Grey skies
by missfortunate16
Entries 26
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Boundaries
I have a half-sister who is 20 and has two kids. I found out about her last year. My immediate family doesn’t think I should be in contact. But I care about her well-being and the well-being of t...
Stuck
My mom had surgery. She will find out next Tuesday if the breast cancer spread anywhere else. The MRI they did a while ago didn’t show any additional tumors. We talk almost every day. Even if she...
My Initial Thoughts on Poverty, Inc.
The documentary was thought-provoking and well worth spending time to watch even though I had several contentions with parts of it. It only focused on one of the damaging aspects of Structural Ad...
The Destroyer
The dark parts of my life have been instrumental to person I am and who I am becoming. By witnessing or facing mistreatment, I realize the immense impact our actions or words have on others. Our...
My husband is drunk
Last Monday, he stayed home from work to mourn the anniversary of his father’s passing an got drunk. This weekend he got drunk again. Then tonight I got home from a networking function I attended...
Depression is catching
Right now a lot of people are upset about the state of the world and in the states things look pretty bleak politically. Personally I really liked Bernie but I’d rather see Hillary be president t...
Temper Tantrums
Michael just got mad at me because I opened the Muenster and German Blue Cheese for my grilled cheese. Like really mad. And I just wanted something easy to eat because I have a staph infection an...
Septo-rhinoplasty recovery
Today is ten days since I had septo-rhinoplasty surgery. I broke my nose a few years ago, the fracture created breathing problem. My septum was also very deviated. To fix it they broke my nose ag...
Cascade
Cascade and caress The cold air pushed against chest Purges the rising steam Elements take and submit My wild-ling breast We are the narrative we know Or against the grain (but I’m so tired) So ...
Three-Legged Dog
I had a horrible dream last night. I accidentally amputated my sister’s dog by stepping on him with something. So he was running around three-legged, his stump red and fleshy. I spent the day ge...
For tomorrow
Nana has her hip replacement surgery scheduled for tomorrow at 1:45 p.m. EST. And I have several urgent deadlines at work that suddenly came up. And as usual I’m feeling worn out.
Too heavy
Heave onto the page strands without abandon images fade meaning more in hindsight Just a word away and a further haul than one can pull
Soul less
Elocution, electrocution Under the glass and Watch it burn Sear words into unfettered flesh Under the glass and don’t let it out Flaking and fading away But keep watch Sizzling and flutteri...
Ache
I’ve just been so absolutely tired. I stumble thought the day, my eyes aching and blurry. I’ve managed to pull it together– to put my thoughts to paper, to respond to others with equal enthusiasm...
Loopy
Really warm. Really cold. Tired. Faint. And achy.
Loopy
Really warm. Really cold. Tired. Faint. And achy.
A time
I’ve been reading this book about a woman investigating a murder, which turns out to be an elaborate ploy to fake a death during wartime. Increasingly, she takes on responsibilities related to th...
Nana
My nana is my oldest relative and probably has the most health issues. She has survived a heart attack, diabetes, and cancer. Last summer she was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s. Now I think they said...
Lucky
I don’t know why but lately I’ve been feeling very lucky. My family sometimes can be very judgmental– last year when we were in Mexico my other pulled me aside and said she felt sorry for me. Tha...
The World Expands
When I was kid I don’t know if I knew that there were more than a handful of restaurants and fast food places in the world or if I even cared. We went out to eat only for very special occasions, ...
Crow wing
I cry because it didn’t go as expected and I am lost. In the blizzard, in the cold. Life as a cruel metaphor. My husband passed out in the early evening and I am sick in the bathroom. Carry your ...
Getting to me
Things are getting to me. I feel surreal and sleepy. How can humans commit such atrocities toward each other. My heart feels cold. I miss those who love me most. My jaw is sore. I want to be mo...
Sunray
I long for sunrays, across my outstretched body. My only childhood friend after the black and blue, solitude. The mind meeting the silence of my sleepy furry friend. A blank canvas, that found an...
Every night my teeth are falling out
I am an objective, a dollar sign, another check on a to-do list. I am cog in the wheel, worn down flesh, the grinding halt after the rust of ill-maintenance. Love is falling from me. I ache, fu...
Hurt
My back has been in pain off and on for over four years. It seems to have steadily gotten worse over the last few months and particularly in the last few weeks. I have been attending physiotherap...