Panic Setting In in These Foolish Things

I’m at the office and feeling the stress of everything on Monday morning. Well, first of all, I overslept because of the time change. I NEVER let myself do that so I was already on a race against time this morning.

Got to the office to a million things I’m trying to get done before I leave at noon to start the next phases of my cancer journey.

But before all that, there are samples to send in to the licensing guys for review/approval, my big presentation was delayed because Boss wants me to add a bunch of figures to it AND I’m trying to get the car dealership all set up with all of the paperwork before I come in to pick up my car at lunchtime tomorrow.

On top of that, before oncology, I have to go to one hospital to get a covid test this afternoon for my surgery on Wednesday (placing mediport) and I’m freaking that they may want to place it next to my left carotid (the one that blew), but I’m just not sure…why am I worrying about that NOW?

And after the covid test and possibly more pre-op stuff (probably EKG and hopefully no blood) then I will meet [Athena] who is kindly going with my to my first oncology appointment.

I’ve worked it out to have Martini stay with her boyfriend (the min-pin named Brady) tonight so that I don’t have to worry about getting her here and there and walking her after my appointment. And I’ve asked [Athena] to stay with me a little while after to help me process and she said she can do that. As always, so grateful for this angel of a human. You don’t even know.

I am expecting a positive and strong (and even cocky) doctor. That’s how I like em! I need for him to be in rockstar form, and in return, I will do the same. He has the BEST Irish name I’ve ever heard, so that has to be a good sign, right? I mean, come on. St. Patrick’s Day week!

I can’t say that I haven’t taken a valium this morning, but it’s because I didn’t want to start drinking wine first thing. I know I must wean myself off the wine. The valium is a good alternative, though I need to be careful with this stuff. I’m pretty good about keeping it to emergencies like when I got to the hospital for my colon resection and they told me my insurance hadn’t approved it. That was a perfect time to swallow the V.

Today is also a good day to turn down the anxiety level. It’s times like these when I am grateful for modern medicine.

I’m of the belief that a good combo of meds and mental state is going to take me far.

OK. Gotta roll. Much to do on this not-so-typical Monday.

Love to ya,
GS