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middle name. [survey] in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
What’s your middle name? Beman. and i don’t know anyone else who has that middle name. What are you listening to right now? what that’s not obvious? What was the last thing you ate? food. oh yo...
from sun. the 29th to sat. the 4th. *edited* in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
i have ‘runaway train’ by soul asylum stuck in my head. valerie i listened to it yesterday. she likes ‘90’s stuff. i don’t not.like it i just prefer like ballads that kindof stuff. er ballads and...
6 different things. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
i want to say to 6 different people right now. wow haven’t done one of these in a long while. alrite here we go: 1: please call ok? i need to talk to you about something. [to evan] 2: i’m actuall...
in my life i love them all in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
‘ i was thinking about the friends i’ve had the last 10 yrs. well the close friends. the summer i turned 18 there was Ali. and the reason this is the first time anyone’s hearing of her is...........
the final cut as it were in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
‘maybe, after sept. it’ll be the last time he hurts me the last .....final.......cut as it were. idk though no promises. i never make promises cause i always end up breaking them. i feel like peo...
other things about that summer. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
this, goes along w/ my last entry about the summer i turned 18. i remember........eating pasta. well microwaving it and then eating it as i don’t cook. which is what i............well that’s what...
ali and the milkshakes in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
so the summer i turned 18 i met this chick Ali.from an online message group email thingy i think. god that was a long time ago. anyway the friendship didn’t last long. we hit it off. we’d email b...
suicide notes. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
and no this isn’t one so. so i typed up an entry that mentioned something about me hooking up w/o actually hooking up. and i was going to write about that but now i don’t kow where it went. damni...
lane, gwyn keith, jd, drea in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
so. I’m not sure what happened but sounds like my friend Lane is having a hard time. He posted something like that on fb the other day. he’s the nicest guy. he’s the gay guy who went on that rock...
muriel stuff again. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
um so. right. so i got at Muriel stating i needed to talk to her about evan. which well i just need to talk.to someone about this who isn’t my family who knows who he is. well what i meant by th...
muriel stuff. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
um so recently i asked Muriel Pat’s mom about her confidentiality policy. and she said that. like. she’ll keep something confidential untill it becomes public knowledge. well ok. and so i asked h...
my part in all this. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
um wow. i. well his love wasn’t enough. i.......i should’ve been more patient. i don’t know that there are v. many things in this world that we shouldn’t take responsibility for. or i guess. sur...
of course i'm doing 'well'! in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
‘of course i’m doing ‘well’ w/ this! that’s cause it hasn’t happened yet! it hasn’t become real. yeah but even when things do they’re still.not real. ‘ yeah i know that from my own experience w/ ...
w/e. she can........ in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
so this chick ashley. we’re friends on fb. She and my sister used to know each other and then Ashley went to the same HS i did so. that’s how we know each other. Awhile ago she eluded to the fact...
so in my last entry i started to go through the timeline of events from ‘that night’ 3 yrs. ago. apparently it was a fri. i remember it being dark when things started happening er it was already ...
um so i looked it up and. in yes i'm aware it's 2016.
right so. well i was thinking about the night i almost um well left. well no. ok so the last time evan called me we were talking about it cause i had a question on it for him. and the question fo...
naked. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
no not the actual thing. ‘ya know that feeling when? you forgot your keys/phone/wallet/w/e that kindof ‘naked’ feeling? yeah that’s how i am. i miss his presence. and it’s starting to drive me cr...
park. bench. distanc. us. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
so um. in my park we have this certain bech we’d sit on. and lately well the past 2 times really i’ve been sitting on a different bench in order to.distance myself from him.
mrs. santa claus. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
‘so there’s this quote. from the movie ‘mrs. santa claus’ [which last time i checked i really liked. been awhile since i’ve seen it though so]. w/ angela landsbury [she was in ‘murder she wrote’ ...
things i'll miss. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
so i still haven’t heard from evan. not that it’s been all that long as it hasn’t. um wow things i’ll miss: .........his physicality. the way he can make me laugh like really laugh like.......the...
Lee. cutting. purpose. evan. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
‘so this guy Lee. who i know from HS. [btw i’m ok talking about this otherwise i wouldn’t’ve brought it up]. well one day we were talking about my cutting. and he said something like ‘well what i...
don't cry for me argentina in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
‘it won’t be easy you’ll think it strange when i try to explain how i feel that i still need your love after all that i’ve done. you won’t believe me all you will see is a girl dressed....... i h...
think it's time/not a big crier in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
and about alcohol. and music. ‘but. i think it’s time. i really......do.’ er as in. [since apparently i’m vague a lot. um anyway before i go off]. i think it’s time.to let evan go it has been for...
well..... in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.
‘well..........it’s his loss as they say. yes which is what this whole thing is about. it’s as much his as it is mine. i have a part in this too i’m......a part of this too. ‘
‘ya know.....i was thinking about it. [as if you couldn’t tell from my recent updates]. and i was thinking about what’s changed since a little over 3 yrs. ago. he & i were talking about it re...
