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Depression

by SecretsandLies

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January 04, 2016

Sudden

I know it’s been a while, I haven’t really wanted to write anything. But something just happened and I needed to write all of a sudden. Earlier on today, my college class and I were talking about...


November 02, 2015

3/11/15

I’m very tired of living


November 02, 2015

Pissed off

I’m sick of being a really good friend, and being kind and understanding in situations that disappoint me or make me sad, when if it’s the other way around she’s no where near as understanding an...


November 01, 2015

Bad again

So it has been a while since I’ve written here. It’s been kind of awful but good at the same time. College had been going well for a while but over the last two weeks my brain has gotten worse an...


August 30, 2015

Emotional rant

I don’t want to let this beat me but it’s wearing me out. There are so many things that I’d love to do in life, for instance I’d love to start vlogging on YouTube about beauty and life in general...


August 28, 2015

Im alive

So, it’s been quite a while. Just really updating to say I am alive, don’t worry. I’m okay, I’m doing a bit better. I just haven’t felt like writing at all. Prefer to draw really


June 20, 2015

Lost phone

I feel so stupid for losing my phone. Ever since I lost it I’ve been feeling horrible. My phone is like my child, like it’s so damn important to me. My life is on that thing. Plus I can’t even ca...


June 17, 2015

Update

I was doing good for about 2 weeks and now I’m back to rock bottom. Don’t want to get out of bed, don’t want to leave the house, don’t want to get dressed, see people, do anything. Everyone’s irr...


May 26, 2015

therapy

I have to go to my 2nd counselling session tomorrow ( well second with this person) and the thought of it is making me extremely depressed and anxious. I really don’t want to have to talk to this...


May 24, 2015

breakup

Breaking up with someone who’s madly in love with you is so difficult


May 21, 2015

mistake

Oh god what the fuck did I just do


May 13, 2015

what is love

I’m not in love. I should be, I thought I was, I know how I should feel and I thought I felt it but I’ve just been thinking lately that this is definitely not love. I love him, that’s true, but I...


May 10, 2015

self {poem}

I’m crumbling into pieces and no one seems to notice I’m falling apart and no one will put me back together I’m drowning but no one will lift me out of the water The only one who can help me is m...


May 04, 2015

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I’m so tired of constantly hating myself. It’s exhausting. I just want to be slim. That’s literally all I want.


April 27, 2015

bad

Bad day. Very bad day. I just want it all to be over


April 23, 2015

not invited

Do you ever feel so isolated, that even your efforts to come out of isolation cause you to become more isolated? Does that even make sense? A college friend - whom I thought was quite a good frie...


April 19, 2015

nothingness

I’m so tired of this life. Day after day after day. The same constant worries which consume me. The horrible self hate. Wanting to sleep the days away. I’m sick of it. I’ve just had enough


April 16, 2015

2:30am thoughts

Do you ever have thoughts that you’re afraid to think? Like oh shit no I can’t think that or it might be true. Right now, at 2:27am, I am worrying about seeing my boyfriend tomorrow. I am wonder...


April 14, 2015

sex talk

Okay so I haven’t seen my boyfriend in a few weeks because he went home to his parents over easter and that’s too far away for me to get to. I’m seeing him on friday and we’re just hanging in his...


April 14, 2015

life

Since college started I’ve been feeling ljke I’m not very important to my best friend. Since she got these new friends it feels kind of disposable to her. Almost like she knows I’m not going to l...


April 12, 2015

new start

Alright so I bought an eBook to help with weight loss. Finally did something productive. It’s actually really good and I think I’m going to be able to do this. Fuck that I definitely will be able...


April 06, 2015

sex

Sex makes me very nervous. Partially because I hate my body, that’s a big deal for me. But also because of my lack of experience. I may have had sex before, but I haven’t touched a guy properly. ...


April 03, 2015

friends

Kind of sick of my best friend at the moment. She’s been a lot meaner lately. It’s almost as if since she got a new boyfriend she’s decided she doesn’t really need me so she can be as mean as she...


April 03, 2015

tiny entry

I’m lonely. There are so many people around me who love me and talk to me and yet I’m lonely. I’m exhausted all the time. I’m so sick of this


March 20, 2015

*hugs*

I don’t think you all realise how much your words mean to me. I wish I could hug all of you. When I first starting writing here, I thought I was just keeping a diary. But it’s really nice to see ...


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