Manorexic (he/then) ⋅ 40 ⋅
Manorexia - I have a dating disorder
A comfort zone is a beautiful place but nothing ever grows there
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Miss Behave in Current Events
I didn’t rise clean. I rose mean. I’ll just update on my health. The inflammation has gone down so much. My waist looks snatched most days. I got colour to me, people think I have been tanning....
Haunted in Current Events
It dawned on me what that guy from the gym represents. Somewhere in my psyche, he reminds me of Roarke. It’s so embarrassing, really. I’m neutral with everyone else I see in that change room. ...
First Degree in Current Events
Be careful what you wish for I always manifest things in a way that blows up in my face. I need a break from the gym, I’m addicted. I keep saying to myself. What is it going to take? A little b...
Wendigocon in Current Events
I witnessed a Wendigo (backwards people) ceremony last night. One of the programs at my organization hosted its annual healing conference yesterday. I volunteered our youth programs for the ch...
No Participation Prize Either in Current Events
There are no trophies It wasn’t a profound statement, but I felt some of the pressure release. As a 50-year-old woman, let me just say one piece of wisdom that I’ve learned. There are no trophi...
Veganniversary in Current Events
Dear Diary: 10 years ago, I went plant-based. It feels like a lifetime ago. It’s the end of an era, however. I introduced Bison into my diet today. That’s it. That’s my diary post.
Undercurrent in Current Events
Something has shifted in the moon brother I heard someone say that the highest form of intelligence is metacognition. My metacognition is pretty strong, but I think of it more as a multiplier. ...
Reflect in Current Events
I’m putting the fun in executive dysfunction. They compare ADHD executive dysfunction (task paralysis) to someone trying to put their hand on a hot plate. The brain senses danger, so it hesitat...
Step by Step in Current Events
He hurt my feelings. I stopped dreaming What my doctor did was not neutral or harmless. He didn’t diagnose me; he was out of line. I’m only human, so it hurt. I am trying to hold space for it s...
Rude Awakening in Current Events
You’re on a twenty year olds journey. My family doctor prescribed me an existential crisis. When I told him what my plans were with school, he explained to me that I’m forty and that the path I...
Silver Linnings in Current Events
Prosebox is the space I go to for venting. I suppose it is a positive thing that I have not been posting so much. I got to look at everything from a safe space over my winter break. My relatio...
Re-enchantment in Current Events
Learning that I had ADHD removed the illusion of control by accident. Before Diagnosis: Every micro-interest felt like a portal. I followed impulses and discovered self. Cycles of hyperfocus fe...
Natty Fatty in Current Events
For the first time in my life, I was told to lose weight. Ok, I could lose some fat. I switched gyms. I go to a wellness centre, and it offers one free health assessment a year. I have nothing...
Good Grief in Current Events
I need to air out my grievances The Youth Mental Health Worker who was hired is working hard to change my program. We share funders, and they are sending her referrals that are all girls. Same ...
Reboot in Current Events
External structure, clear expectations, social accountability, and defined beginning/end. This is what my anchors are made of. ADHD struggles with undefined time, open hours, no consequences, no...
OBCD in Current Events
I feel like I am going through a growth spurt at 40! I’m clumsy, and I don’t know my own strength. I keep breaking things and getting hurt. I had to buy a new coat because I grew out of my last ...
Tick Toc in Current Events
Did I miss self-reflection season? I haven’t written all year. Hell must have frozen over. My city did, at least. My holiday is finally over. It was two weeks of ADHD wait mode, I concluded. I ...
Gym Rat in Current Events
I feel like I’m just crawling out of my grave. Last week, I was bedridden from inflammation. The gut is one thing, but when it hits my brain, I turn into lead. Once I stop moving, I feel unable ...
RXN in Current Events
What happens to a vegan when they eat cheese? I didn’t really know either. I already have a hypersensitive gut. I haven’t had dairy in 9 years. Next year is my 10-year veganniversary. I don’t ca...
Animal in Current Events
They compare ADHD executive dysfunction to putting your hand on a hotplate. Your brain will hesitate as it senses danger. It’s more like jumping out of a plane to skydive. The more you hesitate,...
Perhaps, Perhaps, Perhaps in Current Events
Yeah, it’s Christmas, but my brother just told me that he is buying a house in the fall and is going to make sure there is room for me because he wants me to move there. He wants family there, a...
Cut in Current Events
I hurt myself today to see if I still feel. Sorry for the dramatic opening line, but it fits. I am overwhelmed by all the free time that I have during my two-week holiday. I have ADHD, so if ...
Sleeping At Last in Current Events
My coordinator gave me a hug before we left work yesterday. Well, it’s been a year. He said to me. We start our holidays. I felt melancholy after that, on my drive through a storm to my friend’s...
Check In in Current Events
I don’t know what to say, butI feel like I need to check in. First things first, I’ll give an update on my mother. She’s fine. Doctors couldn’t find anything wrong with her. Must have been anxi...
All Damn Time in Current Events
Once upon a time, my mother waited a whole long weekend to tell us that she got in a bad car accident because she didn’t want to ruin our weekend. I was so pissed. Today, she didn’t plan on tel...
