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I have been mainlining Star Trek. Before M left we watched all of the star trek movies. Well, “all”, up until 2009 (which is where the title reference comes from. Since he left I’ve been rewatc...

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The short week was good for my brain. But I’m having a hard time not feeling generally miserable without M. On Wednesday I got a call from the optometrist that my glasses were ready! I settled o...

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I haven’t exactly been avoiding writing, more like I’ve been avoiding thinking. M left Wednesday morning, and we’ve been texting pretty steady since then. He did his test on Thursday, and “It’s d...

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Been doing some grade A Adulting lately, and feeling pretty good about things. But M leaves in 8h and I’m going to miss the shit out of him. A week ago I finally saw an optometrist. He did all ...

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Stolen. I really wanted to write jokes for most of these, but I erased them and really tried to be earnest. This is pie in the sky stuff. Fantasy self that I’d love to make a reality. Personal —...

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This is 100% for me, feel free to not pay attention to my minimalism readings. recognise benefits - as you declutter, pay attention to the good thoughts and feelings that come from it. “It’s eas...

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I spent the whole day in such a rage… by now I’m just exhausted. Which is letting the sad creep in. Somewhere in the transition intrusive thoughts joined the chat. It’s nice that I got a chance t...

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She also says it’s not a compliment, as though it’s an objective statement. She was basically saying that it’s amazing that I manage to keep perspective despite the extreme emotional response I h...

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As usual either life is humming along and I don’t think about writing, or I think about writing but haven’t figured out what to say yet. I try to write after therapy because that seems to genera...

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This week was rough. M and I took Monday off, but then there was a snow storm and it was a snow day anyway. Tuesday morning I went to PT, and during one of the circuits I felt something in my rig...

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So not a single person commented on my forum post… and I did ok not letting that eat away at me. But I also came to another realisation. There’s a good chance that the reason I’m getting a whole ...

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I came here to write about this, but then I ended up posting it elsewhere first. I’m editing it because journal context is not the same as forum context. So I’ve been working with Tina on emotio...

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Last week was decent. I took on cleaning out my sections group email, which had 2,800 unsorted emails in the inbox. Srsly. That was Monday, by Friday there was 1,700. M and I had lunch together i...

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I’m feeling really anxious. The only thing I can think of that would trigger this is the meeting M and I had with our financial planner, “Katia”. We talked for two hours about where we are financ...

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Because I’m feeling pedantic: Today, finally, after 1,957 days, I was finally promoted to Captain. It should have taken me 1,096 days. That’s 861 days late, also expressed as 2.36 years late. I ...

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Today my new boss told me my promotion ceremony will be on Monday. So I was pretty stoked and smiley this morning. Then my old boss got to work, took one look at the smile on my face and said, “O...

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My resolutions for the last few years have been basically the same. Read more, ride more, move more, knit more, be social more. While I think those are still important goals to set, and I still ...

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I have been doing this same survey since 2014, but since I jumped journals I don’t have the full archive anymore. Here’s 2022’s. What did you do in 2023 that you’d never done before? - Be the ca...

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I did it! Of course we’re “working from home” tomorrow because of freezing rain, and Friday is the first day of holidays, so my promotion is going to have to wait. That’s ok. It’s done. I am so r...

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I failed my fitness test on Thursday. I fucked up the process on the first activity, twice, and was 0.6 seconds over the allotted time. The invigilator told me to “not worry about the process”, ...

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TW: pet death Today was awful. The end. … I wish. M and I stewed until noon. I ran into work to deliver my chili for the cookoff. He cleaned. I stared at the wall. M cried, I couldn’t. The ve...

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I got my stitch out today. When I said I was doing my fitness test on Thursday she laughed and said “no you’re not”. I replied with a laugh and, “yes I am”. She then gave me tips to wrap my fing...

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I’ve written about this before. But it keeps showing up in new and unexpected ways. And hilariously I just left a comment on someone’s entry about knowing myself and not caring about what other ...

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TW: pet end of life care I don’t want to write this. I don’t want to think about the last 48h. I don’t want to think about the next week. But this is the shit that needs writing down. Friday, a...

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The last week was pretty much dominated by starting my new job and dodging M’s mood throughout the week. And then the weekend arrived and we settled into our usual, happier, pattern. Happier bein...

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