prescription_Queen ⋅

I'm a city girl that moved to the country, trying to recover from an addiction and mental health problems that almost killed me. I'm just trying to find my own way, surviving with my boyfriend. He was right along with me in our using days but won't go get professional help. I'm tattooed, pierced, medicated and narcissistic. Sometimes I make bad decisions, but that doesn't make me a bad person.

You come at the king, you best not miss.

Omar Little

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Sometimes I’m so good, I surprise myself. I just finessed some loud off this dude I know who sells it and would do absolutely anything to get in my pants.. I asked him for a front until the morni...


August 09, 2018

Pharmacy Trip in My fucked up life

Waiting to leave. Have a lot to do today, but he’s going to stall until the last minute to go up there. I have my suboxone script. He finally gave me enough for 2 weeks. Same dose as I was on in ...


Been like manic-depressive recently. When you tell someone that you’re having a bad mental health day, they automatically assume the worst. Ugh. The past week has been shitty and I don’t feel lik...


Been like manic-depressive recently. When you tell someone that you’re having a bad mental health day, they automatically assume the worst. Ugh. The past week has been shitty and I don’t feel lik...


July 17, 2018

My Fear in Dual Diagnosis

Ugh. Last week I keep hearing someone talking and asking him over and over “Did you say something?” Until the point he snapped out. Like then I’m like hearing a radio? Like I’ll check my phone an...


Omg I don’t even know where to begin. Or even what I had written previously. He is still very upset that I’m not going to my clinic anymore because now he has to trust me when I say I’m only smok...


July 06, 2018

Taking a Leap in My fucked up life

So, i haven’t been writing much. But that’s neither here nor there. Im saying fuck my group [my clinic] and I just handed over to him all the meds I normally take. I have about 20 left which is p...


June 27, 2018

Wednesday in My fucked up life

Oh I had so much fun with my sister yesterday. I haven’t seen her since our mom died. She goes to school about 15 minutes away from me. And the pool is only 5 minutes away. I have been waking up...


I tried writing from my phone last night but I was just too tired. I was woken up by the bf wanting sex and he didn’t get off anyway. I actually went out and made a video for him to watch yesterd...


These weeks have just been flying by. I hope I have not been repeating the same shit over and over again. I’ll try to remember correctly and not bounce back and forth between stories too much. It...


June 20, 2018

Sub Doc Day in My fucked up life

I woke up feeling like shit. Like I’m getting a cold. I have so much pressure in my head when I bend down or put my head down. Last night was awesome though, so I guess I’ll start there. I medic...


They finally put my window a/c in. It’s going to take at least a day to get it down to the level ‘not sweating while sitting still’ We got into an argument over that stupid thing. He asked me to...


This weekend flew by. Now, I’m sweltering in my apartment. Thank God the suns down now. Maybe it’ll start to cool off. I tried to start writing Friday and got distracted. It was a busy day, Frid...


June 15, 2018

Late Night in My fucked up life

Watching Dave Chappelle’s latest stand up. It’s technically Friday and I have a busy day ahead of me. I have my psych doc appointment, independent counseling and my younger dude is supposed to se...


The past 2 days have been very eventful to say the least. I know I’ll probably say this a million times but my memory is shot dead, so I’ll try to keep it in order and not to just ramble on back ...


Last night was alright. Had a little bit of sexual activity and took my cold shower and fell asleep. I was woken up by him throwing things around and when I asked him what was wrong, he told me n...


Today felt really busy but at the same time I felt like I had done nothing at all. But some stuff happened in between the last time I wrote and now. I don’t know if I’ll remember it all but here’...


So what happened today, lets see. I got up and went to my group therapy. What fun that is. I get to sit in a room full of other addicts and talk about dugs and what we can do now that we aren’t d...


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