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~Curiosity epicurian~~Wonder-maker~~Eyes wide open~~Cards held close~
"Her ways were free, and it seemed to me, the sunshine walked beside her."
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Take me and love me/dark turn of mind in Random Thoughts
I have a lot to pour out. The last few days have been trying, and pushing the boundaries of brings me to that dark turn of mind (lyrics written by Gillian Welch). At least now i can see the trigg...
Final Day in Random Thoughts
The bell just rang for all students to depart. This has been my favorite school year so far. I celebrated my 8th graders moving on to high school, knitted them little bookmarks as a small gift. I...
Letting go and believing in yourself in Random Thoughts
Last night i had a surprise date, and i am sorry to say- and i need to be honest- told a lie about why i couldn’t go on a previously scheduled date. It’s one of those things i need to work on and...
The end, house in Random Thoughts
Today is the last full day of school, though very little academics have been happening this week (much less the past 6 weeks since state testing started). All my meetings are done, official speci...
Vitamin 3- *edited* third dose in Random Thoughts
I wrote such an explicit entry that i had to place it in a private book, but here is a (somewhat tantalizing, though edited) version of that entry: I am so excited about Kyle PTM (Portland-Techie...
Vitamin 3- a dose of 1 in Random Thoughts
italics indicate tmi (somewhat) sexual content Friday i started an entry, but just ended up deleting it a second ago. Its nice to start an entry that is just stream of consciousness blather. not ...
Mama help me in Random Thoughts
Slightly explicit content in italics later on Just another song lyric, revisiting a 1990 album i discovered at the beginning of my (first attempt) at college in 1995. Edie Brickell and the New Bo...
prolific in Random Thoughts
with state testing underway (this is our third week), i have been prolific with my writing. and, i need it right now. i think i have never been so ready to be done with a school year as i have be...
Indie Film #5- Midnight Special in Independent Film-2016
Jeff Nichols has also directed 3 other independent films, two of which i have seen: Mud (starring Matthew McConaughey) and Take Shelter (starring Michael Shannon) and one i have not: Shotgun Stor...
Cocoon in Random Thoughts
Not the movie :) All I want to do, as I lay here wrapped in purple down comfort, is stay. In quiet. Alone. Warm. Protected (From what? By whom?) Feeling a little off, a little down. Not sure why,...
boysboysboys in Random Thoughts
Isn’t there an 80’s hair band song that might be appropriate here? Girls, Girls, Girls. So, i had a date last night. I have a date tonight. I had a date Monday. But, what constitutes a date? Last...
downdowndown in Random Thoughts
I got an estimate on how much money i would need to complete my house purchase. I should have known that i wasn’t ready- its more than i have. What option? Get into my 403B retirement account (i ...
Reverie in Random Thoughts
If you’d like to take a look at the house i put an offer on (it was accepted!), clickity-click: http://www.rmlsweb.com/v2/public/report.asp?type=AE&CRPT2=BgUFB2ddDnZaUVVYQF1cWQzDzD9AuGxLwqanJ...
Title Here (placeholder) in Random Thoughts
Tuesday is date night with Jamie. I followed through with my promise (to myself and all of pbland) to talk. So. I did. We had a wonderful conversation that was lucid at points, non-sequitur at ot...
Breakdown in Random Thoughts
I will start with one of my favorite musicians, Tom Petty. I am not sure what it is about him, but his voice and music resonates with me. It makes me feel like i have lived a past adult life in t...
Meditation in Random Thoughts
“Remember that the mind is nothing but a contracted form of Consciousness and that if it gives up its awareness of being the mind, it will merge back into Consciousness again.” I put an offer on ...
Dream State part two in Random Thoughts
Here i am, sitting quietly in my home, watching a BBC drama, Call the Midwife. Not very often do i have these quiet nights, i’ve been busy for months and months, it seems. Yoga, love, work, garde...
Dream State in Random Thoughts
Funny thing, i wrote this entry last week, but must have forgotten to post it. I may write about multiple dream states, one an actual dream, and another this blissful state ive been existing Its...
Cuddle Party in Random Thoughts
This morning I allowed myself to sleep till I woke up, which I needed. My six twenty waking was an hour or so later than I normally arise and I feel incredible groggy. The end of my sleep was rif...
This Moment in Random Thoughts
“This moment is perfect,” whispers, under-blankets, post-coital, eyes-closed, pressed-in, “when i think of everything we can do in the future, i am excited. When i recall the serendipitous way t...
Northern Sky in Random Thoughts
[Nick Drake’s Northern Sky] () I don’t know if this link will work, its the first time i have ever posted a link before. My morning was full of Nick Drake, and this insatiable emotion i carry wi...
Indie Film # 4- The Witch in Independent Film-2016
I am so excited that i have surpassed my goal of one indie film per month. This time i had a date, Jamie! Oh, i am so glad he was with me, because this was such a scary movie!!! eerie music auth...
and he to i in Random Thoughts
Ugh. I am sick. But, looking on the positive side- i just had 4 days off work. Three of those were for a conference. I took 3 classes on the neuropsychology of learning disabilities. The, i left...
Indie Film #3- 45 Years in Independent Film-2016
Filmspotting, my favorite film podcast, reviewed this movie a few weeks ago and had rave reviews for the leading lady, Charlotte Rampling. This is a quiet, slice of life film about a couple about...
Confliction in Random Thoughts
I spent a lovely 4 day weekend driving for many hours to see family and spend a birthday with my sister. She turned 36 last Thursday and i turned 39 Friday. I think its the first adult birthday w...