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Toni and I stayed up late drinking and just shooting the shit last night. We are going to hang out by the pool when she gets back from work later. Restrictions are pretty lifted so we don’t have ...

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I had my talk with Toni. It went well enough. Naturally, she was lost for about half of it. I put together a list of the expenses and our agreement, at her behest, and she has no memory of reques...

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I just got back from a little walk. I had to vent to Bev on the phone. Toni came at me out of nowhere about the hydro bill (electrical bill). I moved it to an open spot so I could clean the table...

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When I got home from work on Friday Toni was in rough shape. She had a panic attack so severe that it caused her to spend the entire day throwing up. She was crying uncontrollably all day long an...

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I woke up in a decent mood again today. I was more engaging and interactive with people at work I noticed. I felt light, not so heavy-hearted. The existential dread did not bubble up and ruin my ...

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Yesterday I was just fuming when I was at the markets. It hit me that Toni accused me of being a freeloader. She has no memory of ever telling what to take out of rent, regarding what I send to h...

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I spoke with my grandmother yesterday, she sounded rough. She was in good spirits though, she was very tired. She’s just down to a lung infection now. After my shift today I am helping my mother ...

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I did not start my day off on the best note. I had a horrible dream about my mother. Watching her go through the motions with how things are with my grandmother made me appreciate her so much mor...

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My anxiety was high the last few days. Toni and I resolved things, more or less, but I can’t seem to let it go. The more I think about it the more it just bothers me. I was opening up to her abou...

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Toni and I finally had our talk about our finances. She brought it up. She didn’t seem to recall having any previous conversations about it ever in which she would tell me “don’t worry about it I...

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My heart is heavy today. My country is using the graves of my people to build public opinion about Bill C-15, UNDRIP (Declaration on the Rights of Indigenous Peoples). The problem is that it does...

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I’m feeling petty today toward my roommate. I vented a little bit a few entries back. I’ve taken on the bulk of the expenses. Especially the bulk of the groceries. She eats everything in sight. S...

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The leading cause of coincidence is the mRNA gene therapy called a vaccine. My grandmother is not in charge of her medical decisions, she did not want to poison herself over superstitious beliefs...

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I did not sleep well last night. I am still wrecked from that workout on Saturday, I kept waking up in pain. I cannot straighten my arms or even lift them above my head. Getting dressed and undre...

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After my shift on Friday, I headed to my sisters to have a sleepover with my niece and nephew. I’ve been spending a lot of time with those kids. We didn’t hang out like this while I lived there, ...

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When you’re not demented and believe that literary characters and their allegories are real it is very easy to see that this is what all of our ancestors were trying to convey: It’s pure esoteri...

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My mother’s generation is damaged beyond repair. No cerebral constitution whatsoever. We cannot help them, they are write-offs. They do not have the brain health or gut health to expand beyond a ...

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I’m not cut out to live with other people. I’ve concluded that I am the villain in this household with Toni. Okay, it’s not that bad but I developed pet peeves pretty quickly. Her psychologist ga...

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My anxiety appears to be just in my body and not so much in my mind. Not in the front of my mind at least. My gut is where I experience anxiety the most. I went for a run yesterday and I could no...

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I am once again in Facebook jail. This time for seven days, I am unable to comment or post. My crime is hate speech which now includes challenging the COVID-19 hoax. Of course, we know through Dr...

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I was thinking about how I stopped dreaming yesterday and sure enough, I had one. It was weird, naturally. I was trying to show people what their eyes can see to no avail. I was showing them the ...

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The Premiers of my country are in a competition or something to be the first to bring in communism. My province is in the lead, we have the vaccine passports. Immunization cards they’re called. T...

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Well, call me Caitlyn I am triggered. The company issued out Pride shirts for us to wear and to my surprise that made me feel some type of way. That’s not a political statement I want to make but...

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Things in my life are going very well. I am thinking way too beyond myself to care. I can see all the imminent threats and dangers. I can see what is coming and so the existential dread takes the...

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My boss laughed when I showed her that my lungs are magnetic. Then she gaslit me and told me to get it checked out because it’s not normal. She refuses to believe it is the masks. I got half a do...

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