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Updert
I’m not too confident about how the job interview went. I’m overqualified for the position and the hiring manager made that into a concern. There were two times that she had to bring me back to t...
Hopeless
Kyle got back to me, he and Evan do not have a way to create space for me. My mother officially said that she can’t help either. It’s Leanne’s birthday weekend so I’m not going to confirm her off...
Oceans Rise
I have an interview for a Marshall’s this Friday. My interview skills are pretty good but I am a little rusty. I’ll be fine. It’s seasonal and part-time which could roll into full-time. Not that ...
Doubt
Well, call me Caitlyn I’m triggered. Not literally but a friend shared a post that had an image of a man crying in his car. He took his life shortly after that image because he had no recourse fo...
Update
Things are starting to feel real. I called the storage locker place and I go down tomorrow to reserve my unit. We’ll sort out the details from there. Then after that, I will plan how to get my bi...
Zombie
I can’t get an image out of my head that I had in my dream last night. One part of my dream was lucid and that was when I came across my father. He passed away when I was eight and when I approac...
Derp
The majority of the places that I have applied to over the last few weeks close tomorrow as part of the COVID response. No recourse for them this time I believe. My Prime Sinister is too busy fig...
Gay Climate Change
I spent the afternoon with Kyle. We went out for lunch and then we overstayed our welcome. He’s so inquisitive, anyone who likes to hear themselves talk would like this guy. Not to say that I am ...
Chinada 2020
My Prime Sinister has a deep disdain for democracy and it is startling. The direction Trudeau is taking Canada terrifies me. For starters, he openly praises China’s dictatorship. Not China, their...
World Wide Web War
It’s another fine day in 2020. It could all just be in my head but I am feeling some tension in this house. My sister suggested that we have a family meeting when Matt comes home. That didn’t hap...
Inner Monologue
My brother-in-law comes home today. My sister suggested the other day that we should have a family meeting. She was feeling torn over the weekend and I wasn’t really in a time & space to help...
Humpty Dumpty
The most important spiritual growth doesn’t happen when you’re meditating or on a yoga mat. It happens in the midst of conflict. When you’re frustrated, angry or scared and you’re doing the same ...
Aspirations
What are my aspirations? I haven’t given that any thought as of late. I was just getting my footing when the C19 response pulled the rug. Toni and I were planning to move in together so we could ...
Homelessness
I stopped tracking all the places that I have applied to. I know that I’ve applied to multiple departments within certain places. Of course, that’s not what is weighing me down. I was reminded ye...
Canadian Thanksgiving
Bev cooked up a vegan thanksgiving yesterday. She hosted it at her boyfriend’s parent’s house because they have a dishwasher. The address was right across from where I grew up. I didn’t recognize...
The Situation
What I thought was just a goal turned out to be a command. My mistake. My country, Canada, is in a record recession that is only getting worse, is in the middle of a pandemic that is only getting...
Rock Bottom Blues
I’m made of lead in the mornings. I’m too heavy to move. Last night I had a panic attack only I didn’t have the panic. I’m absent fear when I have anxiety and panic attacks. I’ve lived with this ...
The Ego Battle
The biggest and badest covert narcissist that I have in my life is myself. My ego. I’m struggling to hang on to my narrative. My mind is trying to contextualize myself into being a perfect victim...
Liberal Privilege and Leftist Derangement
Liberal Privilege 1) Believing you have the right to control other people’s lives 2) Believing you have the right to never hear other opinions 3) Believing that when you’re offended others have t...
How to Manufacture a COVID Crisis.
A PCR (polymerase chain reaction) is different from a PCR test. Dr. Kary Mullis, the inventor of the PCR differentiates the PCR from the PCR tests (the standard test we’re currently using to dete...
Monday Mood Poisoning
All mood no context. I have mood poisoning. To quote the overrated Beyonce I woke up like this. I suppose the dread I am experiencing is just my lack of control. I don’t have control of Toni and ...
Red Pill
It was painful to watch another content creator that I like fall for lefts fake narratives. He’s so brilliant how can he not be aware of his own confirmation biases? He’s doing shitty sensemaking...
Not So Gay
I had an interesting dream. I was at a vacation spot with my relatives. My mother’s cousins. In the dream, I was debating heavily about treating my same-sex attraction and signing up for conversi...
Le First Interview
My nerves are hitting me. I’ll be vulnerable during the job interview and I suppose my mind feels threatened about it. There is no threat. Worry and excitement are the same experiences in the bod...
When You're Too Different From Others
I measure my eyes by the moon. How much detail can I see? Is it a blob or can I see it’s many shadows? The moon is full and the sky is clear and I felt compelled to stand outside and observe the ...
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Things happening in my life currently