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Daddy just understood… and I could talk about anything. Even when I was falling apart…

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and while my body is tired.... the busy inside my mind means sleep will allude me. it’s 1:33am… and i find myself wishing there was someone here for comfort.. i’m tired of being strong.

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and then the words left me. maybe they will come back… but for now here i sit in the darkness of the late night longing for what could have been with words now lost

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that even now, almost 4 years on i still miss my nanny so much. literally laying here bawling :( depression and grief suck

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I hope everyone here in pb-land has been having a great holiday season! I personally cannot wait for 2021 to be fucking done, and in the bin. I am also not trying to jinx 2022 in anyways.. but I ...

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well its almost Friday.. and well, im not in love- but The Cure had the right idea. tomorrow is Friday and that means just 2 more shifts until 2 full days off to rest and relax. the bonus of work...

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to all the moms out there: whether you have human children or animal children. I hope y’all have the best day xo

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Folks say that ones playlist says can tell a lot about a person.. the folks could be right but who knows right?? Here is my running and ever expanding play list for 2021- suggestions? leave em in...

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it’s saturday morning and i absolutely do not have to be up to go out anywhere today…normally i’d have to be up by now to help my elderly folks with errands, but when i arrived home last evening ...

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just thought to check in real quick - happy new year to all of y’all here in pb land. i hope everyone’s holidays were chill and spent with those who mean the world to you- even if it was perhaps...

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and it’s kind of nice that the weather matches my mood tbh. work was garbage today.. only good thing about it was deciding to entertain tech boii. he has really soft hands… lol got groceries ton...

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now the worst mass murder/shooting in the country. even worse than the ecole polytecnique shooting back in the day. it’s so weird that my province and now several of our small towns are known on ...

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got an email today letting me know that OD has relaunched in 2018 and i could still reclaim my old diary back- so why the heck not!? i last wrote in it in 2004, so i’m a bit excited to check out ...

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people aren’t staying home so this pandemic will clear up i never thought i’d be the one to say it, but, i miss people- i miss my work mates i dislike wholly that because of this damn pandemic i’...

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it’s very early in the morning when you come into my room… you’re skin is still slightly damp from the shower you were in a few minutes before. you gently sit next to me on the edge of the bed a...

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i’ve kept it low key in the last week and a half on all of my social media accounts, todays previous post was my first one here in that length of time. i wanted to come here before now and even ...

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not as thrilling as election night south of the boarder. but it’s a real vibe - i did my duty and made sure to vote. preliminary results look good for Team Trudeau… can’t wait to get home and wa...

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face down on the sofa, my arms are bound with tape behind my back and you’ve gagged me. i can feel your lips trailing down my spine and the sharp nips of your teeth down the same trail too. you’v...

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i fell asleep after dinner, and now i cannot sleep. i sadly have to get up at 5am also… all i want right now is slow, satisfying sex and a cuddle.

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well, i mean time of day wise- it’s not too early. but considering the shift i work tonight: it’s wayyy too early. i have been up since 9am, and i am working 8:30pm to 4:30am… i sadly didn’t even...

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Intimacy is beyond kisses and cuddles and sex. Intimacy is getting a headache and taking a nap, and waking up to your laundry folded and your partner rubbing your back. Intimacy is crying and yel...

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i like to make lists, they’re calming for me- and depending on the list type: helpful. so here is my 2019 Summer Playlist: full disclaimer; these are not all new songs and it’s a big list and def...

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went to walmart after work: had to get a case to put on my phone to keep it protected while i send my expensive one back for a warranty replacement with the manufacturer. this ones not bad but i ...

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i started writing an entry a couple days ago, but i keep saving as a draft because i’m struggling to put words together coherently. it’s sunday morning and i am on a bus to work, the sun had been...

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and like a thief… u come and in the same breath i go u leave my lying here on this cold earthen floor i haven’t the strength to pick myself up part of me doesn’t give a fuck cause even though...

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