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This is a question my psychologist suggested I ponder. That was two weeks ago. I’ve thought about the task, but I keep getting stuck. Part of it is an excuse - but I want to change! But I believe...


August 20, 2023

unmasking in Each Day

I have thought a lot about unmasking in the last year. It started back in Wpg when I saw a series of “challenge” TikToks of people “unmasking”. To the untrained eye it legit just looked like some...


August 09, 2023

I have been thinking in Each Day

I feel like pieces of my insides are like a jenga set, but instead of taking order and making it chaos until it collapses, I feel like the opposite is happening. The chaos is becoming organized, ...


July 26, 2023

do better in Each Day

Well… I went to see the Barbie movie. I was originally torn about it, until the hype reached my peers, and I reconsidered the last 30 odd years of feeling bad for my Barbie loving past. I was a ...


July 25, 2023

a conversation in Each Day

After the session I texted my sister e: I wonder what it means when told by your therapist to think of a place of comfort and you think of your spouse and start to cry. And then immediately stop ...


I came here to write about my mood, my first EMDR session, and then get into birthday stuff… Instead, in trying to copy/paste a too-long excerpt I ended up somehow writing over the entire length...


July 13, 2023

exhausted in Each Day

It’s hard to keep everything front of mind, and not let this brain of mine run with the bullshit it makes up. I have been hyper emotional lately, and there’s a few good reasons for it, but instea...


July 05, 2023

therapy in Each Day

I saw Tina again. I say Tina with a hint of disrespect, but it isn’t warranted, just my own stupid bias. I really would like to call her Dr. LastName, but she’s a hyphenate and that makes me craz...


June 26, 2023

Suurrrrveeeeyyy in Each Day

I stole this from Midorinokaeru aaaages ago, it’s been sitting in my drafts for a while. Answers were updated to today. I reserve the right to delete stupid fucking questions. Life Goal: Love as...


June 21, 2023

Personality in Each Day

I’ve been feeling quite low since the thunderstorm. It feels unnatural, uninstigated. There’s been a buzzing in my core that feels like anxiety, but I have no idea what I’m feeling anxious about....


June 18, 2023

irrational in Each Day

Many years ago, 2012 I think, I had an encounter in a gravel pit with a growling Rottweiler. I screamed bloody murder for help as it advanced on me. I was barefoot, with floppy summer shoes in ha...


June 12, 2023

brain dump in Each Day

As much as I have been seeking, I have been avoiding. The fact that I don’t write with any regularity tells me this is true. I have no excuse - I need no excuse - I’ve just been over here doing l...


May 15, 2023

new meds in Each Day

So I’ve been on Guanfacine for about 2 weeks, and I think I notice some changes. First of all, I’m sleeping like the dead. I am a rare ADHDer who doesn’t have a co-morbid sleep disorder. I’ve sle...


May 02, 2023

never-ending in Each Day

My boss is a fucking gem. I swear every other interaction with him works to restore my hope for a career in this organization. Today he was talking to a coworker about their fucked up promotion/...


April 09, 2023

Thank you in Each Day

M has been discharged!!! I was not thinking it was going to happen, he had IV meds when I got there at 8. But after they kicked in he ate his breakfast unassisted, walked around the room, we had ...


April 08, 2023

comonnn discharge! in Each Day

I seriously doubt it will happen, but today was a much better day and the doc implied that M could leave tomorrow. There’s two stages that I think are confusing people in my previous entry. When...


Man, if I’d written this when I came back from lunch it’d be a completely different entry. He was so lucid! We had a pretty good conversation. We chatted with nurses and the doc. Things were look...


April 06, 2023

oh no in Each Day

I woke up to a voicemail from M. We don’t do voicemail with each other. His pained voice telling me he’s calling an ambulance. I don’t hear from him again until after noon. Mom, my sister and I ...


April 03, 2023

Home in Each Day

Friday was hectic. I was up early to finish getting ready, and out the door shortly after 7. I drove to pick up Red, and then drove to the airport. I got flagged twice at security, because of cou...


March 28, 2023

Omg duh in Each Day

I had possibly the best example of why my brain is absolutely fucking ridiculous. So growing up my dad and I went to a bunch of air shows. I loved it, the acrobatics, the noise, the size, the te...


I expected to be exhausted when I got home today. I swapped one of my days off so I got today off with Red, I work tomorrow and then I’m off for a longish weekend. Red had some pet errands to do,...


March 21, 2023

giving up by opting in in Each Day

It has already been A Week. Not all bad, but not feeling great right now. I had a session with my psych yesterday. We talked about how things have been and she actually listened. I told her abou...


March 10, 2023

people like me in Each Day

I had a counselling session Thursday. It was less than stellar. It was another instance where I’m telling a story that, to me, is clearly some part of my neuro-divergence, but she has no idea, so...


March 08, 2023

a visit with Bastet in Each Day

It has been really hard for me to write since M has been away. I’ve watched a LOT of shows that I’d been setting aside, since M and I have so many we watch together. On Sunday I met Bastet and h...


February 23, 2023

Survey stealing in Each Day

What’s something that everyone else has but not you? Weird, I read this as something that I have that no one else does, and I was like… my sister? I honestly can’t think of how to answer this. I...


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