Struggles with Addiction & Depression
by Trouble Every Day
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Ordinary Corrupt Human Love
Life comes screaming through the room whether you invite her in or not. I stand on the precipice of the first great risk of my entire life and I am terrified and exhilarated. In just more than a ...
You Would Not Believe The Week I've Had
I’m having the greatest week of my life. On Friday I took a bump on my longboard that I’ve rolled over countless times before but something about my speed or my foot placement or just the way a b...
Sabotage Expert For Hire
I keep writing about how I’m forgetting to be sad but maybe what I really mean is that I still don’t understand how to be happy. I look at everything from my slanted mindset and the true shape of...
I Keep Forgetting to be Sad
Consequentially I keep forgetting to write. I’m still taking Lexapro and I haven’t missed a day yet. Booked my follow up to refill my prescription, even. The weather is finally warm and I am able...
The List
The loss of consensus reality. Is love possible? Is it real? The dissolution of the social contract. DIY Punk, Electronic & extreme music. Outsider Art. Science Fiction/Fantasy. Superna...
Slipping a Little
I’ve fallen behind in my writing and schoolwork a little bit but I have to give myself a little leeway; so long as I get properly back on course I can’t say I have been wasting time. When I’m not...
I'm Nearly 40 and Still a Child
No journal updates lately personal or private but I have refocused on my schoolwork. My first piece of writing since I stopped really going at it full speed was a little clunky, awkward and very ...
irredeemable
Some people are just too far gone for saving. I’ve known that was the case for my younger brother since my teenage years when he proved himself to be a relentless sociopath who delighted in the s...
Okay.
I can’t lose sight of my objectives. Happiness is a dangerous distraction. Contentment is the destroyer of creativity. It’s so easy for me to lose myself in spending time with another person. Eve...
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
My ex reached out to me. It was completely unexpected considering the way things ended. I had done a fairly excellent job of convincing myself I was never going to see her again and I had to move...
Day 5 10mg Lexapro
I’m still taking my medication. I still feel good. I didn’t write much yesterday (or at all) but my writing computer had to have its OS reinstalled and I’m lucky I didn’t lose anything important....
Positives & Negatives
Unquestionably experiencing some side effects tonight for the first time after I started on the antidepressants. I knew there would be some changes in my overall experience of things and I’ve wel...
10mg Lexapro Day 3, Smoked Most of the Pipe Resin
Again I woke up today ready to face the world and had to will my body to stay in bed with my cats beside me. I know that my long mornings in bed will be a thing of the past very soon; I feel a dr...
Day 2 of 10mg Lexapro, Down to my Last Crumb of Weed
Today is the second day of this new adventure I’ve finally pushed myself into with the goal of becoming a better, well rounded and happier person. It’s also my Mother’s 63rd birthday. Last night ...
Book Description
A public diary to catalog my thoughts, struggles and accomplishments as I leave behind the harmful substances and habits of my past to form new positive daily habits and try an antidepressant for the first time in my life (Lexapro).