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I want to run away again in Sober
I want to run away again, all by myself this time. I just wish I knew of a fairly healthy way to do it and no be stranded.
So he got out. Felt alwesome. We were awesome… Relapse
Mouth closed in Come Down
No need to even try to open up and share things to others about myself… I might just fucking leave if I continue to feel this way and can’t avoid it.
I know I never have fit in and I never will… Maybe I should just cancel everyone from my life.
Maybe there’s a word for it in Come Down
That he’s done time and in rehab for the better. I’m still here broken af…
I better have the money for my car this upcoming Thursday.
Scattered thoughts in Come Down
Obsessive. Conversations I’ve had with myself months ago still ruin me. I let myself embrace these thoughts sometimes but there are time that I’m overwhelmed of or stuck in my thoughts. I can’t ...
When he is like that, I love him and feel better about us again. He is awesome when he’s optimistic.
Family Group in Sober
Well, I’m gonna go see him today. I know this won’t help me at all. I’m so impatient and just waiting for him to be realeased. Then when we can speak in private I’ll say what needs to be said. Ma...
For the first time now. Maybe it’s the situation I’m in atm and when I was doing it is why I’m craving it. Ugh… That video I saw on YT, from a documentary, the lady that did it, the way they film...
Big City, Small World in Sober
So I’m walking… 🙄 I see the same mechanic, that looked at my car a week ago, on the other side of town. Embarrassing…
I hate this.. in Sober
Maybe even you too. At least at the moment. I let you put me in this situation. I hate it! I miss you.
I hate this.. in Sober
Maybe even you too. At least at the moment. I let you put me in this situation. I hate it! I never felt so much like a fucking outcast and recluse to damn much.
Since my feelings are genuine, I miss him a little at the moment.
Validation in Sober
Is all I want I guess, or need… to not be so hard on myself. I know I’m not “tripping” or exaggerating most of the time. So it’s nice hearing someone else say the same things I’ve said to him and...
It sucks wondering if I’m ashamed of myself Or Finding it unbelievable and surreal that I’m involved with someone you’d shake your head at and ridicule on Intervention. The shit that just happen...
I’m so annoyed that all he wants isnto get high. He can’t even be responsible enough to keep himself out of such a situation. Ugh… I already know this will wreck me big time hauling up his ass. I...
I feel wrong to say this in Come Down
I’m going to say it anyway. He would say “you’re looking too far into things.” Yeah well, that’s because he’s too fucking stupid. Seriously. Must be brain damage from drugs. Seriously…
I don’t know what I do wrong. Even when I don’t accuse or even seem insecure, they still do it. I don’t know why I have to hurt or why I stayed. I wish I didn’t ignore it before. I wish I didn’t ...
Stackers pills = crap in Come Down
Just like energy drinks. They do nothing for me. If anything it just gives me some weird anxiety feeling in my chest and head… I’ve been doing okay but it doesn’t help that I’m still constantly a...
I want nothing to do with anybody
I want nothing to do with anybody
His face... in Come Down
Gets sooo RED when he blushes. Hahah! If only he knew how much I can read him. …and I thought I scream too loud when I speak my mind… Damn I wonder how much money I could earn from my posts 🤔
When they are up to something in Come Down
Glance at your watch, constantly adjust your belt and hat. Go to the bathroom for whatever reason and for however long.
Rude, disrespectful? in Come Down
He got upset because he caught a guy checking me out. Yet I’m standing here the whole time he is CONSTANTLY checking her out. I can understand a couple glances but seriously.... How am I suppose ...
