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“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”
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I never did go to that interview today. Another temp service for a job that’s roughly 45 minutes away with no guarantee of a full time position or insurance. Eh, I’ll stay where I’m at. Tonigh...
Can’t sleep. Have had a bad weekend. See the therapist Thursday for the first time in a few months. Got yet another interview at 11 AM. Gonna see what they’re offerring. Think I’ll read some m...
Snapped in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
Carved my wrists up again last week. I’ve been seriously depressed for…sometime now. I feel like I’m a lost cause. There are so many things that are bothering me but I can’t talk about it. At...
One Of THOSE Days in Hello
The guy training me is in a very pissy mood. I was warned last Monday on second shift he gets like this. Ugh. And we’re both working ten hours today. First three down…
Squeak Squeak Says The Rat in Hello
So, I went to the interview. Pros: I’ll learn some programming. Trained on various machines in the shop, especially when things get slow. 7AM to 3:30PM Cons: No A/C. Obamacare insurance. Working ...
I Need Advice... in Hello
So, I started this new job. I dig it for the most part and my trainer is really good. Overheard today that he’s ‘protecting’ me from the people who get the sheet metal I cut. They’re coming to...
You're One Of Us Now Micheal! in Dreams And Nightmares
The Lost Boys is on in the background. There was a theory that Peter Pan was a vampire. Hence this film’s title. I slept like shit last night, in that lucid twilight half awake half asleep stat...
Swear It Was A Movie in Dreams And Nightmares
I was in a posh, nicely decorated room with a group of people I had just met. The details are lost to me, this was a few days ago and has stayed with me. Things escalated quickly and found myse...
In The Feels in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
I slept till about ten PM, got up long enough to make mom and I dinner then dozed back off till about two on the couch. Once I woke up for good I distracted myself with the PS4 for a few hours ti...
I'd Rather Not Admit It in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
Well over a year ago I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. Was told to read I Hate You, Don’t Leave Me. I did and thought it was psychobabble bullshit. Weeeeell…the more I talk ...
Revelation in Hello
It was pointed out last night, while talking about shenanigans my uncle used to get into, that all the male influences in my life have been drunks, addicts, liars, cheats and thieves. As the fri...
Leg started hurting again yesterday so took my meds. Still hurt today so again, took meds, kept it elevated. Well…few hours and a handful of pills or two later, my knee is swelling and the pain...
Intense in Dreams And Nightmares
My mind was at the Space and Rocket Center. I was in a research facility where a large megaton-like steel block was being lowered into a giant pool of water. The mood seemed intense but excited...
Want My Young Body Back in Hello
Court was today…er technically Thursday as it is Friday morning. Another continuation. Lawyer said he’s arguing my case with the prosecutor to get me to walk. Well then, after getting my posse...
No One Is Awake in Dreams And Nightmares
Nuff’ said…
I’m not leaving and you can’t make me. The order will be fulfilled. Company amongst old friends. Early nights and this weekend routine. Start anew, fresh again.
My left elbow and hand are killing me tonight. The machine I’ve been off again on again running has parts that will sometimes get stuck so you gotta put a little force into it. After close to t...
There And Back Again... in Dreams And Nightmares
Different dream. Same scenario. Inside a used local game store. Each time I find the game I’m looking for. There is a vivid image of gameplay that comes to mind. Don’t care the price. It. Is. MIN...
Super Lawyer! in Hello
Well, went back to court today for that arrest back in May. Possession of a single joint. My lawyer somehow pulled off a miracle and got the charge dismissed. Now for my DUI charge. My new...
Back 2 Bed in Hello
Got up early(ish for me) for a meeting with the lawyer. He left me a voicemail saying to just call his office. Sweet, back to bed for thirty more minutes. XD Got a new furry baby today. Grey c...
Had to work Saturday, it wasn’t bad. Noon to six PM. After, I treated mom out to the buffet we enjoy. I gorged myself on sushi, lo mein, and chicken with brocoli. So good. I’ve been tired tod...
[email protected] in Hello
I’ve been reading Doomed by Chuck Palahniuk. Just when I think he can’t get be more…traumatizing…to his characters from book to book, he does. This man is brilliant.
Go Suck An Egg, Betsy! in Hello
So…seems no one gave a damn I missed Saturday. My coworker Willie busted my chops most of the night but all my supervisor did was give me his card with number and e-mail address. Cool. Let’s ...
Dumbass... in Hello
I overslept and missed work. No call no show. I hope I’m not fired…
Well Fudge in Hello
Yep. Saturday, mandatory. I’ve already laid out an itinerary for the evening when I get off. I actually don’t care about working, really. All I do is just find meaningless distractions until I re...
