~Octopussy~ ⋅ 40
Just an American living Bangkok and writing about all the inappropriate things that I somehow get roped into joining... I've been writing in blogs since 1999, so I'm fairly inconsistent. Sometimes I write a lot, sometimes I have nothing to say for months at a time, but I'm never gone, so just be patient and something new will come around.
The truth is of course is that there is no journey. We are arriving and departing all at the same time
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The situation with my father has gotten rather dire. He spent 7 months of the year in a rehabilitation center, however, he left before he completed the program due to it being shut down by COVID....
I know I’ve written about this before… well, I don’t know, it just feels like something I’ve bitched about before, but I just cannot believe it. I find it absolutely astonishing because I’d never...
I hadn’t seen Richard since February. We talk at least three times a week, I even got him hooked on a few Thai dramas that I’d been watching, and he’s laughably been trying to keep up with all of...
There are times when I really hate social media. As I was perusing through the little stories feature of people I follow, I happened upon my ex’s sister and she shared a photo from a post that fe...
I haven’t written because we’re back in lockdown, and really, how much can I write about the amount of television I watch? If my life was dull before quarantine, during quarantine it’s become the...
Remember how I used the word “irrational” in the title of the last entry? It seemed to be self-fulfilling prophecy. As it got down to the wire, he never actually messaged me back so I was left wi...
So next week I’m going on vacation to Palm Springs. I have spent the entirety of quarantine listening to my poisonous mother and her down-home brand of psychotic bigotry. I know, fleeing to the ...
Sad Angel in The Song Remembers When
So I believe the greatest Fleetwood Mac song written after Rumours is actually from their EP that was called Extended Play in 2013. I know, that seems ridiculous but it’s literally the core of th...
So I was going to write something else but Saturday evening, Richard called me in tears. I’ve known Richard since 2004 and I could probably count on one hand the amount of times I’ve seen him cry...
Hi y’all! Sorry, I have been missing, but I have an explanation. For the last several years, my computer screen has been cracked and broken. I have only had half the screen since it broke, but it...
So they have these stupid filters on Instagram with little games or something that pop up above your head. You have to sound out the gibberish that sounds like a popular phrase. I got one that sa...
So I know it’s been quite a while. I began the medical trial, which ended when the pharma company decided it was too difficult to produce the medicine… but I did have one wild weekend in Denver w...
Domino in The Stuff That's Not Interesting But Is The Most Interesting Stuff I'll Write
This week has been crazy. My next entry was actually going to go in the Sex Book, but I haven’t written it yet… I still might, so perhaps we’ll just bypass that part of the week and just talk abo...
I’m not sure I can quite properly convey how absolutely mind-boggling my new teaching situation has been. From day one, it was a definite mindfuck. Even though the first day consisted mostly of g...
Richard and I have been trying to make plans to see each other for ages but it just never panned out. Next week I begin my new job, teaching at the school where he is currently enrolled as a stud...
So I’ve been seeing this guy for like two weeks and it’s weird to finally be dating. I know this is going to sound stupid considering how I bitched for years and years about wanting to date, but ...
I Believe in Things That I'm Grateful For
The other day at work, it was my co-worker’s last day. Christophe and I started on almost the same exact day, but we didn’t meet until he got back, nearly a month later, from his visit to his son...
2019 is over so there’s no need to talk about any of it. Well, you know, I’m making that choice until some trauma comes up and then I have to explain it. I’m predicting that’ll happen around Marc...
Serenity in The Stuff That's Not Interesting But Is The Most Interesting Stuff I'll Write
I wrote an entire entry about an epiphany I had the other day but really, I don’t want to write about childhood trauma again. It’s so boring and repetitive. So I thought I’d go a different route ...
Nothing has changed. I’ve been on a few disastrous dates. I am NOT writing about that horrible sexual experience because I just can’t bring myself to discuss it. It was horrifying.... But I will ...
Flow in The Stuff That's Not Interesting But Is The Most Interesting Stuff I'll Write
I should really write since I have so much to write about but I just can’t really be bothered to get everything down. That’s why I titled the last entry as such because I was avoiding writing stu...
Can you whistle? Just put your lips together and blow. But not really. Scariest thrill ride you’ve been on? My trip to New York in 2006 comes to mind. Where is your favorite place on earth? Jac...
Finals Week in The Stuff That's Not Interesting But Is The Most Interesting Stuff I'll Write
So after writing that last entry, Richard and I finally hung out for my birthday where I took him to the bi-monthly orgy that happens and watched him get fucked by nearly every person I’ve had se...
I won’t say I’m surprised because I’m not, at least, not when I look back and take a look at everything that has led to this point. Richard moving back to Sacramento wasn’t the great healing I t...
I knew the minute I said the word “fag” to him, I had opened some kind of floodgate. Furthermore, as I listened to him spin this yarn, telling me how everyone is constantly telling him what a fag...
