~Octopussy~ ⋅

I'm not really sure what to write about myself. I'm just moving forward because that's all I can do... except when I'm here, usually that means I'm obsessing about the past.

Power is being told you are not loved and not being destroyed by it.

Madonna

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This past week I’ve been home sick and it was not good. But an amazing thing happened… at least, I think it’s amazing, too many people seem to think it’s rather morbid, but whatever, Halloween ba...


I know I say this every year but I just need to reiterate how much I fucking hate Christmas. It’s like a poison. One of my life goals is to move to a part of the world that doesn’t celebrate Chri...


So I decided I’d follow Matt’s lead and do another video… but I had a lot to cover so this is a long one and I apologize. But I got sidetracked and didn’t have time to edit it down or record mult...


Weird Thanksgiving, quite messy, but lots of fun. It was difficult being around so many people, and while I did have the usual wishing I was more social, I finally found myself just accepting it ...


I know it’s been a while, but in my defense, I was working three jobs during October and then spent the first half of November trying to fix my fucked up sleep schedule. Also trying to avoid dram...


For some reason, I’m still a big believer in fate and that the right people and things will come to me… but not just come to me, but return to me. The trip to San Diego was a product of that arch...


A unique opportunity came up on Sunday evening, as I reeled from the fact that a fire hydrant exploded in front of my place and threatened me with flood (I did say I wanted to get rid of most of ...


The situation with my father has gotten rather dire. He spent 7 months of the year in a rehabilitation center, however, he left before he completed the program due to it being shut down by COVID....


I know I’ve written about this before… well, I don’t know, it just feels like something I’ve bitched about before, but I just cannot believe it. I find it absolutely astonishing because I’d never...


I hadn’t seen Richard since February. We talk at least three times a week, I even got him hooked on a few Thai dramas that I’d been watching, and he’s laughably been trying to keep up with all of...


There are times when I really hate social media. As I was perusing through the little stories feature of people I follow, I happened upon my ex’s sister and she shared a photo from a post that fe...


I haven’t written because we’re back in lockdown, and really, how much can I write about the amount of television I watch? If my life was dull before quarantine, during quarantine it’s become the...


Remember how I used the word “irrational” in the title of the last entry? It seemed to be self-fulfilling prophecy. As it got down to the wire, he never actually messaged me back so I was left wi...


So next week I’m going on vacation to Palm Springs. I have spent the entirety of quarantine listening to my poisonous mother and her down-home brand of psychotic bigotry. I know, fleeing to the ...


So I believe the greatest Fleetwood Mac song written after Rumours is actually from their EP that was called Extended Play in 2013. I know, that seems ridiculous but it’s literally the core of th...


So I was going to write something else but Saturday evening, Richard called me in tears. I’ve known Richard since 2004 and I could probably count on one hand the amount of times I’ve seen him cry...


Hi y’all! Sorry, I have been missing, but I have an explanation. For the last several years, my computer screen has been cracked and broken. I have only had half the screen since it broke, but it...


So they have these stupid filters on Instagram with little games or something that pop up above your head. You have to sound out the gibberish that sounds like a popular phrase. I got one that sa...


So I know it’s been quite a while. I began the medical trial, which ended when the pharma company decided it was too difficult to produce the medicine… but I did have one wild weekend in Denver w...


This week has been crazy. My next entry was actually going to go in the Sex Book, but I haven’t written it yet… I still might, so perhaps we’ll just bypass that part of the week and just talk abo...


I’m not sure I can quite properly convey how absolutely mind-boggling my new teaching situation has been. From day one, it was a definite mindfuck. Even though the first day consisted mostly of g...


Richard and I have been trying to make plans to see each other for ages but it just never panned out. Next week I begin my new job, teaching at the school where he is currently enrolled as a stud...


So I’ve been seeing this guy for like two weeks and it’s weird to finally be dating. I know this is going to sound stupid considering how I bitched for years and years about wanting to date, but ...


The other day at work, it was my co-worker’s last day. Christophe and I started on almost the same exact day, but we didn’t meet until he got back, nearly a month later, from his visit to his son...


2019 is over so there’s no need to talk about any of it. Well, you know, I’m making that choice until some trauma comes up and then I have to explain it. I’m predicting that’ll happen around Marc...