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I’m fucking heartbroken and I have no Idea how else to feel right now. A friend of mine from high-school died and I found out yesterday morning. I haven’t figured out the right words to write abo...

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-Met my friends brother to get a thing from said friend -Went to the dollar store and got drinks -Raged about the lack of internet -Repotted 12 pots worth of plants -Gave both big dogs a bath ...

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If you asked me right now, I’d tell you no. I’d list all the reasons why and hurt my own feelings in the process. I need reassurance and instead all I can seem to get is more upset.

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AKA late night thoughts that I probably shouldn’t write down. I know how to solve all the damned insecurity and so fucking many of the problems I’m having with it but it isn’t up to me. Maybe it...

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When is the last time you experienced nostalgia? -A few days ago. A converstion about stuffed animals triggered it What’s the scariest dream you’ve ever had? -I knew I was dreaming but I was ...

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Well. Kind of. I bought myself a laptop which makes writing entries at least 30x easier. I’ve always found that journaling is easiest for me when I can just brain-dump, stream-of-consciousness wh...

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Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral.Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral.Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral.Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Do...

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I had a dream the other night and it’s been fucking with me. I’ll spare most of the details but the big main thing was that I was pregnant and spotting. I remember thinking “I dont want to lose t...

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Change is inevitable and necessary but one, huge, collective, global change…? That is a bit much to handle. But honestly? I’m loving the free time. For the first time in my 25 years, I have time...

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Can’t keep you off my mind. I have a bad feeling about tomorrow and it is making me so restless that music doesnt sound right. I cant even explain why because I’m not low or anything. I feel goo...

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I had a dream we were riding in a car or a bike maybe and we had to stop because a small airplane was going to park on the roadway. You were immediately terrified and so was everyone around us. Y...

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I wasn’t low today. I wasn’t low all day but now… I’m burnt out. I should be sleeping because I have to be up in less than 5 hours but I needed to write. Most of the time I’m doing well. I got us...

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There’s just something about a warm day in the winter. It feels like the start of something new, and maybe it’s just another day but today feels free. Big changes are coming and in the short-slee...

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I had a bad bad bad dream last night. There was a nightmare part but overall just an awful dream. There was this creature that didn’t fit the… I guess resolution… of the dream and it scared me so...

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When you’re reading a book about the end of the world, it’s hard not to imagine it being your world. You put the book down and expect the world to be in chaos but it all feels so… normal. The wea...

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“I remember feeling low and I remember losing hope And I remember all the feelings and the day they stopped. We are, we are all innocent.” Filed under: Lost in thought on the way home.

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This has been by far the least Christmas-y Christmas in my life. I believe I did a pretty good job of hiding it but I’m honestly really depressed. I miss my mom. I know she comes back tomorrow ...

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I have a really bad habit of downplaying anything that is wrong with me–even when it is completely valid for me to be broked/down/hurt/angry/etc. Maybe that’s why no one believes me when I start...

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I’ve been sick for a week now with varying symptoms and I am so frustrated. It started on Monday the 21st with a sore throat that hurt too much to swallow by the time I got home. Fever of 100.5....

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My brother and I were in Walmart today to buy the switch I’ve been saving for and some groceries and animal stuff. I had already bought the switch and a game. While we were in line checking out ...

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Have you ever had someone put into words exactly what you were feeling in a way you couldn’t articulate? On one hand they know what you’re trying to say and are truly listening. On the other you ...

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I woke up into another dream only I didn’t know I was dreaming. We were talking but I’m not sure what about. I moved to put my head and arm on your stomach. I wiggled and you asked why so I told ...

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My appointment today went by so quickly and it made the ache… the grief so much worse. I shouldn’t have talked about it. I’d have been better off if I just buried it as far as I could. My cowork...

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I’m so exhausted and restless that I can’t even fall asleep for a before work car nap. Now I have 40 minutes to waste whatever other way

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I went to bed at midnight last night despite knowing my alarm would be going off at 4:30. I tried everything to get to sleep but by 1:30 I was still awake. I wasn’t even can’t-stay-still restless...

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