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It needs to stop. My mind. My life. People's words. Their actions or lack there of. I cant take it anymore. I fucking hate it all. I feel alone. Stuck. Lost. Confused. Scared. Angry.frustrated.an...


December 19, 2015

Bored in The Beginning of the End

So today is close to Christmas. It’s a Saturday. I am bored just doing things here and there. Watched a super cute movie called Little Boy last night was such a tear jerker. It’s rare to find a ...


So in my life I have been lucky lately that I have many compassionate Witnesses that C my struggle I feel as though without them I wouldn’t be able to see invalidate the challenges that I go thro...


So luckily my periods not as bad as I thought it would be. The weather’s pretty nice so I’m in an OK spot I’m realizing how dependent I was in alcohol right now I don’t really want to drink becau...


So I’m about on D 4 of taking a new medication of taking a new medication and I think it’s working pretty well already I still have a long way to go but I’m seeing a difference in my sleep and my...


One day L One day you’ll be a thing of the past It’ll still hurt but I’ll be gone.


Life So my life can be pretty good sometimes I created it I got help here and there But I created my life I designed it and I make it and live it I live on my own my cat Big place Security ...


Watching the inbetwreners pretty funny but might get sick of it. Broke up w slimy cook guy. Good riddance. I did go into the bar drunk on Friday though made some small talk he didn’t approach. I ...


March 30, 2015

tired in The Beginning of the End

Tired of being blamed I’m not you’re punching bag I breathe I can fight back I’m here I can take it all in But that doesn’t mean I want to take it all in Doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt Just becaus...


etflix Rupauls Drag Race. LOVE THIS SHOW.love me a good nflix binge. I love how they are so empowered funny witty enthusiastic and creative and fun. Its nice to see femininity embraced. Since la...


Couldnt stop thinking about some bullshit my ex put me through before. But now that its kind of out of my head I don’t really want to rehash it. I went to my moms for dinner. It was okay. Good to...


Lately I’ve been feeling kind of low and depressed. It peaks certain hours than I’m fine and baseline and happy even again. I’ve realized part of the issue comes from what I surround myself arou...


I dont know how someone can be so cold. Oh well I guess. Um well I was kind of depressed before and wanted to stay in but now I really just want to go out. I get nervous going out alone but if I ...


Ok so my christmas wasnt that bad really. it was pretty normal. no big fights or anything. it was laid back relaxed and brief. briefer than i thought it would be. kind of bugged me how brief it w...


So im pretty upset. My job which is only two days a week has now decided to have me work one day a week. Its a cash job so the supplement was good. I have very little money. I was obviously tryi...


I will never understand their reactions. Such of destain.such pissing and moaning.looking at me with such strain.im just trying to live.survive.because I want to eventually thrive.i wanna live a ...


omg this 72 year old man on the streetcar was so wise to me. we struck up a conversation. i was nothing but happy and smiley and suddenly he said to me: “You are acting this way but I know you ha...


one of his favorite songs was killing me softly. i wonder why now now i surely know he has no soul so he wants to take mine mistakenly he thinks its his but i know him too well but i will never t...


got arrested for the first time. at 27 thats not too bad.... my week has been CRAZY and when i say CRAZY I mean CRAZY!!! first off i got arrested. nothing too bad. typical douche bag shit from my...


I just wrote this now felt inspired What I would do What I would do if I was free I’d run into the open wild Scream on the top of my lungs With joy Jump cry sigh Look around and see All t...


October 16, 2014

Tik tok in The Beginning of the End

Tik Tok So I have been watching on youtube Kesha’s my beautiful crazy life a show about her life. It’s quite interesting she is quite inspiring and unique compared to a lot of the celebrities an...


Three years ago today… 3 years ago today I almost lost my life And today for work training the training required me to walk right by the scene of the crime I had a panic attack I had to leave. I...


October 12, 2014

Damn in The Beginning of the End

I hate the system I hate that I live beside my abusive ex I hate that I’m broke I hate it all. :( I feel sad and mad. I hate that I talk to the cops and they can’t really do shit. He’s ruini...


Under pressure So I had a mini nervous breakdown. Wasn’t pretty but it’s kind of expected. I’ve been under a lot of pressure with the new job, dealing with my teeth pain, going to the dentist a...


Dreams So once again very positive dreams apparently. So vivid and huge. I dreamed about packing to move with an old friend of mine helping me. Apparently this means I am embarking on a very po...


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