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So The Plot Fuckin' Thickens
This one hurts. I’ve had my doubts and suspicions. Either paranoia or giving in to the BPD of seeing things in black and white no grey. Always waiting for the other shoe to drop. Two weeks ago P...
Why Do You Feel This Way?
Useless. I was off the last two days and really didn’t do anything. Yes I rested up. But…I don’t know. Feel like I should have gone out and done something. Sure I messed with the Lego set I g...
Yarda Yarda
One month sober. 👏👏👏 I ended up at Wal-Mart last night and bought a bandage for my arm. Still stiff and sore. Woo. I’m bored today so rewatching Spider-Man Far: From Home.
Herbal Pilgrimage
I woke up way too early. Did not have to work last night so inadvertently stayed up till almost midnight only to have the cruel mistress of 6:30 AM greet me when I opened my eyes. Set out early,...
Beached Whale
I’m lying on my couch in boxers only. The title accurately describes me right now Lol. The boss took mercy on us so no OT tonight. Only issue now is that it’s pretty warm in the house so I can’...
Hot Water On The Nuts
So, I discovered something titillating in the shower recently. But now I’m super dried out and constantly scratching like it’s low tide during crab season. 👼 Better Call Saul is back on! I ca...
15 Hours Of Sleep Later
Somewhere between 4 AM and 5:30 AM yesterday morning I finally zonked out. Woke up around 1 something to pee and answer a text. Back asleep till 9:30 PM. Fuck was it needed! Work was decent la...
Still Awake
I just got in from Peacock’s house. Her and the hubby are slowly trying to work things out. I was having a rough night (including Friday) where things went to shit (in my opinion) and I wanted ...
Survey Stolen
What color is your toothbrush? White and blue Oral B Name one person who made you smile today: Eric through texting. What were you doing at 8 am this morning? Leaving Blue Plate Cafe after a good...
Hear Ye Hear Ye
My kingdom for a joint. And some nasty raunchy sex. The smelliest the better! I want to walk away like I’ve been playing contact sports with a guilt of cardinal sin so big I’m ready for another...
Sleepy Time Bye Bye
I have OT tonight. Woo but not really. My right pinkie hurts bad right now. Dumbass me was opening the packaging on a new tool two nights ago and sliced a layer of skin off. I bled through the...
This Will Suck
Wide. Fucking. Awake. Tonight shall be interesting. Last night I was pretty busy with three machines, trying to keep up with deburring and IP’s. It went by quick, which is nice. However a few t...
As Per Usual
The flirting with Peacock is at a standstill (at least through texts.) She is now separated from her husband (he moved out) but now it’s a six month to year waiting period for legal reasons that...
Quickie
Took some Nyquil before a good long nap last night and woke up feeling a lot better. Still congested with a runny nose but cough/sore throat is gone! When I get home sleep is over due.
I Feel Like Ass
My throat is mega sore and I’ve got a cough. My body feels weak yet no fever. That’s good I guess… I ❤ Sushi has gone up in price but it was still worth it. Ordered the fried calamari and four...
Damn Weather
Stuffy with a sore throat. Weather has dropped into the 20’s again. Bah! It’s (early) Saturday so that means Blue Plate Cafe on the way home from OT later. Much later, in the evening, I’m bein...
Le Sigh
I’m jonesin’ for some pot. Ran out earlier this week and my guy is between supplies. Seriously smoking the resin out of my pipe. Poor man’s high. Tastes like crap. And now for something compl...
All Week
I’ll doze off a little after 9 AM and wake up a few hours later only to remain awake till like 6 or 7. I’m not getting full uninterrupted sleep. This sucks. Also the plant manager and all his t...
Happy Birthday To Me!!!
37th in fact. Peacock and I ended up making out in the parking lot before her shift yesterday morning. I’m counting that as a gift. She also left me a three page letter thanking me for our frie...
Tattoo Pics Last Entry
Today is one week sober. Wow…
Interesting Turn Of Events
Met up with Peacock for breakfast. After she ended up coming over and we cuddled a bit. Turns out her husband told her he cheated on her. Nothing happened between us. Just her curled up with ...
12:06 AM
Last night went by smooth. Hugs n pats on the back. Gave Peacock a huge bear hug. Said she was worried sick. Less than six hours to go tonight and I’m excited. Not for getting off but my ans...
This Will Be Interesting
I return back to work tonight. Pretty sure EVERYONE knows why I was out at this point. Wish me luck.
Well Then
I ended up going to the main hospital to check myself into the psych ward for a few days to dry out. Not sure what pill that doctor gave me but my shakes stopped within an hour. Explained to se...
Slept All Day. Update
I’m gonna check into an in-patient rehab this morning. WTF? The only in patient detox is Bradford and the reviews are horror stories of theiving heroin addicts and a burnt out staff. I did a phon...
Book Description
I came on my own volition.
I am the man that got away.
Work -
Tonight I clocked in at 4:30 PM and it was suddenly Wednesday when I worked 6:45 AM to 6 PM with only an hour lunch break and on my feet the rest. I was trying to relieve Logan in the back who was frying chicken both for our loose case and boxed hot case so he could go to lunch. Instead I got mixed with a redneck who wanted a Philly steak and cheese. I made his sandwich to order only to be confronted with the elderly gentleman behind him. He, to this shit. o, wanted a Philly. I was annoyed. Angry. Granted chicken side cooking sucks At least you’re away from the customers. I can, “pretend”, like I’m cooking chicken in the back but dick around for ten minutes, which actually rarely happens. You learn to smile and accept this shit. Made him his sandwich, didn’t stop to ask the next customer if he needed help. Instead, went straight to the back and told Logan to take his lunch, I was taking over, box up what just came up out the fryer and we’re good.
It was just one of those days. People wonder why I get stoned before work.
I.
Am.
Robot.
Tell.
Me.
What.
Is.
Next.
I’m versatile.
Put me in any situation and I come victorious.
Even on the bad days.
So when I go the hardcore bitch mode of my assistant manager on Wednesday after my eleventh hour there. I got irate.
I know she does a job for two.
Her boss/my boss sucks ass.
But fuck....I’m part time.
If you want to bitch and yell about the shit that the full timers didn’t do…bitch to them.
DON’T MAKE ME DO THEIR FUCKING SHIT THE LAST HOUR I’M THERE!
I’ve been working for this slave camp for three and a half years.
I lost my insurance last year due to me being stupid and the store manager catching on. Which is actually a big blessing. I haven’t missed a day in a year.
But I’ve been there for every shift.
Sleep, no sleep?
Fuck it.
Show up for work.
The computer takes over on schedule and now I don’t qualify for our good insurance.
I have to take the government stuff?
OK.
I’m a democrat.
Lifelong.
BUT FUCK YOU OBAMA!
Don’t tell me what to do.
I’ll go another year without health insurance.
I want my good Blue Cross Blue Shield Back.
Make my job give me the hours back for insurance.
People close to me say I need to see a therapist.
After A.A. and an almost check in at rehab.
Maybe I do need anti-depressants.
This is a rant with no one I know reading this.
Its liberating.
I welcome ProseBox into my life.
