~Octopussy~

I'm not really sure what to write about myself. I'm just moving forward because that's all I can do... except when I'm here, usually that means I'm obsessing about the past.

Power is being told you are not loved and not being destroyed by it.

Madonna

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I was reading Kiss Of Life’s entry and it reminded me of this song. I love this song and think it’s got a great message. George really was a master. It’s really difficult to hear in hindsight. L...


Amongst the idiotic romantic entanglements into which I’ve been getting myself, there has also been the situation of my grandmother’s deteriorating health. The main problem I’m having with the wh...


Oh God, ever since that last entry, things shifted quickly. I started hitting the dating scene really hard, and it hasn’t always been a good thing. Like at all. In fact, it’s been pretty stupid. ...


This weekend was predictably sedate. It was a nice change of pace compared to the orgy from a week ago… Ugh, was that a mess. So now here I am sitting at home on Oscar night watching Murder, She ...


I feel like doing one of these will either clear my sinuses or my head… either way I’ll get to empty out a bunch of nonsense that’s just clutter. Be honest; name of the last person to text you? I...


Does anybody remember an entry called The Vase Is the Most Important part of This Story? Well, the guy I cuddled with the whole night has been put in a Buzzfeed list. Does anyone wanna hazard a g...


I haven’t really spoken to Charlie since October. I never wrote about what happened because it was really upsetting. If you’re lost about who I’m talking about, take a quick peek at 3. Fable (The...


Everything happening in the US is just so dispiriting that I don’t really want to write because then I’ll have to think… and I’d like not to think for a little while… but that won’t happen. At le...


February 04, 2017

Remnants in The Song Remembers When

You know, I think that the first artist whose music you consciously purchased (as opposed to being a hand-me-down by a sibling or parent) is a lot like falling in love for the first time. That pe...


I believe there is a curse on anyone who tries to set-up their friends. I used to hang out with a girl named Crystal, I’m sure I wrote about the last time we hung out, I just can’t seem to find t...


So this whole having friends and hanging out with people thing is really odd. Like, we’ve hung out the past two nights, we grabbed breakfast this morning and he like hugs me good-bye and is genui...


One of the pitfalls of saying everything is sunshine and lollipops, or just admitting to have a positive attitude, is that you leave the door open for something REALLY bad to happen. That’s usual...


I decided that I would not go to Maddie’s funeral, and I did it explicitly for selfish reasons. Out of the twenty-two deaths in 2016, I went to 17 funerals. Frankly, that’s too much grief and ref...


Shorty before Christmas, I called Edgar. I had seen him around town and he looked healthy, doing his steps for AA, so I wanted to reach out and see how he was doing. The conversation was fairly p...


January 10, 2017

No Plan in The Song Remembers When

I know I know, another ridiculous story about David Bowie. The truth is, I feel like his death was such a watershed moment in 2016. It was like some kind of portent about the way things would go....


Richard went home early that morning and I drove him to his father’s house. They all remembered me and forced me to eat another breakfast even though I’d eaten one at my mother’s just minutes ear...


You know, I’ve started around a dozen entries since the last one I wrote, and then some bombshell gets dropped on me while I’m writing, I stop and then I feel like I have to start all over again....


Sunday night, my friend Kat and I went out. She just moved to the Sacramento area from San Jose about a month ago but hasn’t been out at all because she is new to the area. I had a lot of anxiety...


I’m at work typing this because there’s nothing better to do. I just got a prank call from some kid claiming to be asking questions about PS4 vs X Box One, but I realized it was a prank call when...


My grandmother’s in the ER so I need to distract myself. 1.ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT? I have a scar on each of my palms from getting a nail punched through both of them simultaneously...


I’m supposed to be meeting Kendra for coffee in less than an hour but I can’t seem to get myself motivated to get out the door. Kendra used to be one of my very best friends and we did everything...


Ever since they changed the settings on this thing, I haven’t been able to look at it. I finally figured out how to turn off all of that obnoxious WHITE glaring at me all the time. Ugh, not happy...


I’ve been meaning to write, but the holidays mean that I have much less time and even less inclination. Things were kind of crawling along like they have for much of this past year. The differenc...


My absence over the last several weeks was because I needed to get my head screwed on straight, and I wasn’t quite sure I could survive waxing on about the stress of my birthday. The truth is, my...


I seem to have found myself in some alternate reality. If you had told me two years ago that this is where my life would be at this point in my life, I would have laughed in your face and told yo...


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