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Working My Nerve in Current Events
If my heart could beat it would break my chest. The physical symptoms of anxiety have been made manifest. There is a tightness in my chest. Physical pain is easy. I am lucky that this anxiety ha...
Tossing And Tortured 'Till Dawn in Current Events
Tomorrow is the big day. I start my new job. Last night I dreamt about it. I did not sleep well. I have not been sleeping well. I’m not entertaining any negative thoughts. I am in my Pisces era,...
Wellness Check in Current Events
You’ll never guess what I’m going to complain about. My inability to take action. I have nothing pressing to do. I should rejoice! Instead, I feel guilt and shame because I have ADHD paralysis...
Heartbreaker in Current Events
It was the face crack of the century, at work. When everybody learned that I was leaving. They really do love me there. My supervisor is looking forward to being rid of me. Or so I think. At yes...
5Gs: Good God Get A Grip Girl in Current Events
I am kidding myself. I am not in control. My ADHD is. I am going to give myself some grace but it is still frustrating when I can’t will myself to do something that is seamlessly simple to a neu...
On The Right Track in Current Events
I woke up beside myself. I’m excited about all the opportunities that open up with this new job. It’s a lot of money to me. Even if it was just minimum wage, it is full-time. I have not had that...
Sorted in Current Events
Today I got the call. They officially hired me. It is full-time and I start on Monday. They are emailing me my offer letter. I just need to send them the receipts from the background checks. I w...
Glacial Pace in Current Events
They take a minute. Alex told me multiple times while explaining how the hiring process moves at a glacial pace. They asked me for more references yesterday and today I delivered. Coincidentally...
Hat In The Race in Current Events
HR finally got back to me. I’m still confused about their hiring process but at least I know they are still interested. They want me to provide more references. Done! I know who to ask. I’ll hav...
The Truth Isn't Bitter, It Is Unsweetened in Current Events
I had one of the worst sleeps of my life. My mind interpreted every bump in the night as a life-threatening threat. My crackwhore neighbor does not sleep. Every noise she made woke me up and kep...
Wellness Update in Current Events
My mood disorders are still missing in action. My triggers are not. My situations are not. Today I have to admit to myself that my habits are not. I still do anxiety and depressed things. Hung...
Blank Slate in Current Events
My dream woke me up. Just in time because it was awful. In the scene, the theme was public nudity. I couldn’t bring myself to do it, just like in real life. I arranged to change in a separate ro...
Got To Act My Wage in Current Events
About $120 later I finally submitted my request forms for a Criminal Record check, an Adult/Child Abuse Registry Check, and a Driver Abstract. This better be worth it. I’m not letting this sink ...
The More You Know in Current Events
I developed heightened sensitivities to a lot of the things that I’ve quit over the years. I quit dairy and now it burns ulcers in my mouth if anything I eat comes into contact with it. I quit w...
Untwisted in Current Events
Tongue-tied, brain-tied, heart-tied, maybe even tubes-tied. That’s the vibe. Sigh of relief is what I felt yesterday. There was no real sigh but I felt a huge shift—a calmness set throughout my ...
Onboarded in Current Events
It’s not on paper but I am hired. I thought I was having an interview with the programs coordinator but it was an orientation. Just the two of us. It was not communicated to me that it was an ori...
Follow-up in Current Events
I got a follow-up email from that non-profit. The HR thinks I would be a better fit for a different program. I am going to meet with that coordinator tomorrow. I can’t find the program on their w...
So Close Yet So Far in Current Events
I got to lead a reset today. It fell in my lap but I know I did great. This is exactly what I like to do. I was given Connie and Helen. This is a heavy week for my team and my supervisor couldn’t...
Stress Test in Current Events
My anxiety wants fuel. This week will be a stress test. I can tell. Though I can remind myself that they’re just thoughts, the situations are still real. I’m not gaslighting myself with toxic po...
Relax Max in Current Events
I need to choose peace over anger. That is the exercise I’m supposed to work on. My roommate makes this challenging. As we know. I felt ready to throw hands today. Relax, take it easy. This is he...
For Better or for Worse in Current Events
My mind dissociates from my body causing a functional freeze. This is when I will rot in my bed for most of the day. Every small task feels too overwhelming. I have not experienced this in almost...
V for Vendetta in Current Events
V is for vagina in this part of the entry. A customer at work was hiding nothing with her blue tights. They were shorts? She was spilling out of them. Long black hair with extensions, botched bot...
Meday in Current Events
I broke the ice with my roommate. I haven’t said a word to her in almost two weeks. My work bought me an individual vegan pizza, which I brought home for her as I don’t eat hybridized wheat. It f...
Villain Era? More Like Karen Era in Current Events
I am frustrated with the dealership I purchased my car from. I made a $500 deposit to secure the vehicle. It is supposed to be deposited back but no action has been taken yet. I did reach out to ...
Coming Soon: Villain Era in Current Events
Today was long and full of terrors. My night was as well. I dreamt about Gods and monsters. Candace Owens was there too. I don’t know what the dream was about but I kept waking up terrified. This...
