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August 19, 2020

EXCELLENT!

Bill And Ted’s Excellent Adventure is on. Okay, I need to clarify something. She punched me ‘cause I told her to. I think…? Everything gets real fuzzy towards the end there. We established lon...


August 19, 2020

Oh I Feel Like Ass

She fractured her hand when she punched me in the back of the head for drinking. Today we’ve made up but lawd do I feel awful. Headache, heartburn, general lethargy in my body. Day one. Back t...


August 18, 2020

As An Adult

Doug has anxiety. Get him a therapist and meds, STAT! Rocko’s Modern Life is still insane. Please, don’t touch! (FEEL THE ITCH OF REAL WOOL!) Rugrats should all be dead by the time the first film...


I WANT A FUCKIN’ BEER! Imma smoke a buncha pot and focus on Spongebob. Obviously still craving a drink. Roughly two-ish hours later… I ended up watching Twilight Zone and Alfred Hitchcock Hour. ...


August 16, 2020

27 Weeks

Blah blah. Nothing really to say. Been bored this week. Went to a job interview and there was no A/C in the building. Yeah fuck that. Got another one lined up for Thursday. We’ll see how that g...


August 15, 2020

Untitled 08/15/20

Addiction. I was driving home from dropping off books at the library, lost in a thought. For someone who has a heroin addiction that gets clean, what’s the craving like? When it gets in the bra...


August 11, 2020

Experiment

I’ve done this since yesterday. Every time I find the urge to pick up the phone out of boredom, I read a chapter in a book. The world (especially the U.S.) is a fuckin’ nightmare and I would like...


August 10, 2020

Muscle Relaxer

My right knee is hurting bad. Tried laying in bed with Peacock and can’t get comfortable so I popped a muscle relaxer. Now I’m on the couch watching Se7en. “What’s in the box?!?” Good flick. I...


August 09, 2020

26 Weeks

I’m good. Last night was hard. Don’t know what put the idea in my head but it was hard to shake. I think it’s a combination of stress and boredom.


August 09, 2020

Fuck You x 2

You don’t rule me. You aren’t me. You’re a stupid urge. You’re a stupid craving. I’m not giving in…


August 06, 2020

Fuck That!

Peacock and I got fired yesterday for going on a non-break time smoke break. It was when she first got there in the morning and wanted to see me. Someone tattled to the boss, boss watched the c...


August 02, 2020

25 Weeks

February 9th is the official day I quit but it was on a Sunday to which I count as weeks. When that exact date rolls around it’ll be a full year. Off Friday and Saturday night. Caught up on ho...


July 31, 2020

Pirate Metal!

“Keelhaul that filthy landlubber Send him down to the depths below Make that bastard walk the plank With a bottle of rum and a yo ho ho”


July 27, 2020

Stolen From Mandy H.

44 Odd Things You Don’t Know About Me Do you like blue cheese? Nooooo Have you ever smoked? Verily Do you own a gun? No but Peacock does. What is your favorite flavor? Of? Blue raspberry Jolly R...


July 26, 2020

Six Months!

Woo hoo! Made it 1/2 a year sober! Here’s to another six months! Today I celebrated with ribs from Dreamland BBQ. Gotta work tonight. Bah!


July 26, 2020

An Offer He Can't Refuse

I’m watching The Godfather for the first time right now. Tis awesome so far. Off last night so we stayed up all day. Ran a fee errands, went to visit her parents, scored a bag of weed and passe...


July 22, 2020

Frank Castle

It’s no secret I love the comic book character The Punisher. Have been a fan for years. On the way home from work the other day the truck in the lane next to me had a Punisher skull decal with…w...


July 21, 2020

Court Update

Back in my car by 1:15 PM. Next date is Dec. 1st. I’ve got a damn headache that won’t go away. 4:47 PM Can’t sleep. Headache is gone but lawd my knees hurts. Stood all night at work basically in...


July 21, 2020

Fuck-tacular!

I hate machining in MM. Court is today at 1pm. Was supposed to be back in March then ‘Rona happened. Joy! /s


July 20, 2020

Acquired A Friend

And now for something completely different…


July 19, 2020

Twenty-Three Weeks

One more till I hit six months. So much has happened in that time span, it’s nuts. Also, fuck it’s hot outside! 93 F or 33.88 C.


July 18, 2020

Lost

I just don’t know what to do anymore. She refuses to see a therapist. Lately just about everything I do or say sets her off and she completely shuts down and won’t talk to me till I’m apologizing...


July 16, 2020

Argh-O-Nomic

Got the last tooth pulled today plus a cavity filled. Took the doc a few good tries to get the damn thing out. He actually had to take a break and let it sit before coming back in ten or so min...


July 13, 2020

Tired

Work was slow as I only had one machine to run. I really didn’t realize just how tired I was till we left and got food. Nearly fell asleep at the table. Was in bed and asleep before 9 I think....


July 12, 2020

22 Weeks

Peacock is napping. I’m stretched out watching The Simpsons. I don’t want to work tonight. 😝


Book Description

I came on my own volition.
I am the man that got away.

Work -
Tonight I clocked in at 4:30 PM and it was suddenly Wednesday when I worked 6:45 AM to 6 PM with only an hour lunch break and on my feet the rest. I was trying to relieve Logan in the back who was frying chicken both for our loose case and boxed hot case so he could go to lunch. Instead I got mixed with a redneck who wanted a Philly steak and cheese. I made his sandwich to order only to be confronted with the elderly gentleman behind him. He, to this shit. o, wanted a Philly. I was annoyed. Angry. Granted chicken side cooking sucks At least you’re away from the customers. I can, “pretend”, like I’m cooking chicken in the back but dick around for ten minutes, which actually rarely happens. You learn to smile and accept this shit. Made him his sandwich, didn’t stop to ask the next customer if he needed help. Instead, went straight to the back and told Logan to take his lunch, I was taking over, box up what just came up out the fryer and we’re good.

It was just one of those days. People wonder why I get stoned before work.

I.
Am.
Robot.

Tell.
Me.
What.
Is.
Next.

I’m versatile.
Put me in any situation and I come victorious.
Even on the bad days.

So when I go the hardcore bitch mode of my assistant manager on Wednesday after my eleventh hour there. I got irate.

I know she does a job for two.
Her boss/my boss sucks ass.
But fuck....I’m part time.
If you want to bitch and yell about the shit that the full timers didn’t do…bitch to them.
DON’T MAKE ME DO THEIR FUCKING SHIT THE LAST HOUR I’M THERE!
I’ve been working for this slave camp for three and a half years.
I lost my insurance last year due to me being stupid and the store manager catching on. Which is actually a big blessing. I haven’t missed a day in a year.

But I’ve been there for every shift.
Sleep, no sleep?
Fuck it.
Show up for work.
The computer takes over on schedule and now I don’t qualify for our good insurance.
I have to take the government stuff?
OK.
I’m a democrat.
Lifelong.
BUT FUCK YOU OBAMA!
Don’t tell me what to do.
I’ll go another year without health insurance.
I want my good Blue Cross Blue Shield Back.
Make my job give me the hours back for insurance.

People close to me say I need to see a therapist.
After A.A. and an almost check in at rehab.
Maybe I do need anti-depressants.

This is a rant with no one I know reading this.
Its liberating.

I welcome ProseBox into my life.