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july 11
I passed my exam! Eight down. One more to go, and it's a two-hour test. I can do that...
july 10
Some days I wake up already run down. That's a good sign. And lately I can't shake the feeling. I need this weekend desperately.
july 9
It's only Wednesday, but this morning I woke up with that "do I really have to go to work today?" attitude. I could have happily closed my eyes and slept for another four hours. I had planned on...
july 8
I finally closed. What a relief. Now I might go sleep for a solid fifteen hours. I feel pretty run down after all the stress I've been dealing with.
july 7
I was sitting AT the title company for two hours before we got the call that there was a problem with the HUD (the lenders didn't realize the sellers were paying $2000 of my closing costs) and so...
july 6
MAYBE this home closing will happen tomorrow. Today was a much-needed break from being too depressed to even get out of bed, which was the last two days. I got asked out on a date tomorrow ni...
july 5
I hate fights. They make me question if the person I'm with actually likes being with me, too. I feel like I'm diminished to an irrational, ugly person, and that's probably because I don't think ...
july 4
Closing never happened yesterday. It's supposed to happen Monday, but eh...who knows? Regardless of when it happens, I won't be moving now until the 12th. And maybe that's better since it gives ...
july 3
I didn't close on my house yesterday and who knows if I will close today? So I'm eating cookies for breakfast. That's what being a grown up is all about anyway, getting to decide to do something...
july 2
I am so livid. I've had this loan application in process now for OVER 45 days. The close date has been July 2 for WEEKS and I've been on top of staying in touch with the loan processor and loan...
july 1
You know what's awesome? When you're set to close in ONE DAY and your mortgage company just requested some information from you.
june 30
I think my mood is finally picking up a bit. That's all I need.
june 29
Today we had the final walk through on the house, and I think I'm finally beginning to let it sink in that I'm finally MOVING! Well, I'll be moving in a week...but I'm closing on Wednesday and th...
june 28
I hate that it's so hard for me to be around my own family. I didn't even survive two hours today. My sister and her husband have decided to sell their current home and buy a condo. I don't thi...
june 27
It's the weekend, and it's wonderful. It was a half day at work due to our team event and so I spent the afternoon bowling with the people I probably see too much of on a daily basis anyhow. But ...
june 26
I had a much better day today. Or at least the evening has been fine. I had a long day at work, which had become the norm, and thankfully had a therapy appointment scheduled at four so I was able...
june 25
I don't like to think that I'm depressed. But maybe I am. I don't want to get out of bed. The thought of having to do it makes me queasy and panicked. I hate leaving the house and would be perfec...
june 25
I am a worrier. It's just in my nature to feel anxious over everything. How do you fix that? Tonight in bed I had that tight feeling in my chest. Like the one you get right before you start to cr...
june 24
It's been such an impossibly long day and I feel no hope.
june 23
I'm struggling to find a reason to get out of bed in the mornings. I'm in a really dark funk right now.
june 22
Let me see if I can convey the suckfest that has been my life for the last several days. The driving to and from Key West actually wasn't bad. It was the best part of the whole trip. The compan...
june 21
Sometimes it feels so lonely here. Mostly when I need it not to. It's not the same.
june 20
Attending a wedding takes something out of me. It makes me feel overly self conscious of my inability to make the kind of connections other people seem to have. It makes me feel lonely and differ...
june 19
We made it! My feet are swollen from travel and I temporarily have cankles, and I'm exhausted after being up for the last eight hours ON TOP of the 22 hours we drove, since R had a welcome party ...
june 18
I slept all morning, cleaned all afternoon, and drove all night. We left columbus at 5:15 and began our great adventure to key west. That is a 22 hour drive, for those of you keeping track. No s...
