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I haven’t been writing, and you probably know what that means. Yes, there’s been too much for me to process lately and I’m scared and confused and don’t have a lot of answers to questions. Where ...

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First and foremost, no more strings have been found dangling out of my ass since my last entry, so I wanted to make that abundantly clear. Secondly, hello, March?! What a thing. February was qu...

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Don’t believe the hype. When they tell you something is “minimally invasive” and it has to do with taking out a huge chunk of your body, trust me. It’s MAXIMALLY invasive. I almost can’t believe...

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Well, the Mass in the Ass is OUT of my body, but where do I even begin to tell the story of how this fucker finally came out? When I tell you that this was the most traumatic experience of my lif...

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…surgery and all through the house… It’s quiet now. Mom and Dad left on Friday afternoon because the snow and ice had started melting and the roads seemed okay and I think they were feeling re...

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I am sooooooo glad I stocked up on food and bev before I left for the pre-hospital hotel stay because there are literally NO groceries, restaurants, gas stations, convenience stores or anything e...

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The thing about life is that you can make the most elaborate plans, get every single detail worked out in your mind and on paper, pull off what you think are miracles in the way of having everyth...

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Gmorning. Happy Valentine’s Day. This one will go down in history as the absolute most bizarre V. Day of all time. I’m waking up in a hotel room with my parents, There’s a blizzard outside (well,...

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I’m sorry I haven’t been noting. I’m on here more than I have been in a while, but I’m struggling with noting on your entries and sometimes even answering your notes here. It’s not for lack of tr...

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Hi. I don’t have a ton to say after talking, talking, talking with so many people after I threw it all out there on the socials. I will tell you the following: I talked with my PCP again this...

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This morning I shared my diagnosis on socials (IG and FB). It took me over 24 hours to actually pull the trigger on the post. I debated and debated on whether or not it was time to go public wi...

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It’s so weird. I am/was feeling so healthy and getting the best sleep of my life before the scope. I was under the VERY watchful eye of my primary care physician who is also a personal friend. B...

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I ate a 1/2 sandwich after not being able to eat since Tuesday. I’ve NEVER not eaten - even when I was in the ER with a life-threatening injury. I’ve never gone that long without eating. I can’...

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Colonoscopy Prep. Oh lord, it started off fine, but then after I was finished with my prep I realized that I clearly hadn’t gotten everything out, so to speak, so I ran to the CVS last night bef...

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And now it’s February. Groundhog Day, even. How fitting. Still waiting for a covid shot. Still working myself into a frenzy about this colonoscopy on Thursday. It’s not that I’m worried about t...

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Well, look. I’ve been very, very, very careful and haven’t gotten the virus yet, so I think I’m going to keep doing what I’ve been doing and stop freaking out about what others are doing. Have I...

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Much to update. It’s Tuesday morning and I walked in the office around the same time Boss did (he was not here yesterday). I’m assuming he’s taken a real Covid test at this point, but I’m still...

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Today is my engineer’s birthday (he’s the one who had to leave early yesterday because his wife tested positive for Covid). I sent him a text to check on him and to tell him Happy Birthday. Even ...

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Now 2 UPDATEs at the end in bold. Good morning. Waking up to a new day, I guess…one that feels a bit like the other days due to Covid. The vaccine situation is such a clusterfuck here and all ...

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The last time I watched an inauguration live was for Barack Obama’s first term. I remember that day clearly as I was working for a giant corporation and they had a HUUUGGEE giant screen set up in...

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Holy shit. I just had a Zoom meeting with Boss who told me that his son (who drove Boss to the airport last night so he could travel again to California) tested positive for Covid today and I wa...

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Please note: really, really REALLY REALLY personal stuff ahead. The squeamish need not proceed. It’s my journal, so ima let you know what’s on my mind. I coulda made this private, but I’m choosi...

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Oh hi. Don’t mind me. I’m just over here waiting for a Covid vaccine, a haircut and the United States of America to settle down. What’s that you say? I’m going to be waiting for a while? Ughhh...

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Ugh, Friday. It’s the end of a long, hard workweek, and having to have a CYA meeting with Boss and two of the people who support me (remember, Boss won’t let me have a staff any more) was the ...

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Welp. I suppose shit’s been the theme of the day, huh? The United States is in a sad, pathetic, disastrous state of affairs. If this doesn’t take him down, I don’t know what will. What an awful...

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