J.E. ⋅ 42 ⋅
“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”
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I'm In this Prison You Built For You... in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
I came here to blah…but only blahed The above line was saved from the last time I attempted to come here and write something. It feels like things are building up on me again and I’m stressing o...
Off In The Dreamworld in Hello
I don’t know you but I love you, that’s certain. I had gone down the narrow streets, pass the wooded areas and into the middle of nowhere in my dream. We met briefly and exchanged numbers. Eith...
Funny Thing Happened On The Way To The Abortion Clinic... in Hello
The keyboard on the laptop has managed to die. So now I’m typing by USB keyboard and actually my words are coming out more accurately on the first try without having to backspace thousands of ti...
Pink Headband in Hello
Over winter break I had a lot of time to myself. Got a little…lonely…there for a while. I don’t know if I’m feeling stressed or bored or…what? Agitated some days…it’s a hard feeling to describ...
Been Waiting For This in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
I dreamed that I relapsed. In the dream I was walking around downtown on a slow night, came across a bar that is now closed down but I used to frequent back in the day. I went in, sat at a tab...
Merry X-Mas! (Indigestion 5:43 AM) in Hello
I’m watching what is my…second…third?…hour of A Christmas Story on TV. Did my usual, “It’s a holiday, more drugs please,” routine. While the drugs have subsided this case of an upset stomach has ...
Fuck the medication. I just want my isolation chamber so I can lock the door on the outside world.
It Does Get Better, Just Takes Time in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
It can be so difficult at times to relate to someone. I’m having one of my emotional days… While studying for my math final I came across the song, “My Orphan Year,” by NOFX. Hit me so hard I st...
Further Perpetuating The Cycle Of Greed in Hello
I should have never gone into the Guitar Center two weeks ago. I saw MY Yamaha keyboard that I instantly fell in love with. Now while yesterday was spent stuffing my face full of food at my fri...
Hooray We're Gonna Die! in Hello
Another day in the world and Ferguson, Missouri is burning itself off the map. Looking back on it…I don’t think Joey ever intended to return that hentai he rented from the Deep. I’ve ADHD’ed ag...
Sugar, Aw Honey Honey in Hello
I’ve been trying to watch what I eat and exercise more frequently. Where I have been exercising every day (except today) I have been consuming candy still. With the alcohol and then quitting sm...
I want to lay upon cold grass wrapped in a hoodie and stare at a pale blue sky Let my thoughts drift among the clouds Oh how a perfect day that would be Breathe you in and exhale a piece of heave...
Get Out Of My Head! in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
5:25 AM I just woke up from the most intense nightmare about my dad. Again, like always, he was still alive. Except this time everyone knew. I was lied to for the last 15 years about his death… I...
One Year Milestone in Hello
Today is one year sober.
The Plunge in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
There is a prescription of Paxil sitting on my kitchen counter that was prescribed to me this afternoon. Here goes nothing…
The Internet Can Be A Bitch Sometimes... in Hello
Let me start by saying that while I do love the technology of the last thirty years, it can be annoying sometimes. “PC LOAD LETTER? WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT!?!” My old laptop crashed…when it did I...
Stress With A Slice Of Stress Between To Pieces Of Stress in Hello
Come Tuesday, when I go back to school, I’m going to speak with an academic adviser about dropping my physical science class. We took our first comprehensive test over chapter one and chapter tw...
Instead Of A Cryptic Entry in Hello
How about you just unload for once. Here we go… I don’t hate my physical science class, at least not yet anyway. I’m trying to keep an open mind about these things and really, it has only been o...
What Do You Miss About Childhood? in Hello
I was invited to a party last night. (23rd) When getting the directions of where I had to go in order I realized it was near my grandmother’s old house. Took the back exit out of the neighborho...
Nightmare in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
Found out the ex has a new boyfriend. What happened to not wanting a relationship? While the clouds were thundering outside my window I had a nightmare about it.Mostly it was me on the screaming...
Walkin' The Streets... in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
Gettin' dat money, bitch. I'm whoring myself to work till Saturday. Paying what the grant didn't cover on tuition has set me back $241. I got online yesterday to check into the books I'll be n...
This Society (Fuckin' Rant) in Hello
I've been wanting to write this for at least two years now... Coal Rollers. People modifying diesel trucks with a smack stack to actually bellow out that black death into the air to protest the...
OOOOOOOOHHHHHHHH! in Hello
I'm walking through my corridor. All is black and the walls green letters and numbers...a complete jumble that all makes sense eventually. Whistling a lonely tune, I trod along, into my destina...
Meow Meow!! Meow Meow!! in Hello
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j1lZf2c00c4 I'll close my eyes And with a wave of my hand Your world is gone Scorched, wasted land I'll incinerate, penetrate, and never over compensate Your ...
I've Fallen, Now To Get Back Up in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
I have slipped into drug use again. Smoking weed on a daily basis for the last few months actually and for the last five weekends have consumed lsd, upping the dosage each time I've taken it try...
