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“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”
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Confession UPDATE in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
I don’t want to quit drinking cause it is the only time I feel good about myself even though it is nothing but self destruction. I’ve been crying since I woke up. I see the psychiatrist, not l...
Same Shit, New Year in Hello
Worked Sunday to get Monday off. Slept in WAY too late yesterday afternoon. Now currently a few hours away from 24 of no sleep. I’m gonna go crash for a few in a littlr while. Yes, I’m off to...
Back To Work in Hello
Christmas lunch sucked. Middle brother had a stomach bug and eldest was dragged to his wife’s best friend’s house. He wasn’t too thrilled seeing how she planned it in advance and only told him ...
Merry Christmas! in Hello
Sunday was a pain. Supposed to do it at our house when my aunt calls us at 6pm asking where are we at? Well, it miffed my eldest brother and his wife so mucj that they just went home, middle br...
🎅 Gabba Gabba Hey! 🎅 in Hello
Work went good last night, second shift guy finally came in. He’s been having issues with his legs swelling and intense pain. Been there with my feet when I had a gout flare up. It was the mos...
December 19th, 1948 - October 25th, 1999 in Hello
Today would have been dad’s 70th birthday. Instead, alcoholism claimed him at 50. I was 16 and watched him wither away from the man he was to the husk he became from ages 12-16. I sometimes w...
Well This Sucks in Hello
I’m still sick at my stomach from too much alcohol intake over the weekend. Roughly three liters of bourbon and twenty Guinness spread over from Friday to Sunday. I don’t fuck around when it co...
Soul Searching *edit in Hello
Started second shift tonight. Only four of us, three machinist and one fabrication guy. Wasn’t bad. Been thinking a lot today… It’s no secret this year hasn’t been particularly good for me. B...
Why Are These So Hard To Find Now? in Hello
Been singing this to myself the last few days. They used to be plentiful at every store but now can only find the minis during Christmas time. I miss the bars that were like six inches big if n...
So Far So Good in Hello
The new job is going good. Within the first few hours I was talking and cracking jokes with the new coworkers like we were old friends. Today I was pretty much running three machines by myself...
New Guy Jitters in Hello
Start the new job today. Wish me luck!
Long Two Days in Hello
So, Wednesday I had a job interview at noon. Medical machine shop making steel screws that go in the human body. Before I head out I learn my eldest brother is having surgery that afternoon fro...
While I’d like to think I’d be a cool dad…I would completely fail as a parent.
New Turn Of Events in Hello
So, my lawyer got it in writing that if I filed an appeal they’d file the motion to dismiss the charges. According to him the old judge would have already dismissed the case but this new judge h...
Court today at 1pm. Last time my lawyer had a deal everyone was on board with except obe person. So, in turn, I’m highly nervous today. Mom is recovering well. Sleeps a lot. I’ve been doing e...
RIP Stan 'The Man' Lee in Hello
Dear Mr. Lee, You’re original run on Spider-Man from the 60’s are some of my favorite reads from comics. The iconic character and his rogues gallery of villains continue to capture my imaginatio...
I never did go to that interview today. Another temp service for a job that’s roughly 45 minutes away with no guarantee of a full time position or insurance. Eh, I’ll stay where I’m at. Tonigh...
Can’t sleep. Have had a bad weekend. See the therapist Thursday for the first time in a few months. Got yet another interview at 11 AM. Gonna see what they’re offerring. Think I’ll read some m...
Snapped in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
Carved my wrists up again last week. I’ve been seriously depressed for…sometime now. I feel like I’m a lost cause. There are so many things that are bothering me but I can’t talk about it. At...
One Of THOSE Days in Hello
The guy training me is in a very pissy mood. I was warned last Monday on second shift he gets like this. Ugh. And we’re both working ten hours today. First three down…
Squeak Squeak Says The Rat in Hello
So, I went to the interview. Pros: I’ll learn some programming. Trained on various machines in the shop, especially when things get slow. 7AM to 3:30PM Cons: No A/C. Obamacare insurance. Working ...
I Need Advice... in Hello
So, I started this new job. I dig it for the most part and my trainer is really good. Overheard today that he’s ‘protecting’ me from the people who get the sheet metal I cut. They’re coming to...
You're One Of Us Now Micheal! in Dreams And Nightmares
The Lost Boys is on in the background. There was a theory that Peter Pan was a vampire. Hence this film’s title. I slept like shit last night, in that lucid twilight half awake half asleep stat...
Swear It Was A Movie in Dreams And Nightmares
I was in a posh, nicely decorated room with a group of people I had just met. The details are lost to me, this was a few days ago and has stayed with me. Things escalated quickly and found myse...
In The Feels in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
I slept till about ten PM, got up long enough to make mom and I dinner then dozed back off till about two on the couch. Once I woke up for good I distracted myself with the PS4 for a few hours ti...
