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Mom! / Biodynamic Urban Farmer / Naturopathic Doctor / Anthroposophist / Mystic / Avid Reader / Writer Extraordinaire / In Pursuit of Moral, Physical, and Intellectual Excellence.
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Healing Heretic in Journal
That should be my handle. I might claim that actually. It’s pretty good. Do I did this healing questions app today. It was really good. Nothing I hadn’t uncovered, before, except for that last...
This Taurus New Moon in Journal
I feel this peace and well being deepening. I feel so much joy, both in awareness of the everyday mundane and also in the feelings of confronting fears and anxiety. Like it has become something ...
Inversion in What Wants to Move Through Me Today?
It occurred to me, today, that “there is nothing new under the sun” is an inversion. It’s a lamentation- I think, anyways- that no-thing is unique, everything has been done already, every possi...
And yet not. Ecstatic. But a little more grounded. Right after I wrote about my woes of embodiment, I feel so here that it’s almost surreal. It’s the level of surrealism I felt during the fi...
LMFAO in What Wants to Move Through Me Today?
I just walked the property line with my tuning forks after digging 5 holes and filling them with biochar and crystals. The LOOK my neighbors gave me. I’m still dying 🤣
I'm Working on It in What Wants to Move Through Me Today?
Every time I become more embodied, I see shit. Instantly. Stuff that is impossible, that shouldn’t be there. That isn’t there, physically, but it is there. And, it freaks me out. On a fundamen...
I dreamt-and I wasn’t exactly “in” the dream, but it seems that I was witnessing it-that all the salt in the world had been stripped away from the lands. Not just salt, as in Sodium Chloride, bu...
Feminine in Meditations
There’s something coming through Which has to do with the beauty of the Mother She is all accepting; no “crime”, nor “sin”, exists for her. She is the Nothing At All which contains the Anyt...
Elementals Gathering in Journal
This weekend has been a whirlwind of insight, learning, and joy. I feel SO HAPPY. The people at the Elementals Gathering were phenomenal. Just top notch. Everyone. No exceptions. We came a...
Undefined. in Journal
Means defined by everyone else who IS defined. That’s what the Human Design people say, at least. I’ve been mulling this over. The more I do, the more it makes sense. I have been told that ...
One Thing After in Journal
Another. Mom’s thing is figured out. All good on that front. Then another family member reaches out. Inexplicably. I think the last time I got anything from her was in 2021. Sheesh! The timing...
Petty Neighbors in Journal
We live in a small town. Technically it is a city, and it’s the biggest population center in our county. Lol. But it’s a small town. We have stoplights and nice restaurants and a Wal-Mart. But...
Native to When in Essays
I have been gardening and farming for over a decade, now. Biodynamics, Permaculture, Regenerative Agriculture, Agroforestry, Nutrient Cycling, etc have all been part of my research and ethos lon...
Mother, Dear in Dreams
I had a dream about my mother. She was in her usual insistent way pressing me to listen to her- The oft repeated and now iron clad habitual launch into every one of her toxic vomit sessions; “M...
One coat of lime plaster; After one coat of limewash; The quarter wall; The quarter wall is almost done. It’s a smaller wall but it’s proving to be a bigger pain because it’s just a couple f...
Self Worth in Meditations
is such a mindfuck. This new revelation that I had in relation to my dad has given me another great insight. That I can have an objective (to me) value. That my value is not dictated moment-by...
I was in the passenger seat of a truck. The driver had parked and got out to do something. I looked outside through the partially open window-a crank window. There was a little campfire about th...
I’ve noticed that people are busy. Like, they plan things around other things. All the things are plans. And stuff friendships and family in between sports, extracurriculars, programs, etc. I...
Obligation in Journal
Something I never really had any words for, spelled out in a book written before I was born. Before my husband was born. And yet… Eerily resonant. I now sort of can glimpse that wrestling angs...
Plaster and a Really Nice Day in Journal
The plaster was so much easier to mix and put on than I thought. Just a base layer. Might have to come back in a week to see how it did. Excited to see how it holds up.
A Nightmare in Dreams
For the first time in a long time, I was really quite scared, disturbed, etc. I can no longer remember the detail of the dream, which for me is quite unusual. What I remember is that I was in a...
Am I the only One? in Journal
Who really really despises AI images? With how freakish they look. I feel something indescribably horrible when I look at them. It’s like a deformed creature putting on a human suit. And not a...
Greenhouse utility in Journal
Pretty stoked the whole north wall is completely covered. Working on the quarter west wall that is behind a shed still. A little bit intimidated by lime plaster as it needs a pozzalinic additive...
Cob Greenhouse in Journal
Progress on the whole cob wall is nearing halfway. After that one is complete, I’ll start on the quarter wall that still needs to be covered. Probably won’t do any windows in that one because it...
My dreams have been deep lately. I can tell because when I wake up in the night, I’m like, damn. And I stay awake for awhile just trying to integrate what insight or wisdom came through. And I...
