~Octopussy~ ⋅

I'm not really sure what to write about myself. I'm just moving forward because that's all I can do... except when I'm here, usually that means I'm obsessing about the past.

Power is being told you are not loved and not being destroyed by it.

Madonna

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I was trying to find a survey because I really didn’t feel like writing, but as I was searching for something, I realized how awful the internet has become. I’m sure many of you remember how the ...


I looked around at the hotel room. On my way back from checking the bus schedule, two of the bar boys from the place I’d been last night asked hopefully if they’d see me again that evening. I did...


I return to work on Monday after 3 weeks of no classes and for some reason, I’m incredibly nervous about it. I feel like I haven’t prepared or something. I severely injured my foot on my birthday...


I’ve been really disconnected from music these last couple of months, but something funny happened. In West Hollywood, FUBAR closed. The Foobs (as we called it) was where I spent most of my time ...


Do you put ketchup on hot dogs? I haven’t had a hot dog in sooooo long… I really want a chili cheese dog (they have frankfurters here, but I wouldn’t really call them hot dogs, and no buns… they ...


I imagine my friends say that I should put myself out there and try new things, but that’s a lie. Nobody’s ever actually said that to me, it’s just something that appears in my head whenever I tu...


It was a few days before finals and I was reviewing the material with my youngest group of students, they’re between 11 and 12 years old. We were playing Hangman and they had gotten the first two...


I don’t know how to explain what it’s like here. I live in an alternate reality. Which is both good and bad. Nothing that happens over there matters. Which means that negative things don’t affec...


I’m getting used to a lot of things I’ve never had to get used to. I have a big kitchen now (or relatively big considering how small my last one had been) but I have a much, much smaller refriger...


I finally finished moving. I have so much space in my new place that I don’t quite know what to do with it all. Every shelf is empty and I finally see that I have not collected anything in my lif...


Interviewer: Why haven’t you written a memoir? Stevie Nicks: Because I wouldn’t be able to tell the whole truth. The world is not ready for my memoir, I guarantee you. All of the men I hung out w...


Do you have any nicknames? I have so many nicknames that my friend Billy Francesca, a West Hollywood legend, told me that I had more aliases and alter-egos than he did and that meant I was eith...


I had to put on the brakes this week because something happened in a meeting, and when it was over, I saw what was happening. I ran out of medicine on Sunday, which means my brain is going to sta...


I thought I’d share my reactions to some interesting survey results. Maybe you have a reaction to share, too. 1) 1 in 10 people think HTML is a Sexually Transmitted Disease Well, at least 9 peopl...


I always sang The Judds music since I was a little kid. My mother listened to them obsessively and would sing their music. When I started singing, the first song I sang in public was “Grandpa” fo...


For some reason, as I was on my way to work this morning, I started thinking about one of my childhood friends. It didn’t end well. He and I were very similar. We even had the same name, Justin. ...


There’s a music blog I’ve been reading for a little over 2 years now. It’s written by a journalist with whom I often disagree, but I find a lot of his technical insights into the workings of pop ...


I went upstairs to use the restroom since the one downstairs was out of order. I had to go through the curtain and let the bouncer know that I had permission to come in without paying. I walked p...


Thursday was the one year anniversary of my arrival in Thailand. I posted about it and my friend Johnny had a very funny response. “It’s only been a year?! It feels longer than that…” I asked him...


I had a five day weekend, and four of those five days I spent looking at apartments. I love my current apartment, but it’s just such a long commute to work and I’m tired of spending 4 hours every...


So I’m on week 2 of my new job and week 1 of being actually on campus at the University. I have to say, I’m a little confused by all of it. Each meeting just raises more questions than it answers...


Nothing has happened. I’m still on vacation. Jesus, I don’t know how Europeans do it. In America, we don’t have vacations… at least, we don’t have mandatory time off. When you first get a job, yo...


I’m back in Bangkok. It was fine and all of my stressing out was unnecessary. But so what? Learning that my fears were unfounded doesn’t exactly stop me from having those anxieties. You know, hea...


Ironically, something that was said on the new season of The Real World: Homecoming triggered a thought process in my head. I know why I have such severe panic attacks but I only know the symptom...


I’m trying to stay out of my head because I’ve been having panic attacks for days now. I’m stressing out so much about this trip to Thailand because I feel like I have no control over how it goes...