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I’ve been busy. I finally decided to tell the owner of the support group what happened, after a friend convincing me now was the best time. I was shaky, not knowing what to say or do. I didn’t co...

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I know Celtic cares about me but I know if something where to happen with me and Madi she’d always take her side. Always. This kinda came to me at random but it made sense. Madi’s more important....

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I rarely talk to Isaac now, it’s kinda upsetting but he’s super busy and I just have to be patient. Some stuff has been going on at home that I’ll write about later.

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I feel really unhappy recently but I’m scared to say anything to anyone…or say why…

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I didn’t get to talk to daddy at all yesterday and it’s all my fault. I think I scared him away. I had this stupid idea… really stupid idea. I talked to Celtic about it and she told me be careful...

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Okay, so I’ve realized I must plan out my matchmaking adventure. I need the three of them in a healthy mindset, good economic place and ofcourse still interested in one another. I’ve decided I n...

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I told Celtic about Emi and she was horrified. She told me that I’m not his toy, that I shouldn’t offer my body to him when he’s upset. It made me feel so bad telling her because I said I wouldn’...

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I feel as though there’s going to be a rough entry soon, not about me but let’s buckle up. I’m the emotional support.

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I don’t have a happy place anymore. It’s all gross and mucky and wrong now. But that’s okay. These things happen. I been blacking out a lot. And barely controlling myself from falling asleep. But...

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Well, that didn’t go as planned. Today I decided to let all my vents out to a friend and what do they do? Ask for a virtual hug. And ignore it. After a while. I gave up my boyfriend ended up read...

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I’m going to explain what happened on Christmas. So, in my past entry I talked about how this “friend” I had lied about DID. A serious disorder and was basically given a slap on the wrist. She wa...

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So, I used another diary site before this before goodnight journal. I ended up deleting it because a whole bunch of creeps where commenting once my entire got more detailed and graphic. I regret ...

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I kinda realized I do have a good amount of people reading this, so I need to set something up so people know who I’m talking about. Xela = Kai = Ali (ex girlfriend) Babi = Chlo IRL BFF = Cousin...

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AHHHH I GOT MY OLD JOURNAL BACK https://app.goodnightjournal.com/journal/5444848

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So I had two dreams last night that made me feel super happy and other things. First one, was just me and Emi. He was hugging me close to the point I could hide my face in his chest. I was in a n...

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A quick wiki search should me how obvious some of my “friends” where manipulating me. It’s sad on my part, I can read people rather easily but not them. Anyway, I remember months ago I said the p...

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When I was younger and kind of sheltered project runaway and America’s next top model where a dream come true in my eyes. I wanted to be a model so bad I even tried out for American girl doll. I...

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I still feel bad about last night, I’m hoping I can cheer myself up by eating some food. Though the thought of doing so makes me feel sick to my stomach and mouth taste funny. I don’t know, I’ve ...

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I ruined our special night… So Isaac had some free time and I messed up. So bad. I touched myself without his permission. I came without permission… I feel so…so dissapointed in myself. I wanted ...

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I need someone to punch me or fuck me or something. I’m upset and that seems like the only thing that will help. I want to do something to give myself pain. I am going to try and finish writing s...

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Guess who forgot her granola bars~ So I have to wait till when I get home to eat, yes I’m extremely upset about it still. And I forgot my fucking PHONE charger so this phone better not die on me....

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ISSAC IS BACK. OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD. Okay so like he’s back and I’m so so happy. I almost started crying I was smiling so fucking hard I couldn’t contain myself. He’s back and I feel like a piece...

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Yesterday Isaac came back and talked to me for a hour or two, it was nice. He gave me permission to I guess explore while he’s gone sexually which kinda shocked me. I saw it as cheating, but he s...

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Good evening Isaac! How have you been cutie? I’ve been good, I know it’s a shocker. School was good though I was super sick Sunday night. Puked all over the place and stayed home the next day. I…...

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everything is messy. I can’t think straight. I feel like I’m dying. Everything hurts so bad I want to be loved but Isaac’s gone. He’s never coming back. No one ever comes back…I just want him to ...

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