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I’m tired. I’m always tired. I’m trying to think of things to say, but my life is just work. I guess if I were to update about work, my update would be that I find myself having to be the ir...

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They give you crucial steps before moving in, call the: 1. Electricity Company 2. Water Company 3. Gas Company I was able to get all three done, well, I thought. Despite waking up at 7am on a...

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It’s been a hot minute since I’ve wrote anything about my life in any shape or form. I lived in a share house between May - early December. I finally moved to my own apartment over the weekend....

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Drunk and alone, walking home. I stop at the nearby shrine, divulging in the truths I’m afraid to admit. I reach the park. The grass is so green and full of life. unlike me. I take off my socks...

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I miss my ferret. I knew that it would take time to move her to Japan with me but going from seeing her almost every day for 4 yrs to nothing truly is saddening. When I would travel, I would mis...

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I’m not religious but something about the shrines in this country makes me feel like trying. I come to these shrines, purify myself and donate what I can. 50Y for luck, an extra 100Y for the caus...

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Yesterday I sit in class, the smell of his cologne wafting through the air continuously. I haven’t smelt it since 2019, but the smell is engrained in my memory. As I sit there thinking of him, wo...

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I envy minimalists and people who don’t attach sentimental value to objects. I’ve always loved cozy rooms that are cluttered, so I suppose I am the opposite: A maximalist. And even worse, I atta...

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To be honest, I want to write something but I don’t have much to say. I’m stressed out of my mind, I don’t have anything truly interesting swimming around up there. I’m just going to google a ra...

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It wasn’t a good day, but, what can you do? I won’t lie, I lose my shit privately on days like these. But as a passive person I can only advocate for myself so far before I begin to question if ...

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If you’re embarrassed to tell someone something, then does that mean that something is something worth being ashamed over. I love my partner but they struggle with jealousy and wanting to be in ...

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I wish I could be mad for myself but I feel like that would be coddling too. Everything is falling apart because I was ill prepared, and not because of anyone else. The person who offered to wa...

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I move to Japan in two weeks. I can feel the weight of everything on top of me, yet the stress I experience doesn’t motivate me. I’m confident in my want to go to Japan, however, I’m not confid...

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