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Mom! / Biodynamic Urban Farmer / Naturopathic Doctor / Anthroposophist / Mystic / Avid Reader / Writer Extraordinaire / In Pursuit of Moral, Physical, and Intellectual Excellence.
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That light shines brightest in the darkest hour. If the year were a day, that hour is now; Scorpio’s transparent moon, or as most call it, the new moon. Scorpio of course, being the sign of t...
There is a certain amount of balance in the world, if we are perceptive enough to notice it. My shame, or, being one who is aware of feelings of shame, allows me to perceive the absolute belong...
The Consciousness Aperture in Meditations
If BioGeometry has taught me anything, it is the absolute fallacy of the belief that we can be objective, or limited to physically perceptible phenomena. The first time I swung a pendulum, and...
Something beautifully strange in Meditations
About the sky tonight After I finished doing a clearing of myself, and then the 3-mile radius map image of the area surrounded our home, as I often do, I sensed and felt surreal things. When ...
I was fighting, screaming, in A Childhood Lost
clawing to stay in my shell. I was dragged out. Humiliated. Shamed. Beaten. I crawled back in. Over and over. Now, it seems, the only way I expect love to come to me is through being dragg...
Kids flying kites in Journal
And other things I feel exhaustion. Weariness. I remember coach K responding to my question about fear of my father. “How do you know?” He asked me. How, indeed. I wish that I didn’t know....
Our new little man Mister Floof gets his procedure today. We never vaccinate, and try to get into the natural vet, but they are booked for 6 months. Would appreciate any prayers that the vet do...
Something came to me, in Journal
As they do; in the silence. I have wondered about the difficult times. The times where I felt scared, angry, helpless and just wanted it to stop. I just wanted people to stop demanding that I ...
Life in pictures in Journal
Is Beautiful I can’t describe how breathtaking life has become. It is very mentally contradictory. I have t done much. I don’t deserve it. And yet, it is. P.S. I wonder if anyone can ...
It’s difficult to describe just how perfect life has become. My friends are simply amazing. I have never felt more love and warmth in connection with my friends and family as I do, right now. ...
I feel like I just learned something in Journal
I spent the day playing with my buns - and chatting with a friend on the phone. Here are the buns with their wool harvested in the bag beside them Hazel Pistachio I chatted with my friend f...
SQUARE // Four Corners in Journal
The Square is a super effective polarity clearing tool. I just learned it. It utilizes fear and desire; the fundamental “moving towards” and “moving away” energies. To Start, pick an issue or...
Living Among the Dead in Meditations
Interestingly, the word “plastic” came out without any thought, a couple of times. I wondered why? Plastic is dead. It’s hard and unyielding until melted, and then formed into something enti...
We don’t celebrate Halloween We Do celebrate all saints/all souls day. We just carved jack-o’-lanterns and turnip lanterns. Omg they are cute. No, we’re not religious. I just don’t like the...
A moment of Insight in Journal
I felt distress.. isolation… abandonment. I felt frustrated and irritated that my problem seemed to be dismissed and those who were supposed to help were wishing I’d just go away and die alread...
Lucid Dreaming to Meditation in Dreams
I never felt much difference between dreaming and meditation. I’ve had the same experiences in both, or either. Today, though, was the first time that I went consciously from lucid dreaming, t...
How Could I Even in Journal
Begin? Well. I could begin with my newfound GUSHING EXCITEMENT that I have committed - yes, committed - to becoming impeccable I feel like this is one of those things that if you know, you kn...
Jump and the Net will Appear in Meditations
And other lessons Such a long time has gone by since I took a no-holds-back dive into obsessive avoidance patterns. Whew! Was that a ride. I woke to meditate and gain increasing clarity the...
Change Is Two Way in Journal
Oh how I love the honeymoon phase. I don’t remember who coined this phase of change, but it is always best when change is confirmed and, the energy for the next cycle is steadily accumulating. ...
Open, Heart in Journal
My realization yesterday flows into today That when I was small, I became angry. I became angry because I perceived others taking great pleasure in my torment. It was my decision to shut out aw...
Resistance! in Journal
AAAAARRRRRHHHHHGGGGGG I’ve been doing too much! Making boundaries, creating hurdles, armor, obstacles! I want to CONTROL the situation instead of let it FLOW and create harmony through current....
I feel my heart has been gentled right open and everything is allowed in, and out, and it’s just A LOT. It’s a lot but, there is no tension. No strain. No boundaries. My only security is the...
My energy is off the charts. I’m in my feeling body almost all the time. Not that mind and thought doesn’t rear up and take over, but, it’s increasingly obvious, discordant, and easily moved thr...
My Cosmic Tower(s) in Journal
I woke after in Journal
An odd dream in which I was floating on something over the world, which was spread out before me like an intricately designed look-and-feel exhibit. It was so small, and I floated above it as i...
