HoniBunnyCakey ⋅ 21
I'm a pan girl with some issues and some dreams. I want to be author someday and live a comfortable life with someone.
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Morning in ❅journal 2019❅
I still feel bad about last night, I’m hoping I can cheer myself up by eating some food. Though the thought of doing so makes me feel sick to my stomach and mouth taste funny. I don’t know, I’ve ...
Ruined in ❅journal 2019❅
I ruined our special night… So Isaac had some free time and I messed up. So bad. I touched myself without his permission. I came without permission… I feel so…so dissapointed in myself. I wanted ...
I am angry in ❅journal 2019❅
I need someone to punch me or fuck me or something. I’m upset and that seems like the only thing that will help. I want to do something to give myself pain. I am going to try and finish writing s...
Starving in ❅journal 2019❅
Guess who forgot her granola bars~ So I have to wait till when I get home to eat, yes I’m extremely upset about it still. And I forgot my fucking PHONE charger so this phone better not die on me....
Ahhhhh in ❅journal 2019❅
ISSAC IS BACK. OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD. Okay so like he’s back and I’m so so happy. I almost started crying I was smiling so fucking hard I couldn’t contain myself. He’s back and I feel like a piece...
Emi in ❅journal 2019❅
Yesterday Isaac came back and talked to me for a hour or two, it was nice. He gave me permission to I guess explore while he’s gone sexually which kinda shocked me. I saw it as cheating, but he s...
December 17th, 2019 in Letters to my love
Good evening Isaac! How have you been cutie? I’ve been good, I know it’s a shocker. School was good though I was super sick Sunday night. Puked all over the place and stayed home the next day. I…...
. in ❅journal 2019❅
everything is messy. I can’t think straight. I feel like I’m dying. Everything hurts so bad I want to be loved but Isaac’s gone. He’s never coming back. No one ever comes back…I just want him to ...
December 14th, Saturday 2019 in Letters to my love
December 14th, Saturday, 2019 Hey Isaac today was a crazy day. Mom and I went shopping with my brother. I had coffee chocolate by lindor, really yummy in the end. Oh! I washed my hair finally and...
Discussion in ❅journal 2019❅
I have to forget about it. Never mention.it again, I’m skipping threw the cracks and people see you as weak that way.
Please help in ❅journal 2019❅
I don’t know what to do. I feel like I’m lying, a part of me is hoping I’m lying. I don’t want to be a victim of online sexual assault. I don’t want it. I want to cry and roll up into a ball. My...
December 10th, 2019 in Letters to my love
December 10th, Tuesday, 2019 It’s rainy outside today Isaac, a real wet feel in the air. I woke up today not ready for school and not ready to start another day of unless aching. I made sure to e...
Need in ❅journal 2019❅
i don’t know when I started to mix healthy love with hurting. It’s something that’s just happened. Sometimes I find myself wanting to beg my boyfriend to punish me, to make me cry amd suffer beca...
. in ❅journal 2019❅
i started starving myself because I just wanted someone to finally be proud of me and love me.
Ignoring Them in ❅journal 2019❅
I decided to ignore all my messages notifs basically, I need time to think about stuff. I’ve been thinking about telling my mom about my disorder, but I felt sick. My mother didn’t react to twel...
Stopping in ❅journal 2019❅
I don’t know what to do. I want to stop losing weight because I do t want to die. But my thoughts keep going back to everything, to all the work I’ve put in. I told people I’d stop but immediatel...
Lost in ❅journal 2019❅
I’ve been trying all day to identify what caused my obsession to start but I just can’t. Rejection is plausible but also my home life is. But everything seems to make me feel fat and bloated and ...
Obsession in ❅journal 2019❅
I guess it is that. I’ve started to feel my hip bones before falling asleep, the curve and simple groove of them all. It’s nice to feel them, to poke and prod. But they feel fuller and it makes ...
Goodnight Journal in ❅journal 2019❅
I’m upset. My diary is gone. Its all gone.
Tiny in ❅journal 2019❅
So i dont think I ever fully explained the weight thing with me. I’d say in second grade i would skip breakfast during the summer like a week long, because id just eat brunch. In eigth grade that...
Dear diary in ❅journal 2019❅
Dear diary, I’ve been alone all day.
Early morning entry in ❅journal 2019❅
I read all of your comments and ill take the advice you guys gave me for the long run (hopefully). Does anyone else watch hiding in my room? I don’t watch it for trolling or memes but im genuine...
About my boyfriend in ❅journal 2019❅
Note: i know i do this a lot but this relationship will not fail, I’m literally 100% obsessed with this guy, we’re both possessive, etc it works. If this relationship where to ever fail…I’d lose ...
Dear diary in ❅journal 2019❅
hi diary today is a day. im tired and idk…upset. im gonna go try to hallucinate or something.
The guilt is eating me up insi in ❅journal 2019❅
I feel so horrible for not texting her. The night before she overdosed we where supoosed to text and call, she really wanted to talk and i just didn’t. And now that she’s back from the hospital ...