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“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”
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8:30 AM. Discharged. Detox under medical supervision? In a hospital? Haw! I’m pissed…
Taxi's Are Busy And Mom Is Asleep in Hello
Peacock is coming to pick me up and drop me off at the hospital. No. I’ve not cut myself. I just need time to dry out and rethink my life. See y’all in a few days.
Molotov Cocktail Party in Hello
The places that still stand to us. Where bad things happened. We’ll do a community bbq where we torch that shit to the ground. Use the embers for bbq. We can eat this hurt then shit it out an...
Slather Me In Sauce in Hello
After watching Diners, Drive-Ins and Dives last night I’m craving ribs. Extra sauce, please! I dozed off somewhere after one AM. Woke up at four. Couldn’t get back to sleep. Now it’s six fift...
You Pussy in Dreams And Nightmares
Write an angry letter and sleep on it. I called in. Went to my regular doc about the numb finger and calf muscle. Covid isn’t fully understood, taste and smell could be dead nerves like my leg. ...
Why I'm Angry in Hello
This 33 year old kid aka supervisor went on a tirade and stimatizing mental health. Shut up. Go to work. Get over it. Go back in the shadows and everyone will be happy. I will not work throug...
I love that when I come home from a shit night at work I can’t bitch about it like she does. I’m all told is Well you know you can’t quit. No fucking shit you dumbass nitwit! You get to bitch...
Drenched Yet Again in Hello
.6:36 PM On first break sitting outside in the loading zone. It’s a bit overcast and a slight breeze is passing by. It feels good. Tonight is vacuuming and alcohol wiping every crook, cranny an...
Brain Droppings #1 in Hello
A porno titled Cum On Eileen. Our protagonist, Eileen, does a gangbang with the group Dexys Midnight Runners.
Assembly Can Kiss My Hiney in Hello
Since we’re out material I’ve been in assembly since Friday. I managed to make up an excuse and leave early then but no dice today. There is poor ventilation, they use a lot of chemicals (with ...
I’m still here. Dry? Ha! Don’t make me laugh! Seriously. Try. I’m too far down the drain of not giving a shit. Just let me die. That’s all I want. Life is hard. Kill me. With biscuits. And bbq. I...
The outer space station I have been dreaming about. And the pirate ship. And my grandparents house. Just nuke us. I’m tired of dreaming.
Dry June And Gossip in Hello
Back in the saddle again. When I got to work I learned that my supervisor getting fired had been the talk of the town. Coworker and I came to a conclusion, we’re pretty sure a few folks knew he ...
So Much For Being Lazy in Hello
Well, I managed to leave the house today. Mom and I made a day of it. First to Dollar Tree to get some fake flowers to put on granny and uncle’s graves. Then off to the cemetery itself. So wei...
Wrapped in a blanket, chilling on the couch. All is right in my world this morning. Nice ‘n comfy. I’m off for the holiday with no plans other than grilling tonight. Part of me wants to find s...
It Was Hot And Sticky in Hello
Like a wet fart in July. I still want a smoke.
Pitchforks And Torches in Hello
There is a dietary supplement that got banned statewide last month. “Gas station dope,” they call it. My supervisor got fired today for using it. This is the boss when I told him I was havin...
Acrobatic Make-Up Sex in Drugs 'n Drunk
It was close to summer time. I was with Erin, her bf Max, and Jessica. Erin and Max wanted to go to the park on the mountain and smoke a joint. I was all for that but Jess had taken a dose of ...
Shekkin' Booty in Drugs 'n Drunk
Not really. 4:58 AM Awake but really tired. I’m in bed, not the couch. I’ve been reading the NOFX biography The Hepatitis Bathtub And Other Stories. Have said and will continue to say (whenever ...
Strange Behavior in Hello
I had a weird anxiety attack yesterday. Happened a little before dinner. I felt off. Kinda like having an out of body experience. Then I started shaking like I was either really hungry or the...
Commercial For Pretty Litter in Hello
Visually appeasing cat liter. Are you fucking kidding me? So, I never did get to sleep after I wrote last night. At some point I was in bed and Smokey came in to headbutt me and want love. I e...
Owie My Esophagus in Hello
I’ve been hacking up snot ‘n’ mucus for two days now. “Tobacco smoke slows the normal movement of the tiny hairs (cilia) that move mucus out of your lungs. When you stop smoking, the cilia beco...
Lord Mayor Of Partytown in Hello
The nicotine withdrawal wasn’t as bad tonight. No irritation or aggressive behaviors or thoughts. I just wanted one after food or during boredom. Just because the worst of it is over, there is ...
I Feel All Sorts Of Gross in Hello
Boss got the bright idea of deep cleaning the machines. Not just a spray and wipe down. Nope. Here’s a step ladder, here’s a can of degreaser and a metal spatula. Have fun. There is YEARS wor...
Ball Of Anger in Hello
I’ve not had a cigarette in almost 48 hours. Made the decision yesterday to stop dragging my feet feeling sorry for myself and DO something to improve my perceived image of me. But dear lawd, th...
