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1 Minute Rule
For anyone familiar with Bi-polar disorder you already know that for us to get motivated enough to complete ADLs (Activities of Daily Living) is like trying to round up a herd of cats. It does no...
bleh
Ever have one of those days…weeks…no years where everything is just dark all of the time? I haven’t been feeling good for a while. Since January actually. During my time stuck in little hell on t...
Double edged
You would think that with enough hard work it would show that we are more than just our illness. That we are still human beings. generally people are surprisingly receptive to it…until it hits cl...
Update
I haven’t written anything in a while. Things have been chaotic lately. October was pretty rough. Moved in with N and we fought most of the time. Stress, school and work were getting to us. It w...
Film Casting
Earlier in the week my mom told me about a casting for an occult short film for NCTV. N and I went this afternoon. It was a lot of fun. I have no acting experience what so ever, I just went to ha...
New management
So I just met representatives from the buildings new property management. Ye olde slum lord sold the building to a reputable company. Fortunately, everything stays the same. Rent, lease…etc. I ju...
Ouchie
Yesterday was insane I showed up at 2. The Chicopee High Pacers took care of sorting the warehouse; so M and I went to the post office from 3:30-7 to collect bags from the mail trucks, loaded the...
Summer
It is going to be one hell of a Summer. I’m kicking it off with working the Stamp out Hunger postal food drive via the soup kitchen, Relay for life at the end of the month. Job hunting, belly dan...
Peanut M&M's (TMI Warning)
Today was unnecessarily difficult. I woke up discovering that there was no warning sign for the disaster that would befall my favorite pair of underwear. Then there is my cat who seems to take gr...
Bullshit
For those who may be familiar with the westfield couple child rape case, it is finished. Nate Lami pleaded and was sentenced in March and Leonne Vieu (Lee) followed right behind. I’m not happy wi...
*update* meow meow
So around 6 am I wake up to this incessant meowing. Usually it means my cat got into trouble and is now crying for help. This time it was actually a kitten out in the hallway. Yeah, curled up in ...
FML
The most depressing thing in the world… Getting outsmarted by a stoner. I used to smoke a lot of pot. It made me borderline mentally retarded. I don’t think any human being could have been as stu...
Androids are Awkward
PICARD: You learn a lot about people from their luggage. Two hundred and twenty five Yoshimitsu computers, five monitor beacon satellites, seven hundred cellular commlinks, fifty spinning wheels....
Identity
28 years doesn’t seem like a lot of time, but it can be enough to make plenty of mistakes. This is especially true for people like me who have spent a good portion of it giving in to the whims of...
Sympathy Neutering
Dropped stupid off at the snip snip specialist yesterday morning for a cone of shame and a few shots. They said he did really well and he was cooperative during the procedure…my cat was cooperati...
One sided feminism
In the bathroom today I overheard a woman telling her friend that some guy shouldn’t be trash talking “especially to a girl.” One of my biggest issues with feminism is that it is usually one side...
Dentist
The most painful sore popped up out of nowhere on my gum. Made an appointment for tomorrow afternoon. Work is gonna have a field day when I don’t answer my phone. I’m tired of putting my shitty j...
Ready to quit
So my job is officially pissing me off. This whole no schedule thing is ridiculous. When I say no schedule I mean I have no schedule. He calls me an hour or so before I have to go in almost every...
The restaurant industry at a glance.
Me: Customer wants to add wings. first order is already paid. make sure they are packaged together and both credit slips are delivered together. Cook: ok Driver: ok Customer: can I make that a #8...
Happy Holidays
I was invite over to N’s family’s house for Christmas. I gladly accepted. After Thanksgiving, I was relieved to know they like me and wanted me to come back. N started to get weird. He kept askin...
disassociation
I finally decided that tomorrow during therapy I am going to talk to David about my disassociative episodes. Dont be confused with the ‘wake up in strange places and not remember’ dissasociation....
Retrograde
The retrograde has been teaching me some valuable lessons regarding being too trusting, too forthcoming with information as well as not being ashamed of the more unadmirable traits of mental illn...
mental illness, social gatherings and camaraderie
A common problem with those suffering from bi-polar, and pretty much anyone with a mental illness, is that we feel uncomfortable all the time. It doesn’t matter how familiar we are with a group, ...
I'll have some cheese with that whine.
So the whole diet thing has been going out the window. I try to make sure that healthy is my only option when I snack. I go for a 30 minute walk every night just to make sure I get at least that ...
Onyx
I finally cried today. I have been numb. I couldn’t miss him. I wouldn’t let myself miss him. Celena brought him up in passing this morning and that’s all it took. I know she means well but putt...
