home” and that was it… I’d be okay, honestly. But the “stay home” while “conti...

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