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“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”
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Outskirts of town. Downtown. According to Google top 16th Hipster city to come to. Bring it weirdos.
Such A Classic Excuse in Hello
Three night shifters and I got walked out one by one Wednesday evening. Everyone I messaged/messaged me it was bullshit. Doc typo on note got me points. Got fired. Rumor from a friend eight p...
Drug Strut in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
Walked out of the psychiatrist’s office with five new prescriptions. She’s keeping me on xanex and upped the dosage.
I’m good. Thanks for all the love from the last entry. Saw Michelle. Deep convo, gave me something to work on. Like actual forty-eight page q and a about extreme feelings. Went into work alm...
All My Life, Who Am I? in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
I left work early last night. I’m just not feeling it anymore. See, you can do as much as you want or as little as you want and it won’t matter. Back in late October I was asked to come in on...
Pills Ahhhh in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
Written about 6AM this morning. Ended up seeing my regular physician Tuesday before everything shut down for weather. Explained the stress I’ve been under, lack of sleeping and running dangerous...
Some Days... in Hello
I just wanna watch the world burn.
Through Bloodshot Eyes in Hello
Mattress has been flipped, much firmer. Check No appointments. Check Benadryl. Check Uninterrupted sleep after work in the AM. We’ll see. On to work I go.
Sitting in my car on my last break having a smoke. I’m really starting to hate this place. The job isn’t bad but management makes ZERO sense and the stuning level of incompetence and lack of co...
Took five Melatonin a little while ago. Sleep is becoming a rare commodity. Got super deep in thought at work tonight (last night?) A few things that need to change and am I mentally strong e...
Beat. Worked tonight. Was half starved qihen I got home so had a lovely steak. Now I have to get up to shower but after hardly sleeping yesterday morning, the below freezing temps outside, and ...
Stolen From Random Off Front Page in Hello
1- How often do you swear? It’s like a second language for me, ESPECIALLY with the guys I work with. 2 - Did you volunteer this year? Does doing OT at work count? 3 - Did you give a gift withou...
Financial Rape in Hello
Missed work Monday and tonight. Have had what I thought was this nagging cold for a week now. Went back to the doc today and DUN DUN DUN! Sinus infection. Now granted it is a company doctor an...
Fudge-Tastic in Hello
Last night at work I felt crappy. Still stuffy, sinusy, ears won’t pop. Woke up today with a nagging cough. Ugh I hate being sick. Called in. Depending on how I feel tomorrow I may do the sa...
Haven’t felt like writing lately. Back on ten hour nights at work, fifty hour weeks, woo. Court was last Thursday. Another continuation, this time for March 8th. Woke up this morning stuffy...
Unknown Origin: Is This The Comfort Of Being Afraid in Hello
Managed to call the law firm and set up payments for that hospital bill on my lunch break. Weight lifted. I got so worked up about it last night I’ve had a headache since and am pushing twenty-e...
Friday I received a summons for small claims court from a hospital bill from seven years ago I had slowly been paying. They switched lawyers and this happens. Fuck me…
Where Is My Mind... in Dreams And Nightmares
This time I was back at the house on Baywood. The front door had been replaced and now had a small window in it so I looked in on the new family living there. I somehow managed to get inside wi...
7:46 PM and not a single trick or treater. I hate this neighborhood. So, half drunk watching the World Series. Not even a fan of sports but nothing else on TV. “Training,” fucking sucks. A...
Sunday Laze in Hello
The only time I’ve worn clothes today was to get lunch from the El Cazador taco truck. Beef tongue burrito, NOM! Sleeping hours are a bit wonky. Woke up around 9pm last night, been awake sinc...
Been Awake Since 2AM in Hello
Bring me ribs. That is all.
I'm Awake, You're Still Sleeping in Hello
You’re asleep currently in my bed. See my doc in an hour and a half. I’m sorry for my behavior the past few days. I’m really happy you took an extra day to stay. I’ve enjoyed the company even ...
Ugh I’m tired. Jenn will be here in a few hours. Off till Monday. And now, this…
I Wish It Was 4AM in Hello
Then I could take my last break and have a smoke. Bummed myself out tonight. Busted out my little notebook to write my thoughts only to realize last I wrote I was thinking of the same thing that...
Knee and hip hurt, bah. Came home from a long night at work to a plate of thick cut bbq pork chops and a giant sized helping of homemade mac n cheese. Hot damn did I feast. Tomorrow is mom’s b...
