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I'm Always Touched By Your Presence, Dear
I’m not sick anymore, which is good because I’m going on vacation this weekend. I’m going to a small little beach resort on the coast. I reasoned that I needed a vacation from my vacation due to ...
Prove You Wrong
It was Ark’s birthday a few days ago. For those of you who don’t remember, Ark and I were hooking up until he randomly got a boyfriend and forgot to tell me about it and it kind of broke my heart...
Compassion
I walked into class and one of my students wasn’t looking as energetic or happy as he used to. The truth is, neither was I. Four teachers were out with Covid, so I was teaching way more than I ha...
"The train doors are closing..."
I don’t know how to explain what it’s like here. I live in an alternate reality. Which is both good and bad. Nothing that happens over there matters. Which means that negative things don’t affec...
Questions from the Other Side of the World
Do you have any nicknames? I have so many nicknames that my friend Billy Francesca, a West Hollywood legend, told me that I had more aliases and alter-egos than he did and that meant I was eith...
Candlebright
Ironically, something that was said on the new season of The Real World: Homecoming triggered a thought process in my head. I know why I have such severe panic attacks but I only know the symptom...
Let's Take Some Questions From the Audience
WHERE: At my condo overlooking the river just outside of Bangkok with nothing to do because it’s a week-long holiday and all my friends are just arriving back from orgies in Phuket. WEARING: Bask...
The Undiscovered Country
To say that I’m still shaken by the events that unfolded in the last entry would be accurate. I’m very sensitive to death, especially random death. The full story about those young men emerged fu...
Details
I feel like doing one of these because it’s been a while and I like the randomness of this one. Is there a rail line near your house? If so, is it noisy and bothersome? I live directly across the...
Future Pain
Things have been happening so rapidly that I really can’t keep up. Although, now that my brain is functioning normally, I’m able to organize and get things set in motion easier. I’ve officially p...
4am And Nothing To Do but Answer Questions
Anthjo posted this survey and it wasn’t annoying, so I figure what the hell! Have you ever used a dating site/app? I try it for about a week and then I get rid of it. Look, I am terrible at writt...
I Believe
The other day at work, it was my co-worker’s last day. Christophe and I started on almost the same exact day, but we didn’t meet until he got back, nearly a month later, from his visit to his son...
Toys
So recently, my little brother broke up with his girlfriend. I found out about it while I was in LA because my mother had to share it with me, but the way she shared it with me completely cemente...
I just wrote the longest and most boring entry about my disorder that I’ve ever written. No one wants to read that, I didn’t even want to write it, so I’ll distill it down to something interestin...
Dreams
Angel I’m walking down some kind of passage, all I can perceive is a brick wall to my right. Somehow the pathway is lit before me in a way that completely directs my path forward. To the left is ...
Listening Through Doorways
I’m watching Love Or Whatever, and Jennifer Elise Cox is sooooo fucking hysterical. She portrayed Jan Brady in the 90s Brady Bunch movies (which are quite possible two of the funniest films ever ...
Someone posted that on my Facebook page in response to something in French, and I’ve never laughed so hard about something Russian.
What was I saying to myself?
Do you make your bed? I don’t even sleep in a bed. I don’t have one and haven’t had one since I left Los Angeles. Yet another reason to leave. Also why staying away from home is such a treat. The...
Fandom
I finally had a day off today and I spent most of it watching a 6-hour documentary on the making of the original set of Star Trek movies. I really don’t know how people feel about Star Trek any l...
Salvation
Amongst the idiotic romantic entanglements into which I’ve been getting myself, there has also been the situation of my grandmother’s deteriorating health. The main problem I’m having with the wh...
I'm Running Out of Survey-Themed Titles
I feel like doing one of these will either clear my sinuses or my head… either way I’ll get to empty out a bunch of nonsense that’s just clutter. Be honest; name of the last person to text you? I...
Pick A Number
Does anybody remember an entry called The Vase Is the Most Important part of This Story? Well, the guy I cuddled with the whole night has been put in a Buzzfeed list. Does anyone wanna hazard a g...
Book of Miracles
I decided that I would not go to Maddie’s funeral, and I did it explicitly for selfish reasons. Out of the twenty-two deaths in 2016, I went to 17 funerals. Frankly, that’s too much grief and ref...
2. Kindness (The Man's World Mix)
I keep to a pretty normal routine and it takes a lot to disrupt what I do on a weekly basis. It’s comforting because I tend to see the same people over and over again and then that’s how I make f...
That Gay Music
The great thing about pop culture right now is that it is relatively easy to find acts that are ACTUALLY LGBT and not just trading on it for a quick buck. I mean, there are times when I question ...
Book Description
I spend so much time bitching about how awful things are, I thought it would be nice to have a place where I could post all the positive things in my life.