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Step 1: Are you fucked? This time last year I was telling my therapist that I was the best I had ever been but I was still unhappy and lost. I was powerless to my anxiety. I did not know how to b...

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I woke up in a decent mood today. I’m not sure how that happened after my nightmare of a dream last night. I’ve been waiting for the vivid dreams to start happening from the medication and it fin...

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I woke up feeling gross. I have been feeling some type of way after my previous entry. I wrote that a few days ago and it apparently didn’t even publish. It’s out there now. I was actually gross ...

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Am I ready to change? Like, am I actually ready to change? On some level, I don’t think I am. I don’t think I have actually opened myself up to change. I’m not ready to let go of behaviours &...

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I don’t know what it is about early mornings that feel so delicate. Nobody else is up yet, maybe that’s it? Leanne made reservations for us at Stella’s and I am trying to not feel nervous but I c...

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I just finished watching Bombshell. I have been waiting for months for this. A few months after I was fired from my job I downloaded Gretchen Carlson’s audiobook Be Fierce from Audile. I learned ...

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You’re not bored, lazy or unmotivated you’re afraid. I am so glad that I came across this video. I overslept today and I am probably going to beat myself up over it because I have to admit to my...

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I woke up feeling a lot better than I did yesterday. So far anyway. It was clear that I am coming down with something shortly after I wrote my last entry. I’m not going crazy. Although, I just go...

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I can’t get my energy up. I can barely peel myself off the couch. My head feels like it is stoned all of the time. It doesn’t hurt, it feels good, to be honest, but it’s a bit disturbing because ...

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34 times around the sun. I don’t feel like today is any special but it’s my Birthday. I’ll get a couple of texts and that’s probably it. It’s all good. I am a little disturbed about yesterday. I ...

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My first thought this morning was about how I am not living my life out loud. These dense energies that I am going through are getting worse… but I have faith that it is because I am learning how...

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Just before I decided to get out of bed I rolled over to see what the time was on my alarm clock. 11:11. I took that as a good sign. It’s New Year’s eve and I usually like to reflect but I don’t ...

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I had the house to myself yesterday evening. It was just what the doctor ordered. Basically I just played Skyrim without having to wear clothes around the house. I married Onmund and we live toge...

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I woke up feeling good again. Maybe it is the meds? I also woke up at noon which is seven hours away from the time that I want to be getting up. I want to join the 5am club. It’s my new gaming ad...

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My cat woke me up this morning by falling on my face. I don’t know what he was trying to do with his life or how he managed to free fall on my face but it happened. He’s chunky yet funky and it h...

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Over the span of eight hours, I drank an entire bottle of wine. Oops! I was up until four in the morning playing Skyrim and I didn’t even sleep in today. I should feel like shit but I don’t. What...

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It’s all over for me. The holidays I mean. I don’t know why I have such animosity toward Christmas, I don’t actually hate it. I think it’s just the energy of everybody else being stressed out, hi...

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Merry Christmas everyone! So yeah I’m going to be that guy to complain on Christmas. My mother usually does a brunch for us because everybody just does Christmas with their partner’s families and...

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“the most important decision any human being has to make is whether they live in a friendly or hostile universe” Albert Einstein I love this man! I’ll probably watch this a few times.

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I just had a rude awakening. First of all, I apparently needed 11 hours of sleep. I was running on three hours of sleep yesterday. I had a migraine all day. I don’t know if that was the meds or l...

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I wrote a complete list of things that I have been avoiding. From big things like dealing with my financial crisis to little things like putting air in my tires. I suppose that this list will be ...

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I’m officially medicated. I caved and I started my prescription last night. I’m relatable again. I don’t know how I feel today about anything. I’m not blaming the meds, it’s too soon for that. I ...

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Took a long hard look at my life Lost my way while I was fighting the time A big black cloud, stormy sky Followed me, oh I was living a lie So heartless, so selfish, so in darkness When all your ...

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Mel Robbin’s says I should ask the question What happened to me? Well, I thought that getting a dumb job was going to be easy because my resume is dope. I procrastinated because I am struggling t...

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All hell broke loose in my mind this morning. Everything I’ve been holding back just went supernova, yet again! My anxiety attacks are getting worse. My sister was trying to help calm me down ear...

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