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August 31, 2020

Le Angst in Current Events

I figured out what my angst is. I feel like I’m 14 and just mad at the world because I have outgrown people telling me what to say, what to think, what to feel and what to do with my life. I don’...


August 30, 2020

Not so Silent in Current Events

I don’t know why it hits differently that my own mother is trying to get me to be silent. After decades of trying to be the quietest voice in the room… I know that she doesn’t like my politics, n...


August 29, 2020

Angst in Current Events

I was stuck in a mood swing for the last three days. Today I suspect it will continue. This angst is probably not strictly withdrawal from my meds. However, my anxiety is making a comeback. Obses...


Just as predicted Jenson rejected this data about black on black crime. He challenged his friendslist to change his mind about black on black crime being a myth so I sent him: This Link Right Her...


August 28, 2020

Hate Cake Recipe in Current Events

Hate Cake Recipe: 5 cups of any facts 3 tsp of opinions Moral ultimatum to taste. Personally, I go for the you’re evil if you don’t agree with me. Combine all ingredients. Place in the public, b...


To follow up on my previous entry, Here Is A Link to a study that shows how people who signal victimhood and virtue are displaying Dark Triad Traits. Long story short, some people suck at life a...


August 26, 2020

Elevate in Current Events

It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society. - Jiddu Krishnamurti I was a little unhinged yesterday. I lashed out all over my socials. Another man was shot resist...


August 25, 2020

Still I Fly in Current Events

I managed to cry a little bit today. I’m not the emotional incontinent guy that I used to be but I was thinking about how when these BLM riots end there will be no jobs for those communities to g...


August 22, 2020

Triggered in Current Events

I spent the day with Brucey yesterday. We went to a few different towns to walk along the beaches during this heatwave. Those towns were so much bigger to me when I was a child. It was spontaneou...


August 19, 2020

The Real Journey in Current Events

I am baffled by how much doesn’t exist in the real world. How much in my life isn’t real. I don’t mean that the world is featureless and blank. It’s a system of concepts in which we describe thin...


Does overthinking burn calories? My thoughts exhaust me. They wear me down. I count my blessings that my thoughts are not noxious. I am not weighed down by depressive thoughts nor am I frantic wi...


August 18, 2020

Mood Poisoning in Current Events

First world problems are giving me mood poisoning today. My PC google browser is identifying as a mobile device whenever I try to go on YouTube. My PC speakers are crackling and my headphones sto...


August 17, 2020

Random Ambition in Current Events

I am 34, I’m unemployed and I live in my sister’s basement and I’m living off of CERB. Some people call this rock bottom, some call it room for opportunity and I call it finally being boyfriend m...


August 16, 2020

Pray For Australia? in Current Events

My niece returned from a weekend camping trip with my mother. I am excited that my mother gets to take her grandkids camping. Taking us camping was her favourite thing ever and now she gets to do...


August 14, 2020

Inner Engineering in Current Events

I think what a lot of people are failing to understand about themselves is their power. The agency that they have in their lives. They don’t have a good concept of responsibility. Personal respon...


[Rant Warning: I’ve hit my breaking point with this pandemic] I just heard an interesting take on this pandemic. I only find it interesting because I have explored my shadow and I know what’s the...


August 13, 2020

Intervention in Current Events

I need an intervention. Ben Shapiro read some of the lyrics to Cardi B’s new song WAP and listening to him talking dirty did something to me that it shouldn’t. I need Jesus. I need God. I need to...


August 11, 2020

Body Talks in Current Events

I feel compelled to write but I don’t have anything to say really. Okay, I do but it’s dumb and weird. Yesterday when I took my niece to a provincial park I caught myself checking out other guys....


August 09, 2020

Self-Love? in Current Events

I left my mother’s today feeling pretty flustered. If anyone is going to manage to get under my skin it is going to be my mother. I’m not mad about it. I just have to process our interaction toda...


August 08, 2020

To The Left in Current Events

There was a mini intervention moment today about my politics from my family. We hosted my niece’s fifth birthday so we had a decent-sized gathering to celebrate. I tried to refrain from bringing ...


August 07, 2020

Debatable in Current Events

I’m feeling a little sensitive today, emotionally speaking. My pharmacist has yet to get a hold of my doctor’s office. Something I am also struggling with. I’m thinking about just giving up and q...


Yet again I’m waiting for my doctors office to fax over my refill to my pharmacist. I don’t know if it is COVID related but this has never taken this long. I’m bad for cutting it close between re...


August 03, 2020

Shallow End in Current Events

Getting ahold of my doctor is proving to be a challenge. I am not enjoying the feeling of being hungover in the mornings from my medication. I don’t think it was a mistake trying thing his way an...


August 01, 2020

Derp a derp derp in Current Events

[Mild Spoiler Warning] My roommates spontaneously left town for the day. They spent the night in Anola. It was a pleasant surprise. I enjoyed having some time and space to myself. I didn’t do any...


July 31, 2020

Pressure in Current Events

I had to carry the weight of my depression around with me for most of the day yesterday. I felt heartbroken without any context. That’s just the way depression goes I guess. I didn’t let it make ...


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