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“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”
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Oh Fuck This! in Hello
TMI ahead, you’ve been warned. Since Monday I’ve been rocking a super painful hemorrhoid. Been using Prep H and Tucks pads. This has caused so much discomfort ugh!!! It’s getting manageable, t...
Carousel in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
I wish I could shut off the circus in my brain so I could finally get some damn sleep… 7:21 AM
The Downside in Hello
Till I get reacclimated to my medication, masturbation has become an endurance test to climax. Sigh…
No Work Tonight in Hello
Got to work only to realize they’ve been moving all the machines today and they’re not set up. Seeing how I’m still in immense pain from my back I cleared it with supervisor to take the night of...
Lower right side of my back is lilling me. Hurts to do anything. So, I’m currently at work in a comfy office chair with my feet popped up on a stool. Two guys took tonight off to watch the cham...
Dozed off close to 4:30 AM and woke up at 7. Can’t get back to sleep. BAH!!!!
Close To A Year in Hello
My last visit with Dr. Gilbert was on Jan. 29th last year. Did see my counselor a few times after that. She, counselor, is out on maternity leave. First kid. Good for her. Appointment went go...
Confession UPDATE in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
I don’t want to quit drinking cause it is the only time I feel good about myself even though it is nothing but self destruction. I’ve been crying since I woke up. I see the psychiatrist, not l...
Same Shit, New Year in Hello
Worked Sunday to get Monday off. Slept in WAY too late yesterday afternoon. Now currently a few hours away from 24 of no sleep. I’m gonna go crash for a few in a littlr while. Yes, I’m off to...
Back To Work in Hello
Christmas lunch sucked. Middle brother had a stomach bug and eldest was dragged to his wife’s best friend’s house. He wasn’t too thrilled seeing how she planned it in advance and only told him ...
Merry Christmas! in Hello
Sunday was a pain. Supposed to do it at our house when my aunt calls us at 6pm asking where are we at? Well, it miffed my eldest brother and his wife so mucj that they just went home, middle br...
🎅 Gabba Gabba Hey! 🎅 in Hello
Work went good last night, second shift guy finally came in. He’s been having issues with his legs swelling and intense pain. Been there with my feet when I had a gout flare up. It was the mos...
December 19th, 1948 - October 25th, 1999 in Hello
Today would have been dad’s 70th birthday. Instead, alcoholism claimed him at 50. I was 16 and watched him wither away from the man he was to the husk he became from ages 12-16. I sometimes w...
Well This Sucks in Hello
I’m still sick at my stomach from too much alcohol intake over the weekend. Roughly three liters of bourbon and twenty Guinness spread over from Friday to Sunday. I don’t fuck around when it co...
Soul Searching *edit in Hello
Started second shift tonight. Only four of us, three machinist and one fabrication guy. Wasn’t bad. Been thinking a lot today… It’s no secret this year hasn’t been particularly good for me. B...
Why Are These So Hard To Find Now? in Hello
Been singing this to myself the last few days. They used to be plentiful at every store but now can only find the minis during Christmas time. I miss the bars that were like six inches big if n...
So Far So Good in Hello
The new job is going good. Within the first few hours I was talking and cracking jokes with the new coworkers like we were old friends. Today I was pretty much running three machines by myself...
New Guy Jitters in Hello
Start the new job today. Wish me luck!
Long Two Days in Hello
So, Wednesday I had a job interview at noon. Medical machine shop making steel screws that go in the human body. Before I head out I learn my eldest brother is having surgery that afternoon fro...
While I’d like to think I’d be a cool dad…I would completely fail as a parent.
New Turn Of Events in Hello
So, my lawyer got it in writing that if I filed an appeal they’d file the motion to dismiss the charges. According to him the old judge would have already dismissed the case but this new judge h...
Court today at 1pm. Last time my lawyer had a deal everyone was on board with except obe person. So, in turn, I’m highly nervous today. Mom is recovering well. Sleeps a lot. I’ve been doing e...
RIP Stan 'The Man' Lee in Hello
Dear Mr. Lee, You’re original run on Spider-Man from the 60’s are some of my favorite reads from comics. The iconic character and his rogues gallery of villains continue to capture my imaginatio...
I never did go to that interview today. Another temp service for a job that’s roughly 45 minutes away with no guarantee of a full time position or insurance. Eh, I’ll stay where I’m at. Tonigh...
Can’t sleep. Have had a bad weekend. See the therapist Thursday for the first time in a few months. Got yet another interview at 11 AM. Gonna see what they’re offerring. Think I’ll read some m...
