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I think I’m jealous. I don’t know, there are sometimes I feel so angry that someone else is talking to the person I want to, i want to go to over to them and smash their head into a wall. I’m li...

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So my friend’s back from the hospital. I honestly felt zero emotion when she texted me, i think my body was just exhuasted. My mind to. I remember constantly checking to see if she’d text me back...

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So I make subliminal videos ^°^ This is something I’ve been doing since late-mid august and just never stopped. It’s fun to make them, though other people who do are like jerks and annoying. They...

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“Wow.” This is what my boyfriend said after reading this diary. I decided to allow someone in my personal life read and find out everything. I was extremely nervous, like I shaking when i sent th...

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I feel so lonely I wanna cry my eyes out.

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Its been a fight with Will. He’s told me ive ripped out his heart and shredded it. He’s dying but he won’t let me help. He seems to hate me…

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The week’s been okay so far, i guess. Compared to the past month it’s been great. I have another boyfriend, I know I know “wow surprise” I know. The relationship is good, despite me being crazy....

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sorry I had to laugh. I kinda started hardcore hallucinating but it’s fine. Its fine so fucking fine.

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Im freezing becuase no panties and my coats shit. Rip

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We’ve been friends for so long, and you went threw so much pain. I feel so horrible for all the things I now know and the way i treated you. I feel like my anger towards you had been so childish....

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This new sub we got is a annoying. She’s one of those old woman who get angered easily and kinda snappy with you. It doesn’t help the freshman in my class are assholes and disobey her every chanc...

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Everything in my body is telling me I have to do this, but also it’s telling me that what I’m doing is wrong. I don’t like manipulating others, I don’t like hurting others. But sometimes you hav...

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The delusions have come back. Welp…

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So, my boyfriend and I have fixed everything! I’m so happy, you cannot believe the stress it took off of my already heavy shoulders. There’s some more things though ahhh imma blush. Now I call hi...

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I really am at this point (⌐■-■)

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I never really talked about him or how we met here, so i guess i should. I met him when i was twelve and he was thirteen tho i thought he was like twenty something at the time and he liked to por...

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I’m avoiding him right now, idk. He texted after two days of no contact, no messages, nothing. Afterwards he texted me again but i didn’t see a notification, i just happened to check my dms and s...

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I don’t man, I don’t know what to say.

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I feel really, really bad. So his mom’s been in the hospital (she gets sick a lot) and that’s why he’s been weird. I told him I wanted to take a break and he told me it and that he didn’t want m...

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Nothing.

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I’ve been living a kinda two live situation. I have a whole fantasy life that just is starting to feel more real to me now, more alive. I can just sink into it and be happy. I have a group of fr...

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Hey diary. I’m sad, the usual kinda just exhausted..nothing to write again.

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That movie, that album is iconic and I shall forever cherish Melanie Martinez. I never really liked her music to the point of worship, only knowing/liking her songs Carousel and Dollhouse. Over t...

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I can’t find any answers and I’m in tears at this point. Genophobia. It makes sense but it also doesn’t. Every article I found says it’s rape or culture pressure that causes it. I just don’t have...

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He’s actively ignoring me now and I feel like crap. Every time, i get my hopes uo and I now I feel stupid I haven’t been able to write in here since I feel so.dumb about my entries I don’t even t...

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