Sudden in Depression

I know it’s been a while, I haven’t really wanted to write anything. But something just happened and I needed to write all of a sudden.

Earlier on today, my college class and I were talking about stuff in the Facebook group chat that we have, just normal, casual chats about assignments and stuff. Then one of the girls, who I don’t know very well, suddenly says that her boyfriend is on life support, he fell through a roof. So we’re all there trying to keep her positive and I’m just like oh my god that is terrifying. She says they’re taking him off it in the morning, but she’s not there yet so she’s going to try get them to keep it on for a bit longer. He has swelling in his brain.

So now it’s past 3 am, I’m awake because I saw that an guy I sorta know who I talked to a lot for a month or so was having a bad time and I know he’s got some mental issues like me,so I messaged him with some funny things to try make him smile and we got to talking so I’m still awake.

But I just went onto Facebook and saw that the girl had changed her profile picture to her and her boyfriend kissing, so I feared the worst. I went to his page and loads of people are posting on it saying r.I.p and things like that, so he must’ve passed away. I don’t understand how this could happen, and I don’t understand why it’s affecting me so much. I’m here crying over someone I don’t even know at all. I actually full on prayed earlier because I was scared for him and I was crying while I did. I never pray. I don’t know why but I just did it. And I begged and pleaded to just give this guy another chance, send the doctors a sign that there’s hope for him. But it mustn’t have worked. Obviously.

I don’t know why this hit me so strongly. I barely know the girl, I don’t even really like her, and I don’t know him at all. But now all I want to do is message her telling her that it’ll get less difficult, and that he’s always going to be hers. But I feel like maybe that one be weird.

For whatever reason this has hit me as if I knew him personally, and tbh I’m kind of wishing the world would stop taking the people who deserve to live, and only take the ones who either want to die or are absolutely evil. I don’t know what to do, I feel like I need my mum. Oh I’m going to cry again.

Has this happened to anyone else? I feel really stupid because I don’t know him, but I feel so sad about it