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I think I’m pushing Kayden away

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Crying

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Fairyfriend is so perfect, Linky must have told her so much about his life. Lily is perfect to, Kayden tell me all the time. Joy’s just as perfect as the both of them… I feel so jealous....why ca...

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I feel sicker than when I had the flu… probably from crying so much… God…I just want to lay down and hife

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Another bad day and it’s barely even started…barely slept…spent a lot of the time coughing or crying my eyes out.....

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boyfriend doesn’t get it about my mom I won’t mention it anymore

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I feel like I’m all alone in the cold

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I need to write, I feel like I might pass out. I’m very tired mentally and physically, I feel emotionally drained. I just want to do my boyfriend right....but I’m not and I feel like I’m losing h...

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I think I need to sleep more, my hallucinations are coming back in the tenfold. I just had one about my keyboard on my phone and I restarted it in a panic. I’m paraniod about my bf, I’m scared he...

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I’m writing this because I feel like it’s time. This diary I want my daughter to read when I’m old enough to have one and maybe she’ll understand why her mother is understandable. I had a thirty ...

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I don’t know if I trust my mom anymore or if I ever did. Sure, I get along with her but I don’t really trust her now. She acts as if I’m always mad or this bad, rude person. I’m not. This is why ...

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Since they diary I’ve made many friends. And I’ve lost many of them. I started to wonder if I’m the problem and reason why but I can’t find anyway to prove that. If so it must be my personality, ...

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I’m so angry I don’t know know why I’m just so so angry. I’m crying I’m so angry. I want to just scribble on paper until I can’t stop. I feel my insides boiling and I just want to kick and scream...

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Emi left. And I tried to DM him today only to remember her left. John doesn’t want to do anything anymore and since that’s the only way we talked we’re never talking anymore I guess. Lili’s alter...

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I was never meant to be a good person. I was never meant to be happy. I get that now. I’m tired of trying and then all my work is thrown in my face. I don’t recognize myself anymore. I feel more ...

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There’s bad people in the world and today kinda proved to me how bad you try, you will be seen as a bad person. It will make you rot and went to tear yourself apart from the inside, you’ll want t...

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Wolfie was nice today, he sent me some nice messages. I regret my crush I had on him so much, I only told him to help not make our friendship uncomfortable. He’s twenty three and I’d never date a...

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So. Yeah life’s been sicky. I’ve been trying to talk to John, Lili or Kayden about stuff. But I pretty much gave up. I just. Gave up for a good reason, just trust me on this. Something happened y...

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Guess who has the flu! Anyway, today I ate lots of food. Because I’m excited because I learned my weight at the doctor’s Thursday. They where checking my measurements and turns out I’m actually ...

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A friend deleted a comment i made in public on their account, saying I’d cause them trouble at school… This is why I prefer stuffed animals. They’re never ashamed of you. Or yell at you. Or get d...

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Today… I’ve wondered if writing journals is really worth it in the end. I’ve been doing this for nearly a year now and it’s sad to see how much has gone wrong. However, many things have gone righ...

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I tried everything guys. I didn’t do anything to drive him away. I tried so bad. And he…he…lied. I saw in a server with my own eyes last week he talked about how he wasn’t over his ex, how the en...

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I don’t know if I want to write the mess that happened mid afternoon. I’ll write it tommorow or later tonight. Quite a mess indeed. Anyway, my boyfriend has been such a cutie recently. A adorable...

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So far my day has been good, besides a horrific nightmare/sleep paralysis experience this morning. It shook me to the core as I couldn’t move stalk for a few minutes, I barely slept for like two...

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So Emi and I made up. He seems healthier, he got himself a partner seventeen days ago(?) and he just seems more happy! I’m really happy for him. <3 Anyway, life’s been hectic I’m unsure. If I ...

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