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Le Sigh
I’m jonesin’ for some pot. Ran out earlier this week and my guy is between supplies. Seriously smoking the resin out of my pipe. Poor man’s high. Tastes like crap. And now for something compl...
All Week
I’ll doze off a little after 9 AM and wake up a few hours later only to remain awake till like 6 or 7. I’m not getting full uninterrupted sleep. This sucks. Also the plant manager and all his t...
Happy Birthday To Me!!!
37th in fact. Peacock and I ended up making out in the parking lot before her shift yesterday morning. I’m counting that as a gift. She also left me a three page letter thanking me for our frie...
Tattoo Pics Last Entry
Today is one week sober. Wow…
Interesting Turn Of Events
Met up with Peacock for breakfast. After she ended up coming over and we cuddled a bit. Turns out her husband told her he cheated on her. Nothing happened between us. Just her curled up with ...
12:06 AM
Last night went by smooth. Hugs n pats on the back. Gave Peacock a huge bear hug. Said she was worried sick. Less than six hours to go tonight and I’m excited. Not for getting off but my ans...
This Will Be Interesting
I return back to work tonight. Pretty sure EVERYONE knows why I was out at this point. Wish me luck.
Well Then
I ended up going to the main hospital to check myself into the psych ward for a few days to dry out. Not sure what pill that doctor gave me but my shakes stopped within an hour. Explained to se...
Slept All Day. Update
I’m gonna check into an in-patient rehab this morning. WTF? The only in patient detox is Bradford and the reviews are horror stories of theiving heroin addicts and a burnt out staff. I did a phon...
Retail Therapy And A Full Belly
My boss is mad at me for not following protocol on something Friday morning. Literally took a picture of it and texted me a few hours after my shift. I’ve been on edge lately and I fell apart a...
Shake, Rattle And Roll
I had a panic attack last night at work. It’s been ten years since I’ve felt that overwhelming fear and anxiety. My chest felt tight, hard to breathe, sweat pouring off me in buckets. I hugged...
Worky Work
Running PEEK still. Gave myself a headache yesterday spending most of the shift under the Mantis fine tuning parts. Forgot to set my alarm today and woke up to S3 calling me fifteen minutes in...
I Shouldn't Laugh...
Woke up to a text telling me Doc Boy got fired today. About. FUCKING. Time. He was so toxic everyone was walking on eggshells to appease him. Good riddance!
Drama Intensifies
Doc Boy and Sarge are at it again. Apparently while Sarge was grinding a relief on a tool Doc Boy was standing near him (staring no less, fucking creepy) and made some comment about the carbide d...
Ugh-ness
I feel sticky tonight. There is a thin layer of sweat all over me and I’m burning up. Might go stand outside for a minute to cool off. It does get warm in here. Peacock texted me around 9:30 te...
Perfect Description From Leadbelly
Baby Steps: Update
Bank opens in forty minutes. Will get some cash out of savings and go across the street to get my pills at the pharmacy. Peacock said she wants photographic evidence I got them filled. Februar...
Sigh
I’m not depressed. I’m just overwhelmingly sad today. I want to curl into the fetal position and cry. I really need to get my pills filled. It’s been a few weeks and I can tell the differenc...
Barry Morgan Should Do A Benefit Concert
I love you 🇦🇺! Perseverance! And between sets he can fuck with the bands trying to sell them an organ. In fact have him jam with the bands.
Well Shit
Boss never made the schedule yesterday so I texted him asking if we work tonight. Yup. Damnit. I had court this morning for bankruptcy. Mostly answering a few questions about my assets and if I...
Jan. 13th, 2020
I’m feeling a bit sick to my stomach right now. General nausea/queasy. Work wasn’t bad but I felt exhausted all night. When I got home I ate some teriyaki chicken and rice then took a shower....
Cover Me In Pancake Syrup
Had a sex dream while napping and have been ridiculously horny since I woke up. That is all…
Perpetual Pain
Last few nights at work I’ve not really had much time to sit and chill like I normally do. Ergo been on my feet running around which has caused my back to ache some. I hate it tons because it i...
Turn Of Events
Boss texted me this morning letting me know I have paperwork to fill out on his desk. Next week I’ll no longer be a temp but hired on full time. Huzzah!
Livid
I’m not feeling it tonight. Would love to go home and back to sleep. Saw the lawyer, watched to body cam footage, got bitched at for admitting guilt on camera. Sigh. A week or so ago Sarge (cow...
Book Description
I came on my own volition.
I am the man that got away.
Work -
Tonight I clocked in at 4:30 PM and it was suddenly Wednesday when I worked 6:45 AM to 6 PM with only an hour lunch break and on my feet the rest. I was trying to relieve Logan in the back who was frying chicken both for our loose case and boxed hot case so he could go to lunch. Instead I got mixed with a redneck who wanted a Philly steak and cheese. I made his sandwich to order only to be confronted with the elderly gentleman behind him. He, to this shit. o, wanted a Philly. I was annoyed. Angry. Granted chicken side cooking sucks At least you’re away from the customers. I can, “pretend”, like I’m cooking chicken in the back but dick around for ten minutes, which actually rarely happens. You learn to smile and accept this shit. Made him his sandwich, didn’t stop to ask the next customer if he needed help. Instead, went straight to the back and told Logan to take his lunch, I was taking over, box up what just came up out the fryer and we’re good.
It was just one of those days. People wonder why I get stoned before work.
I.
Am.
Robot.
Tell.
Me.
What.
Is.
Next.
I’m versatile.
Put me in any situation and I come victorious.
Even on the bad days.
So when I go the hardcore bitch mode of my assistant manager on Wednesday after my eleventh hour there. I got irate.
I know she does a job for two.
Her boss/my boss sucks ass.
But fuck....I’m part time.
If you want to bitch and yell about the shit that the full timers didn’t do…bitch to them.
DON’T MAKE ME DO THEIR FUCKING SHIT THE LAST HOUR I’M THERE!
I’ve been working for this slave camp for three and a half years.
I lost my insurance last year due to me being stupid and the store manager catching on. Which is actually a big blessing. I haven’t missed a day in a year.
But I’ve been there for every shift.
Sleep, no sleep?
Fuck it.
Show up for work.
The computer takes over on schedule and now I don’t qualify for our good insurance.
I have to take the government stuff?
OK.
I’m a democrat.
Lifelong.
BUT FUCK YOU OBAMA!
Don’t tell me what to do.
I’ll go another year without health insurance.
I want my good Blue Cross Blue Shield Back.
Make my job give me the hours back for insurance.
People close to me say I need to see a therapist.
After A.A. and an almost check in at rehab.
Maybe I do need anti-depressants.
This is a rant with no one I know reading this.
Its liberating.
I welcome ProseBox into my life.
