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I, Dumbass
The craving hit hard and didn’t let go. Ended up at a liquor store looking for Vat 69. They didn’t have it, everything inside me was screaming to just leave yet I bought something anyway. It w...
12:25 AM
Gah! My arm feels like Bruce Lee punched me. Dull, burning ache. Ended up grilling tonight instead of last night. Mom got take out yesterday. Did some banking today and got the car washed. ...
Can't Sleep. (Update)
I don’t feel good. My arm where I got the shot hurts and my gut is giving me diarrhea. Managed to doze off after midnight but woke up a little while ago and can’t get comfy. Oh well, back to the...
Larry's Hair Was On Fire
Law & Order in the background. Crashed hard around three something AM after work. Got up around ten, went and got Vaxxed (finally), picked up two bone in ribeyes for dinner, grabbed a quick ...
Da Shakez
My hands have a tremble. Got doc’s orders (and some benzo’s) to take off work to dry out out. Told work I was withdrawing bad and HR gave me a name of a church based (ugh) rehab that members of d...
😞
I don’t like being alone like this. 2:27 AM I didn’t go to work today. Been in a funk and trying to smile through it but here I am, alone with my thoughts. The job is a mess. I’m drinking way ...
Sleep Sunday
I got up at six this morning to take mom and my aunt to the airport. Alas my cousin said she would so I went back to sleep. Been resting all day. Tis nice. The only responsibilities I have the...
Stag Party
Green Acres is on. Think…know I ate too much. Feel miserable. Chelsea quit. When she didn’t come in Wednesday I had a hunch. The Assembly Guy has his very moody/angry moments. I don’t like ...
Two Nights Down, Two More To Go
The air conditioner is working again. I turned it on after I wrote last night and it was working. Even still had the repair guy come out and look. Nothing wrong…weird. The newbie in assembly m...
Fudge This Crap!
The air conditioner is on the fritz. It is hot in this damn house. Mom made spinach, corn and killer fried chicken thighs for dinner, so that was a welcome joy. Sneaking feeling I’m not gonna...
Spittin' Fire
Woke up with heartburn. Ugh. Currently washing my work shirts and cargo shorts. Shoulda did this last night but I was being lazy. This coming Sunday I drive mom and my aunt to the airport. They...
Chillin'
Friday night I grilled chicken and veggies. (Protip: skewer and grill cherry tomatoes. You’ll thank me later.) Saturday night I made the soft taco bake from a kit. Sooo good. Tonight I was lazy...
A Comparison : Road To Nowhere
Yes No one comments on my video entries. I’ll post lyrics instead. I’m an English…whateves. I get puns in rock lyrics. I digress Ozzy Osbourne had Road To No Where and in my twenties I worshipp...
In Hell I'll Be In Good Company
Dead love Couldn’t go no further Proud of And disgusted by her Push, shove A little bruised and battered Oh lord, I ain’t comin’ home with you My life’s a bit more colder Dead wife is what I tol...
Minor Accomplishment
Seven days sober. I’m taking the rest of the week off from work due to my foot aching after two days of standing. Oh well. The weekend of solitude I fear.
1:03 AM
Hm. I’ve officially have been sober all weekend. Haven’t done that in a few months. Little steps. Currently munching on late night milk and Oreo’s. Join me?
Ribs? Updated!
Aphrodisiac or sleep aid? Went back to the clinic when they opened and the NP gave me prednisone 10mg. It has done wonders and I can walk again. Met up with Peacock for an adventure in the aft...
🤷 Gave Up Tonight 🤷
I’ve got the habit of wiping off the material to load the vise in the machine. You usually don’t want any debris that can make it pop up or stick out a little. First shift didn’t do it. Also, ...
Delta Variant World Tour
Get the fucking vaccine. Wear a fucking mask. Don’t be fucking selfish. We’re just asking that you give a damn, it’s not too much to ask.
Freeman Strut
Court was at one PM today. My amazing lawyer was able to get the charges dismissed. Still had to pay almost $400 in court costs. I actually thought about doing the Joker dance out of the court...
Sir Digby Chicken Caeser
A friend introduced me to That Mitchell And Webb Look a while back. I can’t help but crack up during these skits.
I Ain't Never Gonna Let You In
Been playing God of War, listening to music. Going through the motions rather. Two things at once while a third, reflecting, has brought me here. Came to face a harsh reality on a few things I ...
Where Is My Mind?
Don’t exactly know if I slept today. Called the boss around eleven AM to let him know insomnia took hold of me and I wouldn’t be making it in for OT day. Mom called out due to pain. Ended up ...
3:30 AM
I need to lotion up, my skin is dry. My back has been hurting throughout the day and I don’t know why. Working tomorrow to make up for Monday ‘cause I ate up my sick leave. Bah! It won’t be so...
5:10 AM
Spent the rest of the day relaxing, taking my BP meds and slept a few good hours. Around 10:30 ish I started a book and just about five minutes ago finished said book. Roughly six to seven hour...
Book Description
I came on my own volition.
I am the man that got away.
Work -
Tonight I clocked in at 4:30 PM and it was suddenly Wednesday when I worked 6:45 AM to 6 PM with only an hour lunch break and on my feet the rest. I was trying to relieve Logan in the back who was frying chicken both for our loose case and boxed hot case so he could go to lunch. Instead I got mixed with a redneck who wanted a Philly steak and cheese. I made his sandwich to order only to be confronted with the elderly gentleman behind him. He, to this shit. o, wanted a Philly. I was annoyed. Angry. Granted chicken side cooking sucks At least you’re away from the customers. I can, “pretend”, like I’m cooking chicken in the back but dick around for ten minutes, which actually rarely happens. You learn to smile and accept this shit. Made him his sandwich, didn’t stop to ask the next customer if he needed help. Instead, went straight to the back and told Logan to take his lunch, I was taking over, box up what just came up out the fryer and we’re good.
It was just one of those days. People wonder why I get stoned before work.
I.
Am.
Robot.
Tell.
Me.
What.
Is.
Next.
I’m versatile.
Put me in any situation and I come victorious.
Even on the bad days.
So when I go the hardcore bitch mode of my assistant manager on Wednesday after my eleventh hour there. I got irate.
I know she does a job for two.
Her boss/my boss sucks ass.
But fuck....I’m part time.
If you want to bitch and yell about the shit that the full timers didn’t do…bitch to them.
DON’T MAKE ME DO THEIR FUCKING SHIT THE LAST HOUR I’M THERE!
I’ve been working for this slave camp for three and a half years.
I lost my insurance last year due to me being stupid and the store manager catching on. Which is actually a big blessing. I haven’t missed a day in a year.
But I’ve been there for every shift.
Sleep, no sleep?
Fuck it.
Show up for work.
The computer takes over on schedule and now I don’t qualify for our good insurance.
I have to take the government stuff?
OK.
I’m a democrat.
Lifelong.
BUT FUCK YOU OBAMA!
Don’t tell me what to do.
I’ll go another year without health insurance.
I want my good Blue Cross Blue Shield Back.
Make my job give me the hours back for insurance.
People close to me say I need to see a therapist.
After A.A. and an almost check in at rehab.
Maybe I do need anti-depressants.
This is a rant with no one I know reading this.
Its liberating.
I welcome ProseBox into my life.
