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I was woefully neglectful in my indie film goal. Well, not too bad. I am finally writing about the tenth film. I actually saw this one on Amazon Prime. I don’t have the energy or inclination to ...

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“Holding you close from a ridiculous distance” Some people have such a way with words… (And it’s not me this time) My mom passed suddenly last night. The interventions were not working (getting ...

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oh. what a word. Lately when i’ve gotten some doozers from word of the day emailed to me, i’ve shared with Ian thrasonical- boastful; vainglorious (he woke the next morning and opened a book to ...

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”You couldn’t drive three hours to Seattle, but here you are climbing a graveyard fence.” Sh’nownigans, revisited on a non-snow day. I don’t think i will see Ian for like 2 or 3 weeks now, becaus...

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the last bits of my dream are slipping away, so i will start with the end and move back. My final words as i woke, “I need to be frank with you,” (he inserts a poor pun, which i love) “The lifest...

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Today is the second day in a row that every school district in the area cancelled school. I think it was unnecessary, but i haven’t seen what other parts of the city look like. Now, yesterday’s s...

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i;ve included part of my previous entry here My sister and i have been dealing with health issues with our mom. She lives in CA with her bother and has COPD. Her health has deteriorated to the po...

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for the snow. Who knows if it happens. One of my favorite phrases to use for the unexplained is “its magic”… but in no way do i feel that about meteorology. It seems like the news is just trying ...

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We have arrived. In a space requiring backs of hands barely touching foreheads and lips on shoulders my feet tucked under your thigh Ian and i met downtown portland to see a matinee showing of Ar...

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not really, though. i stayed home today from work, took a personal day. Ian and i were jokingly calling it my “leisurely naughty” day. Date day tomorrow. 2:45 tomorrow we are meeting downtown p...

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“Oh i do miss the old style pharmacy.” “I do believe there is one on Sandy Boulevard. If movie goes well. And then quiet corner pinball in the near future. After that perhaps a malted milk.” le s...

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dreams, here is a weird one from last night I am with my friend Kari and her husband Cam. We are headed to her boyfriend’s house, she is very excited to introduce me to him, she is totally smitte...

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The other night i had a (nerdy is what Jamie’s wife called it) dream about consent. It’s a little explicit and definitely funny. A guy (someone i know but wouldn’t be in this situation with) was ...

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“All that is gold does not glitter; not all those who wander are lost; the old that is strong does not wither; deep roots are not reached by the frost.” JRR Tolkien I took a version of the Meyers...

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I had ideas for a journal entry as i left therapy this morning. Ah. Here it is: sitting with it. but i already titled my entry, though as of yet there is not connection to the content. sitting...

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I just made that up, i am not sure what “the big take back” really is. I had this vague thought about an event here in Portland called the Slut Walk, basically a “transnational movement of protes...

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One of my favorite books growing up was The Secret Garden and The Little Princess by Frances Hodgson Burnett. I always loved (what i later learned was called) magical realism. While these books d...

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Yesterday i felt an unformed anxiety in the bottom of my throat, toward my chest. It felt like the day was going to go badly. There was a beginning of the heaviness. Yesterday was a good day, tho...

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Today i was almost 30 minutes into meditation and my body began to move. I allowed it to do what it needed to. Basically my shoulders and head were being lifted and slammed against the floor. It ...

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My dreams were thick and active last night, but i don’t recall much of them. The only image that sticks out is being in a house (i am buying?) where there is an intentional gap in the wall. I was...

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I’ve gotten behind on my independent film watching. Now I am attempting to do a voice entry. Moonlight, I heard, was a darling at the film festivals. I completely agree. The cinematography, the ...

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Here i am, starting my fourth entry, on the 4th day. But, its 7:28 am and i have a meeting in two minutes. I have a packed weekend: Friday i am taking myself out for a movie, then i have am havin...

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For the first time in a few weeks i am feeling good about work. I heard Jamie’s wife Gaby mention something called imposter’s syndrome (often accompanying perfectionism, which i am no where near....

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Attempting to stay with writing something each day, here i am. There are only a few minutes left before i have a staff meeting. I need to read an article called “Fear of a Breakdown”. Interesting...

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For years i’ve thought of joining in NaNoJoMo, or something like that, but i am not sure i have the dedication to write every day. I feel like it would be helpful to write, like opening up a bloc...

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