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I don’t want anything in life anymore.... I don’t want to try. I don’t care what I might like, or use to. I don’t want to try anything new. I don’t care to be the best me anymore.... I just know ...

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There is so much going on with my mind right now. I want to write it all out. I want to speak it all out to someone. I don’t know if I’ll even be able to do that effectively. I really need help r...

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It sucks. I didn’t mean to be that way. I ruined the chance of having a friend I would have really enjoyed keeping. Then again. I’m nothing anyway.

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All that I’ll miss: Music Film I don’t know what will happen with me from this point. I know what I need to do but I don’t know how much opportunity I have to actually get started right now. I ca...

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I was doing okay. Financially. I can’t work with people anymore. I don’t know how I got triggered so bad. I tried not letting certain things bother me, knowing I’ll always have those moments when...

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I could have been tough and stayed and dealt with the toxicity to not be lonely. I could have been tough and stayed and dealt with the paranoia to have money. My mind is so messed up now. I don’...

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I really destroyed myself. I don’t know what I’ll do with myself but at least I’ know I’ll die after finally staying away from the person that made the biggest impact on every aspect of myself, m...

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I don’t know how the paranoia got so strong. It’s Wednesday and I feel that this week has been so slow for me. Every day this week that I’ve been at work has been more than my usual “everyone is ...

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I finally stopped talking to him. I think the void I’m feeling has helped. I can’t tell what void/realm energy I was feeling was but I haven’t felt it recently. Maybe it was the medication. Yeah...

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I’ve become nothing. I don’t want to try anymore. I need to figure out how I can finally disappear into this void energy that’s chasing me.

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I don’t want to be bothered with him anymore. I’m finally away from him, physically. My mind was already drifting away and that connection between us is still fading. All I sense is a dark heavy ...

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