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addressing the public

by if.i.fall.

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October 26, 2023

a dream atop a gallant horse

in dreams i suffer my own romances time passes but it feels like time is a circle i wept atop a gallant horse a figure asked me why i cared about the cowboy in the wind who broke my heart from th...


seek the answers seek the known chase the high i felt driving home forget the flutters the elbows thrown feel less wise now that i’m grown toss the keepsakes keep the bin pretend i chose this lan...


April 21, 2023

stuck

i can’t give myself grace would someone else be more kind? and with each passing day i feel further behind the shame that i feel for things that once felt so easy as simple as silence as automati...


October 26, 2022

prepared

all your work to get somewhere courage and computations i picture you on lonely nights only you could be so patient i want to hold that version of you in my arms tell you that soon enough i’ll co...


August 29, 2022

what keeps me up at night

there were a lot of things wrong with us but what keeps me up at night is the ways that we were right and i couldn’t give you up with a spark of hope inside i had to wait until it died and that w...


July 26, 2022

safe love

questions and answers are we flying too high? i just want to feel sure i don’t want to cry but validation still it’s the air that i breathe scared i’ll be too much for you and not enough for me t...


July 10, 2022

hot, for certain

hot, for certain but not just that you pour out your ambitions and your fears logic, reason jealous feelings i’d risk it all for words spilled in my ears no control of what i say the sounds i mak...


June 18, 2022

after 1 date

i have no patience and i have no cool i thought i’d be a sinner before i’d be a fool but there’s something dreamy in being so blatant so clear in our hopes and sincere in our statements because t...


May 31, 2022

getting hotter

i’m hoping you’ll be truest blue i may not know you all too well it’s getting hotter in my room but it’s not from the summer swell for you, for me i want to be someone better for myself to know i...


November 17, 2021

you're not in my future

every failing of yours will you realize too late i can’t make it right i don’t know why i wait i have no self delusions and no reasons to stay yet i can’t move my legs can’t get out of my way you...


September 22, 2021

heartbreak hotel

checking in you are the object of envy. prize winners know that lose-your-mind grin. on the clock, we both know that we’re only pretending that you could truly love me or find me that interesti...


August 02, 2021

palace of fear

staring at the moonlight wishing i would write a self-soothing song of comfort and of wit. but so much dread, it greets me here i build a palace of my fears raising towers from the soil that will...


February 24, 2021

it's one way to survive

it’s too painful so disdainful inside i feel the shards of glass at first a tingle just a prickle and then it doubles me in half indecision, tunnel vision would be better than this state with my ...


August 24, 2020

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no one can be known and i’m alone and no one’s watching if i hoped someone would see me as i go it couldn’t make a difference revolving door of misaligned reflections my imperfections pick one an...


Sugarcoat my Brokenness I want you more than me I’ve left behind my selflessness I’ve fallen at your feet I want your summer sun rays Sprinkler rainbow on the lawn Not these glass shards in my c...


January 07, 2020

warm evening rain

warm evening rain do you remember nothing breaks as sweet as that first laugh cross streets, the pull and even then i knew it’s the reason i avoided you. my roots unplanted in familiar soil i th...


November 02, 2019

i could've sworn...

i blame myself you broke my trust possession, digression, tears and lust could not free me from the stone. i begged you not to be alone prayed you’d hear the words i think. i sent them to you thr...


September 19, 2019

greyest greys

have my best days now come and gone in my return i led them on nothing like that foreign thrill i was a bird, a sea, a hill and now i’m concrete, scorching waves of dull magentas, greyest greys b...


January 22, 2019

here we go

here we go another song another heart that i’ve done wrong moody, brooding, and withdrawn a sudden sorrow comes along wish i wasn’t always right wish i’d let you be my light wish i’d keep you by ...


January 10, 2019

Behind the mask

The written word is mine to keep And could I let them know Those that I’ve shed from loneliness I had to let them go For they saw she behind the mask Before her final form A molting skin with sel...


September 28, 2018

I saw you like a light

Coincidence, or maybe not I saw you like a light Like a moth to a flame Like I’d been starved of sight From les Sables d’Olonne I remember the wind We froze time in the car Flutter-heart and a gr...


September 14, 2018

you'll always be diamonds

eggs in one basket i hoped that you’d call i hoped that we’d change that i’d give you my all i’m getting too jealous i’m not letting you go and somehow i can blame you when i’m feeling alone you ...


August 12, 2018

more than my whole life

heart ripped out i love you more but when i see you will i know? my love and poetry is not worth more than my whole life (i thought) but nothing else can make me glow like sexy lights on handsom...


I miss you like you miss the summer Wind-whipped skin and hands so cold But mine, you held them through the winter You made my stone heart liquid gold I heard you like you hear the sirens Far at...


i saw a photo of you today all smiling and silly i didn’t cry or anything although of course a little sting and maybe it’s the distance and maybe it’s the time but in that moment i was so relieve...


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