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Midwest Attorney trying to navigate the waters of life

Each person feels pain in his own way, each has his own scars.

Haruki Murakami

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I am so weird about… just… so many things. I have not been productive today. I am somewhat needed to let workers into the house today so that they can (please God) get closer to being finished i...


It is Wednesday. I need to stop drinking with my wife for a while. She has been weekend drinking since she got here. I totally understand that. First, she hates this area. Second, she has be...


I wish I was inspired to write a book. Or a play. Or a screenplay. When I first told my family that I wanted to be a lawyer, they were only worried about one aspect. I had long proved that I l...


For the first time in months, my Bookmarks Tab is empty. I’ve just read/caught up on a large number of Prosbox entries from people. Sorry if I didn’t note much. I don’t think my head is in the...


Okay… I’m shyte at math and don’t know if I did this properly. But… even with Wife here, this place feels horribly lonely and isolated. Omaha (City): 130.6 square miles. Population: 409,000 ...


Things are mostly the same right now. Wife has been unpacking like mad; trying to figure out where she wants things. I’m trying to help, to assist, but I’m also trying to encourage her that she ...


Huh. So… y’know that long list of things that aren’t finished in the house? Things as small as no mailbox, no house number, cables that don’t go anywhere, no hot water, no air conditioning, no v...


Work… helping move furniture and unpack… and now so much pain in my back and legs that I can’t sleep. Not cool. WUBBA LUBBA DUB DUB


So… while I may not feel up to creativity of late… my brain is finding avenues. DREAM I was in a new town; much larger but still “Small Town” feel. For some reason, I was convinced that I could ...


Reality is our excuse to allow the best parts of ourselves to be ignored. Honestly, not trying to sound profound or deep.... I was just thinking how it is so unfortunate that I haven’t really don...


Is it Friday yet?! WHAT a… just… months. Tired. Can’t find anything in the house. Trials all day. Wife is here! Yay to that. House is more fucked up than I expected. Boo. Apparently… some o...


Fingers crossed and prayers said for Wife as she moves tomorrow. And prayers that I will get the assistance I need tomorrow from Attorney Colleagues


(1) I was able to move stuff into the perm place… hooray (2) The perm place is nowhere near being finished. There’s no water hooked up; the appliances aren’t set up; the bathrooms aren’t operabl...


Holy shot, are you fucking kidding me?! Last week, Landlord’s exact words were “Wednesday, 6 o’clock”. So, I have all of my belongings in my car or office and drove to the new place. He doesn’t...


Kind of a weird trip. No sex… which was terrible… most of the place packed… so not much to help with. Just a little cleaning and that was the whole trip. I will certainly be thrilled when this ...


Pappy passed away at 4, 4:30 this morning. Received a phone call from my mom at 7. No news on funeral or other services yet. In a way, I’m glad. He wouldn’t have wanted to hang on for months ...


Balls. Can’t sleep. Writing on phone. Must be up in 4 hours. Kind of can’t believe that it’s only Wednesday. Rargh.


Mostly a smattering of statements from my head throughout the day: Waking up in pain, desperate to go back to sleep, desperate not to go into work… it is all becoming routine. To the point whe...


Still at the Hospice. It has been a long, very unrelaxing weekend. But engaged in my family’s Death Vigil.. everything in my life seems bizarre. Married… but I see my wife so little it’s shamefu...


Here at the hospice now, writing this on my phone. 1) Pappy has a lot of people who love him. Almost nonstop visitors since he arrived. 2) At the age of 6, I saw my grandmother get terminally il...


It is 9:00. I am just now leaving the office. And… no, I wasn’t hurriedly frantically working all this time. I opened Pandora, went through all of my files, wrote down the times for (all 7) he...


I am dwelling and obsessing and blah blah blah but d’ya know what I figured out? If you talked to the people I see the most in this county… NONE of them would be able to answer such basic CK ques...


Decided to not stress the work stuff so much right about the time I started falling asleep at my desk. BTW, it is funny. I have even had lawyers familiar with the area remark how surprised they a...


He isn’t dead yet and I shouldn’t be thinking of it so much but.... man. I’ve lost people in the last decade; but the last really close death in our family was when I was an undergrad… and that w...


Yup. Grandfather is going to be driven 2 hours to a hospital on the other side of the state to undergo extensive neurosurgery. Most of my family will be there. The family that can’t be there ar...